Memories of My Life

Monday 31 October 2011

2011-10-31T21:48:00.001+08:00

Havent blogged for quite some time again... however, getting 100++ hits in my blog everyday somehow makes me feel kinda amused of it X). Today’s the last day of October and it’s time to type in something so that there’s at least a single entry for the entire month of October haha!

I can feel the effect of not blogging recently T.T... my english writing went downhill as well as the fluency lol! Back then, I was very used to blogging that I could write anything that flows through in my mind right away but now, I need to take some moment to think before typing the words...

Currently Im still in internship and one more week left! Well feeling mixed about it though... because there are a lot of stuffs to think about after my internship’s over. Thoughts of “What should I do after my internship ends?” keep playing in my mind...

About my thoughts on “What should I do after my internship ends”, surely, above everything else... I wish for holidays so that I can rest, take a break and so on... December has always been my most favorite month... most of my happiest memories happened during December. Simply love the atmosphere of Christmas around the town where when you walk around, there’s always a lot of joyful and colorful Christmas deco around and Christmas trees... colorful lights... as well as Christmas songs being played. I really like walking around while the song “Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the wayyyyy...”, “Last Christmas” and “What I want for Christmas is you” keeps playing around, haha XD. Not forgetting the rainy season during December that brings you a lot of nostalgia. Listening to sad songs/melodies during a rainy, cold and silent night are some of the best man! Definitely feels like you are in the world of Winter Sonata! Damn, mentioned about dramas, most of my favorite dramas are winter themed too, rofl!

Back to the main point, I wish to have holiday until after December ends... but just afraid that my parents wouldnt allow me... logically thinking, imagining me keep having fun in one whole month of December... and I knew that my parents couldnt stand seeing me keep turning on the computer everyday in the living room. I expect that they wanted me to do some part time jobs =.=... sigh. Of course I had the thought of taking some part time jobs to do after my internship ends, but I prefer it to be after December... Seriously, I havent gotten any proper amount of rest ever since after my college final year exhibition. And I think I need some time to reflect on things and thought about everything I had done in the year of 2011, as well as my future plans... and I thought having holiday for the entire month of December is just nice for all that. Hmm...

Next, is the dilemma of choosing going into the real life working society or taking my degree course first... I have been thinking a lot about this nowadays and I felt like continue studying to take my degree first. Felt that even if I went to work, it’s not going to be permanent as I would still need my degree, meaning that working through halfway then I resign from my job to take my degree course... Wouldnt it be better if I went for my degree course first, then find a job and settle in? But gaining some experiences through working first so that I can get a bigger picture of how thing works and experiencing how this (art/advertising/multimedia) industry fares, as well as the potential of this industry is not a bad idea too... just in case I find out that this industry isnt worth for me (I’m always afraid that I couldnt earn big bucks in the future... so yeah =.=), I can switch to other professions anytime before everything went too late, right? After all, I just got my diploma and not degree yet so things wouldnt be too heavy or serious if I want to switch to another profession as being compared to the scenario of ‘after getting my degree’.

However, even these 2 choices of choosing whether to continue taking my degree course or going to experience the working life first, both has their own dilemma too...

Let’s say I wanted to choose continuing my degree course first... yet again, Im afraid that my parents wouldnt allow me and wants me to gain some exposure by working first. Even if they allowed me to continue my degree course... I would feel kinda ashamed of myself as I still need to rely on them about my university fees and my daily expenses again... They are already in the age of mid 50’s, and in my family, it wasnt just me that’s still studying... There’s still my 2 sisters and younger brother... definitely it would be really hard for them to support all 4 of us at such age... I will feel even more guilty to them thinking that they are supposedly in the retirement age already but still choose continue to work just to support the family... while I still had to rely on them at such age...

Even if I choose to work... but for how long? Going to be 23 years old next year as this year is ending soon. If I choose to work... how long should it be? Until I feel experienced in this industry? Until I learned something from this industry? Until I collected and earned enough sum of money to support myself in university fees? Or keep on working and working without even thinking of getting my degree? If I choose to work first and taking degree later, imagining myself being 24/25 years old studying degree with the rest in the class being 20/21 years old... age-discrimination-left-out-phobia lol. Then after getting my degree, it would be a hassle finding a job to be settled in again. Above of everything else, I dont think I had all the necessary skills to work in the industry yet.

Truthfully, Im quite afraid of working life actually after hearing some of my friend's stories... being scolded/nagged by boss because lack of skills; being forced to work overtime ridiculously; being given hell lots of works to do, and so on. Hearing some of these unfortunate stories, I really felt glad and grateful that my company Im having intern currently is the most humane and reasonable one. If you're lacking of skills they are willing to teach you and all those nice working atmosphere etc... man, how lucky am I! Imagine yourself waking up everyday in the morning to work and thought of meeting your dreadful evil boss later! LMAO!

To add on the reason of why Im afraid of working life, is about the office politics that we usually seen in HK dramas. A person backstabbing another person in order to rise in position... thinking about this, I wonder if a lot of this kind of thing happens in Singapore since it's famous of people there being kiasu haha XD.

About work, I gradually find myself prefering to bury myself in work alone with minimal social interaction with clients. Hmm... I just like to sit in front of the computer doing work, and then after finish doing it, I'll pass it to another person to get the client's approval and let that person do all the interaction/social/negotiation thingy with clients lol! Not to say that Im anti-social... just that... it's really a huge difference between business social and friends-making get along social. In business social means you are having social interaction with your clients/business partners and this involves discussion or negotiating with them until both of you got mutual agreement that benefits both sides; friends-making and get along social is your typical 'Oh you are new to the environment so you try being social to get along with your collegues and making friends with them'. Trust me, business social is not fun at all. Oftenly you tend to argue your points out while your clients/business partner did the same and both of you will keep trying finding a way in order to get mutual agreement, if not, everything fails and you arent going to get the business.

Mentioned about business social here... sometimes...

I wish to be a baker. Staying in the kitchen all the time baking breads that's filled full of love for sale.

I wish to be a pharmacist. Staying in the pharmacy all the time waiting doctor's prescription to give medicines to people only. If there's any business social, it would just be clients asking which medicine/drug I would recommend to them, and I would just use my knowledge to answer them without any hassle.

I wish to be a pilot. Just drive the aeroplane when the time tells that I should be off for a flight. After being stable in the air, just leave the plane in auto-pilot mode and relax yourself in the skies until you need to do landing for the plane. Minimal business social interactivity.

Working in this art/advertising/multimedia industry, being a designer, you need to listen to what your client wants, do it for them and most of the time, they would ask you to change here and there in your design until they are satisfied with it. The most headache part is that they want it cheap and you need to negotiate with them about the price. Seriously, I think no one's willing to fork out their money to pay for a design... from what I've read in the forums, most of them want it free lol! And in the end, most of the designers earn minimal amount of money or gain no profit at all.

Well, I can just say that, I rather prefer the direct buy-and-sell business social kind of modal. Having to negotiate, argue, convince, discuss, finding ways to reach mutual agreement in order to get a business is definitely out of my league... Really, it's very different from your general dictionary of the word 'social' when it comes to business. It's definitely not your typical get-along with others/friends making kind of social.

Or maybe Im scared of / dislikes conflicts when it comes to social.

Haiz, what should I do?? Having tons of dilemmas now and choosing either one is going to lead me to another dilemma again... dilemma within a dilemma. Only if there's a life guidebook X(.

Heavy things aside, throughout my internship, it seems that Im fatter now as I find my trousers are getting tight lol! At first I was wearing size 27 and 28, and at size 28, I even need to use a belt so that size 28 wont be too loosy to me. Now wearing size 27, I can feel myself blowing the whole trousers and size 28 becomes just the right size for me. Well, size 28 is just nice... I think size 29 would be more comfortable to me now. Hahaha XD. Well, till the next time!

3D - 00 Raiser Gundam Modelling Reel

2011-09-01T02:02:00.007+08:00

A short 3D animation about 00 Raiser Gundam modeled by me in Maya I did once ago before my exhibition. Just a simple modelling reel of it for the purpose of just letting you all see the details of my 3D 00 Raiser Gundam haha...

Of course the original video is much more better than the uploaded version's... After trying uploading the video in youtube and vimeo, I have to agree that vimeo's quality is better than youtube's. The original video has smoother transitions but the video that you all are going to watch here looked a bit pixelated/blurry/has noises...

Some of the original render pics that I personally liked from the video:

Catching Up

2011-08-31T01:11:00.001+08:00

It's time to catch up blogging about my recent life after so many weeks of hiatus! I have gotta say that Im not a constant blogger anymore due to my inconsistency updates...

Hmm yeah right I have left out ever since mentioning about Im busying about my exhibition website and exhibition as well.

Man, this takes quite some time to recall what happened back ago while thinking of how to put them in words >.< However, no matter what happens, rest assured, because I PASSED my final sem babe XD! Well only if some of you are interested to hear more about my story though, hehe.

So about my exhibition website, it has been done but sadly, I cant show you all here because it never got uploaded to the web :( ... of course felt kinda contradicting since I have spent so much time and effort doing it and in the end, although it's finished, it's not uploaded to the web. Felt relieved and at the same time, it's like asking myself "Why am I spending so much time and effort doing the thing that never got the chance to shine?". I remember myself burning the midnight oil everyday just to complete my part... the website got like 8 animation videos and of course, they have been changed numerously. For you all information, rendering just a 5 second 3D animation takes 5x25x2 minutes as in 5 seconds has 25 frames per second and rendering a single frame in 1024x700 takes about 2 minutes. 250 minutes in total are needed to render a 5 second video. And while my desktop was rendering an animation, I just could browse around the internet and that's all I could do since my computer doesnt had enough 'power' to do other stuffs anymore. To make the matter worse, the original 3D file had problems so I need to redo all the animations that's running inside the file. After that, need to set camera; set lighting in the 3D file; and test render and that takes about 3-4 hour per file to me. Since there were 8 files, so it takes 24 hour for me lol XD. After render completed, then I have to compile them in another video editing software called After Effect to complete the video... so imagine if you were me... hahahaha! 250 minutes rendering a single 3D file, that's equivalent to 4 hour; 8 files are required to render, 32 hour in total are needed; add in the earlier 24 hour I have mentioned, already became 56 hour... if a person only works for 12 hour per day, how much does the 56 hour meant for that person and then back again, some of the 8 videos have been changed and redo for the n-th time, lol!

Aside of taking in charge the background videos and transition videos of the website, Im also in charge of cropping and resizing all my classmates artworks because need to put them in the website too... I think there's 8 artworks in total per person that need to put inside the website and my class has about 22 people include me. This is quite a tough and boring task to do ever =.=... all artworks are in different sizes and resolution; some are in CMYK and RGB; some are in 72 dpi and some are in 300 dpi (whatever dpi also got actually lol, I still remember some are in 100 dpi, 120 dpi, 200 dpi...), of course cropping and resizing all the artworks are a must to make them fit in the website... Assume that it takes around 3 minutes to check the info of a single artwork; resizing the artwork; cropping the artwork, then another 2 minutes to find a nice view to make the thumbnail and saving the artwork in final output, about 5 minutes in total are required to finish editing a single artwork. There's 22 people in my class and 8 artworks per person, then it's 22x8x5 minutes = 880 minutes = 60 hour.

Hahaha of course I have been screaming "FML!!" in my mind countlessly due to such heavy workload... however, Im the fastest person to complete my tasks in the team XP! (actually I have skipped a lot of classes especially Pengajian Malaysia and Web Broadcast, as well as the Exhibition class too... and everytime the Exhibition class starts at 10am, I end up reaching at around 12pm-1pm ROFL! Lack of sleep seriously and if I go to class means I couldnt do any of the tasks given to me so I prefer to stay at home doing them. Whatsmore, most of the time I went to college are just to show progress and update with my team about the website only) Hmm, my other 2 members in the team are about designing the buttons and layout; while the other one is to do the coding, page linking and coding the transitions anyway.

Having been went through so much completing the website, then there's only 1 week left for me to prepare everything for my exhibition such as final touch-ups of my artworks, design my own logo, design namecard, prepare for Pengajian Malaysia final exam paper, finish the web broadcast final assignment, think of my exhibition booth design... well 1 week isnt enough for me to get those done =.=... I only managed to finish designing the final web broadcast assignment (which I simply did), my own logo and namecard while for my booth design, completely no idea since the ACTUAL booth havent came in for me to examine and do research... to think about the booth design was very very abstract to me and it's really based on your own imagination when the actual booth wasnt there for you to examine and take a very very good look of it :( . The actual booth only came in 3 days before the exhibition which is on Friday that really makes you screaming "FML!!" in your mind again and again. It's really makes you feel like ****ing people hard or even drives you being suicidal already! The actual booth came on Friday around 12pm and you are only given time to decorate the thing until 6pm, and then during Saturday, only 9am-2pm. Closed on Sunday. The really great thing that I heard about during such critical moment was some of my classmates spending RM300-RM800 just for the booth backdrop and other printing stuffs. Heard about it, I already hoped that I was still living in a dream or even never wanting to wake up again the next day, holy mama for heaven's sake, just let me sleep forever and never wake up again! RM300-RM800 just for a 7 days long of exhibition! *faints* I only had RM250+ in hand though >.<... actually I also planned to just print a backdrop for my booth but hearing that amount of price, I have to change my plan and in such critical moment with all kind of feelings and dilemmas plus stress and all the pressure stirring around in my mind... my mind went blank and I thought, "All hopes are lost.".

Imagine that if you were in my situation, what would you do? At such moment, I was so devastated actually... during the darkest moment in my life trying to seek for help and no one was there for me... *starts playing Transformers 3 theme song by Linkin Park* just like Sam standing alone witnessing everything around has been destroyed, that kind of helplessness feeling, that kind of feeling of giving up, that kind of feeling of unable to find energy standing with your feets...

Just as Lee Hom sings in 'Things That You Never Knew',

"夜空洒满了星星
但几颗会落地?"

"The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
But how many there will remain?"

Sometimes I wonder... in all of my friend list, there are countless number of my friends that I have made with, but when I was really really in a very deep trouble, out of all my friends, who will be there for me? Just like the song... the night sky is full of stars, but how many will be there for you when you hoped them to be...?

Gradually I thought of my past... the moment when I first entered my college and all the challenges I had been went through until today... I thought of my lovely family members' smiles in their face, especially my dad and mum's smiles which are always so kind and warm, so assuring to me... Thinking of how they called me to quit this course but gradually became supportive of me... giving me so much of care, money and love... back then during that pre-exhibition period, it was the thought of their smiles that gave me the courage and energy to be able to stand throughout the whole thing :). That's also the moment I realized how much my family meant for me... until right this moment, I still find motivation and the courage whenever I thought of their smiles ;), cant make them disappoint am I? Have to keep their most beautiful smile forever in my mind... And the thought of they gradually had weary smile on their faces due to aging makes me want to treasure the memory of their smiles more...

So during Friday, what I just did was quickly find some of my artworks that can be printed out and did some window shopping to get inspiration as well as researching the price after examined the real booth that day. Saturday, felt like having no any other choices left, I decided to buy curtain just to paste the whole wall of my booth. My senior friend was right, Im not a booth designer so what really matters was my portfolio, and spending RM300-RM800+ isnt going to worth it for some temporary stuffs that Im going to throw in the end (Yes, in the end of the day, I threw all my printed artworks and only kept the curtain cloth lol). To be honest, I rather buy a RM300 digital camera or RM600 handphone... both of my camera and handphone are 'reaching their limits' already such as their battery gets dried out super fast and since they are old products... My handphone was bought during I was form 4 while digital camera during form 3, there are no replacement batteries to be bought around already :(. Move on to the story, bought a curtain cloth worth RM50 (not bad la, in future also can use, 2 birds in 1 stone) and printed a few artworks, as well as get my namecards printed, then 12pm-3pm, decorate my booth in college. Sunday, wanted to print my artworks again because my booth has so many empty spaces to be filled up seriously... but too bad all print shops were closed during Sunday... Then Monday continue to set up my booth... then also get some of my artworks printed and immediately paste them all over my booth's wall.

Tadaaa here's my booth! Laptop borrowed from my cousin sis by the way... thanks for those who came visit me during my exhibition specifically my U6F friends <3, and quite to my surprise, my parents came to visit my exhibition too which is quite touching to me :) ...

My classmates... (should say course mates instead actually haha, graphic design students are not inside here)

In the end of the day, it's a happy ending to everyone of course X)! There's no need for me to go college anymore! Currently Im on internship for 3 months in our local english newspaper company and after that, I will be graduated! :)

Currently internship, I wouldnt say much about it because Im scared of being tracked and it seems that most of the stuffs there are supposed to be confidential... Hmm of course it's quite tiring... have to wake up at 6am everyday just to reach on time on 9am; 5.30pm drive away from work to home just to cope with the massive traffic jam all the way to home until 7pm+... haha. After reached my home, bath, rest and eat dinner, already 8pm++... sometimes it's really contradicting and rather ambiguous thinking of what to do at home at such time really. Feeling very tired and it's already 8pm+, to think of what do you want to do is really such a headache... shall I continue building my portfolio? Nah, too tired and worn out, whatsmore it takes a lot of time, especially 3D... and yes, my only interest in just 3D lol! Shall I play some online games? Err maybe yes I guess... although really dont have the mood to play any games since the next day need to work again... but hey, what else I could do besides that? Shall I watch dramas? Probably yes... what's more enjoyable watching a depressing sad melodramatic romance drama followed up by listening songs from the drama before you sleep? (currently watching 'Autumn in My Heart', 'Secret Garden' and 'Ikemen Desu Ne'). Shall I work out to build my muscles? Probably not. Time wasting and makes me couldnt sleep due to excessive exercising, whatsmore, it requires continuous effort X(, boo... Shall I read some heart-warming short stories online? Probably yes too... nothing beats those good heart-touching stories that makes you want to appreciate everything in your life everyday and makes you thought of sweet memories before you sleep.

Well, that explains my current life, 6am-7pm is about work, 8pm-11pm is about playing online games, watching dramas, web-browsing, listening to music or reading stories online, either 1 or 2 or 3 of the list, hahaha XD! Then 12am-5am is sleeping time. Next day, repeat this process if it's weekday.

Overall, it's the end of my college life... for now, thoughts that I had and learnt:

1. In my course, money and talent are very necessary. Without money, no matter how talented you are, as in producing artworks and so on, you are nothing if you cant afford to print your artworks in the best quality available; no matter how fast you grasp or learn things quickly, without a good computer, you are nothing; no matter how much you learned about photography, if you cant afford a DSLR, you are nothing; no matter how well-planned you are planning for your exhibition, without the money to print the backdrop and other stuffs you are nothing as well too (seriously in this case, no matter how good you are, your choices are very very limited. Such as your namecards too because the printing fees is based on how much color you had in your namecard design, the more color you used, the more expensive. If you want it cheap, design a dull and straight-forward ones. There's no any other choices.). Finally, no matter how rich you are, but if you are not talented and design sh*t, you are nothing as well too rofl XD. Unlike other courses, talent and hardwork are required only since there's no need to print beautiful stuffs and there's no need to produce beautiful stuffs... lol. Just print documents, type reports and so on... even the most basic notepad and a bundle of Microsoft Office tools in a basic computer is enough for you to survive. Most probably. XP

2. 成功的人不是赢在起点，而是赢在转折点 (A successful person doesnt win during the starting point, it's the turning point instead). A nice quote that hits me so hard when I saw it because it's so true indeed. After seeing this quote, only I realized my critical mistake that I always made... No matter how good I did during the starting point, but during the critical moment of turning point, oftenly I'd panicked and that's why I lost terribly in the end... I find out that it has been always like this, whenever there's any projects, oftenly I got an upper hand in the starting point among my friends, and always being stable throughout all the way... then when there's something unexpected or miscalculations happened, this is the turning point where I start to lose. I guess sometimes it's because of my personality and behaviour... Im not that kind of person that could do last minute work... oftenly I will finish up any projects that I had at least 2-3 days earlier because I knew that I will panic when deadline is coming and my mind will simply went blank. Some other people, they might not be able to do anything during the starting point, but as the deadline draws near, all their hidden powers inside will be awaken, as if something blews up after a long sleep and that kind of hidden power and potential is really destructive and miraculous that makes them complete their project on time unexpectedly and much to everyone's surprise. Sadly, I dont have this kind of hidden ability just like some people do... I think there's 3 kind of person in this case, the 1st type is when they are given a project, they can do it right away and had stable progress throughout all the way but when there's 'turning point', they will lose out in the end; 2nd type is that when they are given a project, they are unable to do it right away and they looked completely had no idea at all, then as the deadline draws near, the hidden potential that sleeps inside them will be awaken and makes unexpected and miraculous result (which is 1 of their 'turning point'). The 3rd type is almost the same as the 1st type, except that no matter how much miscalculations or turning points they met, they can still go through the way out and gives the best result.

During the pre-exhibition period which is supposed to be a 'turning point' to everyone, in my case, given that I just completed the exhibition website and just 1 week left before the real exhibition comes, I was swarmed by other stuffs as well such as Pengajian Malaysia final exam and web broadcast final project. I only had limited time to prepare for my exhibition such as my namecard design, logo design, booth design and so on... but because I panicked and couldnt think of anything when I panicked (I just could think "What should I do?? What should I do??" in my mind repeatedly during such moment), and because of the unexpected news of the printing cost, I lost in the end. To think back of it, that was really a turning point for everyone in my class lol! It's really a golden chance to make miracles during the turning point and to turn the tables around... it's really a point where it can makes people goes from win>lose; lose>win; win>win; lose>lose situation.

It's really like what we watched in Initial D. It doesnt really matter how fast you drive or get an upper hand during the starting point of the match, what really matters in the match is the turning points of the race track in Initial D. Only the ones that could make full use and utilize the turning points of the race track would win. Sometimes there are also unexpected events during the match, such as sudden rain or sudden strong winds; given the environment and condition of the race track; day or night time... after I saw the quote, only I realized that how close Initial D portrays in our life.

Well that's it, Im striving to be AE86 that could outclass everyone whenever there's turning point in a race. The only winner that could win the race is the ability that still could drives in maximum speed while drifting at the turning points in the race track! X)

However, despite all these, it's all good in the end of course :)... I personally think that it's a really good experience too when I thought back of it... carrying laptop to there everyday makes my arms looked more manly (it really did make the veins of hand and arms became more visible); then everyday have to wake up early just to be there at 10am-4pm is quite a nice introduction before going to my internship since you need to be in your office at 9am-6pm everyday too; interaction between my classmates during the final 7 days before bidding each other goodbye and so on...

Oh yeah before I forgot, during the first day of my exhibition, it was the worst day I ever had. I remember the morning before the exhibition, the exhibition shirt I wore is S size and it's a T-SHIRT. The shirt is small that I couldnt fit in my head so when I used force to pull it down to fit in my head, the shirt was torn and I have to spend another 30 minutes to fix the thing =.=. Actually it's quite strange because before I ordered the exhibition shirt, I already read the information of the sizes available and measured my own body too... S size should be really ngam for me one actually lol... Im also not sure if they ordered woman's size in the end because I remember there's universal S size standard and woman S size standard =.=. The shirt's cloth quality is also very low one la by the way... just by touching it, I already knew that it was made of 80% polystyrene and 20% cotton material. It's really hot when wearing it and it doesnt absorb your body sweat X). After the presentation that day, I went to the wash room to wash my face, because my face was all wet, I went to pull out the tissue inside and immediately wipe my face... just to realized that the tissue got shit =.=, super FML wei! Must be someone that has shit hand went to pull the tissue without pulling it nicely, causing the next tissue roll being stained by his shit too lol! Damn sui lor me that day...

It's already the end of the August today. Reflecting what happened during the first half of this year, nothing really interesting happened much. The only most memorable moment was me having a butty adventure all the way until June. As I recall, my butt got acne of infection once ago and that took me almost 2 months to recover... then after that, the same problem occurred to me once again but this time I went to the clinic, the doctor said that the blood flow of my butt had been stuck and the inner flesh of my butt has been damaged by the ends of my butt bone because I have sit for too long on computer chair... after hearing what the doctor said, finally I understood the differences of sitting in computer chair, wooden chair, sofa and so on... sigh, I gotta blame myself for always sitting in front of the computer without moving away from it at all. The whole incident took me quite a long time to recover until around June. Every time I went to college, I have to walk slowly and most of the time, my butt was in pain no matter I was standing or sitting, except when I was in sleeping position. Sigh, having such a long nightmare for the first half of the year!

Anyway, posting up some gathering pics here too! Eugene came back and managed to meet up with him! Man havent seen him for 2 years, haha:

After watching Transformers 3 in Sunway Pyramid. Well the main hot question that almost everyone would ask about Transformers 3 - Bunny girl VS Fox girl. My vote goes to the new bunny girl rofl XD! Fox girl was kinda tanned to me and she's not as cute as the new bunny girl to me... hahaha!

Gathering before Eugene leaving...

With photoshopped Sook Voon inside this pic rofl XD! Well all the best to you Eugene! Will miss you X)!

Alright moving forward about my internship... at first I felt kinda worried of the place that Im having internship with because I heard from forums that the place there always got traffic jam, expensive parking, expensive foods and so on... Well after being there for 3 weeks, I gotta say that it's quite ok la there... not as worse as I have imagined at least. My place there is at Phileo Damansara which is quite high class and beside it is the Eastin Hotel... overall, my place is all about offices and buildings around, people there are mostly businessman, office people and hotel guests... no shopping complexes, no fancy restaurants and so on. The area is quite peaceful and quiet~ quite relaxing and filled with business feel. Once ago I thought of working in a area filled full of crowds like Bukit Bintang or Mid Valley... well sometimes I do enjoy the feeling of seeing a city filled full of different kinds of people around, with shopping complexes and restaurants... after being here for 3 weeks, I suddenly felt like starting to like the place already although it's very quiet... Being able to enjoy the quiet and peaceful area; enjoying my lunch in a peaceful and quiet environment with winds blowing, closing my eyes once for a while after every single bite of my food while chewing the food slowly inside my mouth; sipping my drink in such quiet and peaceful environment... it's as if the whole world stopped moving just for you lol! If you are in bad mood or feeling pressured, the quiet yet peaceful environment over there really makes you feel calm and in peace at your heart, that kind of "Aaaahhhh~~~" feeling =v=. Imagined that you are already in bad mood and feeling stressed out while working in a busy city such as Bukit Bintang... once you step out from your office already feel sien with cars and motorbikes engines and honking around. A city filled full of crowds with noises around... it will just worsen your mood rofl! But really, sometimes I do like to try out being in a busy city because I kind like the idea of it is a place where destiny and fate meets, hahahahaha! With so many people around in such a big city, it's really impossible to have destiny and fate for not meeting together in such situation you know X)! It's like Sun Yan Zi's 'Meeting' for the movie 'Turn Left, Turn Right' (向左走向右走). Just as 2 fated person walking alone in a big city, one turned to left, one turned to right... but in the end, destiny never hides away from them and eventually these 2 fated person met each other in the big city =v=... isnt that the sweetest thing in the world? This world is already so big that's waiting you to be explored and you never knew when the time comes if a busy city filled full of crowds is awaits your destiny... LMAO I was just crapping about this anyway XD!

The people inside there is also warm and nice but I really dunno how to express myself... sometimes I wonder a lot about my smile, thinking whether my smile looked fake, or looked cold, or does my smile looked as if being forced... And I wonder if my attitude towards them are too cold since Im quite quiet... and my eyes looked kinda fierce/cold sometimes to certain people... even when Im talking, my voice is very deep and sounds bold... duh, I dunno la lol! Better dont think too much about it!

So far so good, I hope that I will be keen of blogging and best of all to everyone ^^!

Dragon Ball

2011-07-22T05:05:00.000+08:00

Running out of korean dramas to watch recently after finished watching 'Time Between Dog and Wolf'... planning to watch 'Autumn In My Heart' and 'Summer Scent', but since these 2 dramas are parts of endless love series, I guess I'll watch them some other time lol XD! Found out that endless love series are really draggy and make people feel emo after watching 'Winter Sonata' and 'Spring Waltz', sometimes couldnt stand the emo-ness inside the drama, too many feelings were put inside the drama and tragedies + sadness. But this genre is what I like to watch the most haha! Tragedy + sadness + romance genre is my favorite!

Because of this, while scrolling down the list in PPS... eventually saw the anime Dragon Ball Kai so I pick it up. Hmm I've watched Dragon Ball during childhood and even bought comics of Dragon Ball (malay version) to read haha. But I've missed out the Freeza and Cell chapters... what I've watched during childhood about Dragon Ball was about the adventures of Goku when he was still a kid... and then when I bought the comics of Dragon Ball, it started out with adult Gohan participating the tournament and Majin Buu comes out... until the end Goku completely destroys Majin Buu lol! About Freeza and Cell chapters, I just read informations around and hear the stories from my friends. Sometimes managed to watch a few episodes on TV when I was young, but still missed out a lot since I need to wake up at 9.30am to watch the anime on TV haha... I think it was TV3 or NTV7 that time...

By the way, spent some time to finish the Cell chapter on PPS! After finished watching, now I understand why some people prefer to watch anime rather than reading the comic... the emotions are really there when you watch the anime but in comic, the emotions are still there but not as strong as the anime portraits... It's really fascinating to see the comic characters come to life in anime! Haha after watching, I really felt that Vegeta portrays well about the real life society of those kiasu people especially hahaha XD! What Vegeta did in the Cell chapter in the end was just being awed by Goku and Gohan's performances when they fought with Perfect Form Cell rofl! Vegeta is quite a jerk to me in the series =.=... and I also still remember he was the one who helped the revival of Majin Buu later on because of his jealousy of Goku's strength by turning himself into Babidi's slave lol... but still, in the Cell chapter I just finished watching, when Future Trunks was killed by Cell, he straightly went on to confront Cell without thinking of any consequences was really touching... Too many touching scenes in Cell chapter and it's all about a father's love towards their child I guess... haih T__T. The scene where Goku calls Gohan to fight Cell is also touching... Goku truly believes in his son Gohan, and the power of believing; and the words Goku said to Gohan are really full of emotion. Then in the end when Goku called Gohan to finish off Cell immediately where Gohan refuses because he still want to toy around with Cell in Super Saiyan 2 mode, that Cell self-destructed and Goku sacrificed himself in the process then later on Gohan was filled full of guilt... As Gohan reminiscing all those sweet moments with his dad... man that kind of sadness, the anime really portrayed it really well! After that the final showdown of Gohan using only one arm to use Kamehameha competing with Cell's Kamehameha, Goku tells Gohan to never give up and believes in his power while Goku's spirit also was showed helping Gohan using Kamehameha was the most touching scene ever! Hahaha nothing beats their family secret technique of Kamehameha lol! Well I guess there's some difficulty to FULLY bring out the emotions in comic especially just in one panel while the anime can make a panel in the comic becomes like 1 minute lol. Just enough time to bring out the emotion in a scene!

I also liked the Dragon Ball Kai opening song too! Anyway, I think Dragon Ball Kai is a remake of Dragon Ball Z series... in Dragon Ball Kai, the colors looked more vibrant than the old version ones I think... but the most notable changes are the opening and ending song though.

Dragon Ball Kai opening:

I really like the Dragon Ball Kai opening song! Compared to the old opening songs, Dragon Ball Kai's opening sounded more relaxed and cheerful which is I like the most... not forgetting to mention that the animation sequence in the opening is nice too! Future Trunks and Gohan looked so yeng in the opening haha!

About Dragon Ball Z opening, I like this opening the most (but not the song):

Simply because I like Gohan rofl XD!

Dragon Ball Z opening song I like the most is definitely Cha-La Head Cha-La, haha XD:

Goku holding Gohan while riding the cloud is so sweet! Sigh...

Rewatching Dragon Ball makes me thought how sweet my childhood was! Good old days... =v=

Monday 18 July 2011

2011-07-19T03:24:00.001+08:00

Had 2 nightmares before waking up today. I still remembered them quite clearly until now... The first nightmare I had was about a girl (not clear who is it, but something tells me that I know that girl) working in a petrol station (Petronas I guess, since I saw something green) and she had a very horrible female boss. In the dream, I was just observing how the girl was badly treated by her female boss... being slapped, being scolded, and in the end, the female boss talked about something and started to throw shattered glass plates to the girl. Just at that very instant, a car crashed into the petrol station's mart and crash into the boss. Then the next nightmare was about me killing cockroaches =.=... I was inside a very dark and watery toilet like those toilets you all watch in horror movies, and there's a lot of cockroaches inside. Killed a lot of cockroaches inside with insect spray along the way and killed the cockroach queen. After killing the cockroach queen, some nearby cockroaches that are not dead yet glared at me and a voice said "I wont forgive you... I will bring you down even if it costs my life...". Then a cockroach dashed out with an incredible speed, directly coming towards me. I panicked but managed to use the insect spray and sprayed at that cockroach. However, the cockroach continued to dash towards me but luckily I managed to dodge it. Just as I dodged, the cockroach was dying after the effect of insect spray and said "You destroyed our clan... I must avenge...". The cockroach this time dashed with a speed faster than the previous dash like a bullet speed towards my face and it seems like Im unable to avoid it. I woke up after shouting "Dont touch me!!" in my dream =.=. Well the 2 nightmares I had today, although it looks funny when I wrote here, but these 2 nightmares made me feel not in mood for the whole day... Just felt that something bad is going to happen soon.

As I feel uncomfortable as I keep sensing that something bad is going to happen, I googled 'dream meanings' and found:

To see a cockroach in your dream, symbolizes uncleanness. It also signifies longevity, tenacity and renewal. You need to reevaluate major aspects of your life. Alternatively, the dream represents an undesirable aspect of yourself in which you need to confront. A roach may also be a pun on smoking marijuana.

I guess the paragraph above explained my current life... not sure which but everything in the paragraph applies to me currently. The last sentence of the paragraph above might be true too because recently I have been a victim of secondhand smoke.

Just as I had already feel moody this morning, I make my own condition even worse after choosing to listen to the song 'What Should I Do' from Tree of Heaven OST... man, it suddenly reminds me of those bittersweet moments in the drama. Until now, 'Tree of Heaven' still remained as the saddest drama that really makes me emo I've ever watched. Not even 'Winter Sonata', 'Sorry, I Love You' and 'A Love To Kill' were sad enough to make me go emo... sigh. This completely kills off my excitement and hype after just finished watching the drama "The Time Between Dog And Wolf' recently :(.

Lastly, really wanted to say, dont take me for granted and even if I didnt say about anything, that doesnt mean I do not know... my patience have limits and surely, things would go ugly when I reached my limits.

Linkin Park - Iridescent

2011-07-05T03:46:00.000+08:00

Was never a fan of Linkin Park until I listened to this song in Transformers 3, lol.

Quite a motivational and emotional song I guess... especially the song totally fits in the scenario in the movie Transformers 3 perfectly! The lyrics of this song really describes the helpless feeling of depression of me... just like the scenario in the movie, you were standing alone with a devastating scene around you, as if the world is ending... but what else can you do besides the feeling of helplessness as you witness it?

Off topic, as to why I dont like Linkin Park previously until I listened to this song, is because most of their songs belonged to 'rock' genre I guess, and they sometimes got their butt in the Gundam franchise *no offense here* lol! Transformers and Gundam are their inspiration..? Well, I dunno.

Some pics of Linkin Park getting involved in the Gundam franchise:

Haha, to tell the truth, long time ago when I saw someone commented that Linkin Park should do some theme songs for Gundam anime, I rolled my eyes and facepalmed myself, "Gosh, for heaven's sake!", hahahahaha XD! Hmm... I prefer to leave it to the Japanese for Gundam while Linkin Park can do something for Transformers lol! However, after listening to this song, I gave this a second thought... but, most probably not XP.

But it is just me or what... after 2 days listening to this song (if you ask me how often I listen to this song, once per day, during night), I've felt bored of this song already... haha maybe rock genre isnt meant for me... X)

Sunday 19 June 2011

2011-06-19T04:23:00.004+08:00

Alright, it's time to sweep away some spider webs in my blog! Like seriously man, this is the longest record I have stopped blogging -- about 1 month+ since the last post!

Well, the reason I have not been blogging these days are simply because Im busy and lazy XD. It's been very busy to me since a month ago since this is my final semester in college and there's going to be an exhibition showcasing me and my class's artworks around August.

About how am I these days... I felt like I have been screwed these days. So yeah, allow me to release some of my frustrations here first.

Recently, me and my best college friends... as usual, 3 of us, are currently working together for the exhibition website... and I felt like Im on the verge of death because of it. To make it straightforward, simple and direct, my lecturer is going to fail me because the 3 of us failed to come out the design layout of the website recently.

Well, every single action sure has a reason behind it and surely, we had our own reasons for not producing the layout design of the exhibition website too:

Week 1:
Ok so 3 of us are in charge of doing the exhibition's website. At first, we have been told to design the website according to our own style of designing it. The 3 of us also have discussed among ourselves that I will do about the website coding while the 2 of them will be in charge of the website layout design and the website's button animation stuffs respectively. Then we just need to look for ideas and inspirations around for the website's layout design.

Week 2:
Our leader (our classmate at the same time too) told us to come out a rough sketch for the website. So this week we were also supposed to look for ideas and so on...

Week 3:
Alright so this week we came out the sketch of the website's layout and so on. We were told to start designing it (by photoshop or illustrator).

Week 4:
Because that 1 of my friend was supposed to be in charge of designing the website's layout couldnt came out the design of the website's layout, this week was rather inproductive and in-progressive =.=.

Week 5:
Suddenly our lecturer told us that we 3 are going to use the 'box' (well, the box was made by someone in 3d and of course, the box I mean here isnt an ordinary box... it's something like a mechanical box... duh, I dunno how to describe it here though. For you all to imagine how that box I mentioned here is, let's say that the box looks like the 'ALL SPARKS' cube you all saw in the Transformers movie. LOL). Then our job is to think of a storyboard for the box. About how the box will move in the website and so on...

Week 6:
Duh, screw the other 2 of my friends. Im the only one who thought and drew the storyboard for the box. Just as we 3 pass up the storyboard I drew for lecturer to see and approve, lecturer said that we were not supposed to come out the storyboard for the box but instead, it's about the storyboard of our website. About how the buttons in the website would have what effects popping out when you click the button in the website and so on, stuffs like that.

Week 7:
Just when we came out the storyboard of the website, lecturer told us that we need to use the elements inside the box as the design style of our website. Gosh, what happened to the earlier said "design the website according to our own style"??? The 3 of us were screwed once again and we continue to brainstorm for ideas on how to design the website according to the box's style (which is mechanical stuffs)

Week 8:
We came out a sketch of the website's layout. Like seriously, before you really design the website, you need to come out with a sketch of the website's layout first before anything just in case your lecturer dont like the design style and ban your design. So this week we came out with the idea of the website's main page layout was going to have 4 memory cards as buttons on the middle of the layout. Lecturer told us to design it.

Week 9 - 10:
That friend of mine who was in charge of the website's design couldnt came out anything at all and his reasons were because he had no idea to use the elements inside the box to design the website layout. Just as some of you might want to start questioning that why the other 2 of us couldnt help in designing the layout, that's because the 2 of us knew his attitude too well... hmm how should I describe it... his attitude is like... very stubborn. As long as he doesnt like something or a design, he will totally rejects them. Even if we 2 help him to design, he will surely reject our design by saying "Looks not nice to me. I dont want.". That's why when we tried to help him design every time, it's like totally wasted our time and effort of helping him =.=. *On the another hand, that's also the reason his gf broke up with him once ago XP*. Like seriously, even in real life when it comes to food, he's extremely specific and only wants food that's cheap and most importantly, the food needs to be Chinese style kind of food. He dislikes western foods, fast foods and Japanese food, and everything that's above his RM10 budget. Imagine how a girl could stand his stubbornness rofl XD!

Week 11 - 12:
So finally, as the 3 of us were on the verge of death and that friend of mine who was supposed to be in charge of design, started to ask for help from the 2 of us to help him in design. I was in charge of the student profile page design and another one was in charge of the student selection menu. Luckily this time he was not as fussy as he usually did and accepted our design. So for now, we help him to design and he will edit our design to suit his own tastes... whatsmore, right now he's in charge of the website's main page design, so any changes he did to his own design of the main page, the subpages of the website would change too to suit the main page design. Although it's like a total waste of time for me to help him do the design for the student page since he's like changing 80% of my design of the page... but oh well, at least my design helped to inspire him to finish the whole thing =.=.

Currently:
A few days ago, my lecturer mentioned that we 3 were going to fail because the 3 of us failed to come out the design layout of the website on facebook =.=". Well, mainly because the 3 of us havent shown any single layout in the previous 2 weeks since there's a presentation going on and strangely, the 3 of us werent given a chance to present the website's layout we did during the presentation and that makes our lecturer thought that we havent even came out with a single layout of the website yet. Pretty shucks because it spoils my image on facebook =.=. What I can only say is, the 3 of us have been screwed pretty much since the 1st week. Our objectives arent that clear and keep changes through every week like what the hell, we have been thrown into a maze of confusion throughout the whole thing. Since the 3 of us have done some layout of the website during the last few weeks, this week we managed to survive. Then during Friday, something that disturbed me was when lecturer was calling the friend of mine who was in charge of design as I mentioned above, to call me to help in the website, the tone sounded like I had never done anything for the team before. Probably because of my quiet and anti social attitude and whatsmore, I usually prefer to do stuffs that have been assigned to me at home instead of doing them in college, that makes me look like... the bad guy in the team :(. Besides that, the student profile page and button designs of the website I have passed them all to my friend to edit them, so you all can imagine how bad I sounds like during that situation. Oh well... However, now my task is to do the 3d animation of the box that's involved in the website. Certainly, I do hope that I could survive through all these!

The next frustration I had is about my lecturer commented that my 3d character design looks like Gundam >:(. Let me show you all some of my works here too by the way...

My 1st own 3d character design, it's based on the horse family because when thinking of the concept of it, I want it to look like something in between horse, deer, donkey and so on in mecha type. It's going to be some kind of 'versatile-type' of mecha, having the ability to modify and re-equip various types of equipment according to the combat situation. Because it's design concept is based on the horse family, the equipment set of it also revolves around of the horse family such as the 'Pegasus' equipment (based on Pegasus to enable the mecha to fly) and the 'Knight' equipment (based on a knight's horse equipment which is a lance and a shield) as you all saw above. I named this character of mine as 'Polaris Tears' XD. Other equipments for it are 'Unicorn' (based on Unicorn's horn) equipment, 'Stag' equipment (based on Stag's horn), 'War' equipment (based on the armour of warhorses wear during war, which is going to be heavily armored), and 'Carrier' equipment (based on carrier horses. This equipment acts to support the mecha for carrier transportation of supplies and has non combat abilities). The hidden ability of this mecha is called as the 'Night-MARE' system. When 'Night-MARE' system was activated, this mecha's pilot cockpit would turn red and it's body would turn dark purple, similar as the concept of a 'crazy running mad mare in the night' I once read in a storybook... forgot what story it is though... the storybook's illustration is still clear in my mind, the illustration is about a dark mare running fiercely in the blue night with some kind of haze and mist around, and this inspired me to make it as the hidden ability of this mecha which is 'Night-MARE' system ^^! Just so you know, mare is also one of the horse family too! Night-mare is a pun!

My 2nd character design which is based on dragon. About the rationale of it, Im lazy to write it now haha XD.

The 00 Raiser Gundam which I have spent about 1 months to complete it... now I have update the poster for it :).

Destiny Gundam which I also have spent 1 month to finish it. Since 2 of my character designs and 00 Raiser Gundam had their own poster. I also decided to make a poster of it. Besides, I do think that by doing the poster for every character such as making the background and character poses, it shapes the 'attitude' as well as 'story' for the character. (也就是说，让你的character看起来很有个性和让人联想到它们的故事背景). And finally, to compose your 3d characters in a presentable way/format.

Wing Gundam... also spent about a month to complete it once ago before I started to do Destiny Gundam haha. As of why I use sea as the background for Wing Gundam, I guess only those who have watched the anime Gundam Wing would know it haha XD. In the very 1st episode of the anime, Wing Gundam had it's first and the worst battle with Zechs on the sea. Wing Gundam was defeated and sunk into the sea and the pilot Heero Yuy has been swept by the sea to the beach nearby.

Back to the story, my lecturer said that both of my 3d character designs looked like Gundam. I still remember the funny scene when my lecturer asked my classmates:

Lecturer : "Class, *pointing at my dragon mecha character* does this thing look like Gundam?"

*Everyone was in silence and stared at my dragon mecha on the screen, while I was deeply in thought : "Got looks like Gundam meh?? It really looks like dragon too me wor... if not dragon, it's possibly looks more like Kirin or Lion..."*

After about 10 seconds+, one of my classmates say : "Didnt watch Gundam before." and the questioning stops, LOL XDXD!

Seriously, does 2 of my characters looked like Gundam? Whenever I showed and asked my friends what my 2 characters looked like, all of their answers are like 'pegasus', 'horse', 'robot horse' and for my dragon, 'dragon', 'kirin', 'head looks a bit like lion'... none of them said that they looked like Gundam at all =__=". Even I showed to my college best friends, they only say my characters look like transformers and lego horse lol! After some thought, me and my best college friends can only think of:

1. The design style looks like Gundam, which is quite simple and nice.
2. Maybe I did too many 3d Gundam models and whatsmore, my characters are also about mecha so that makes them thought my characters are Gundam too.

Alright, maybe the design style of my characters look like Gundam (to some of you, but most probably close to none), but first of all, let me show you some mecha/robot pics to you all before jumping into conclusion that my characters look like Gundam:

Evangelion.

Full Metal Panic. Howdy some of you might say that this really really looks like one from Gundam!! Seriously!

Getterrobo. Yeah right, this is another Gundam to some of you too?

Super Sentai Gokaiger. On the another note, super sentai series is Japanese version of Power Ranger series. Screw the American Power Ranger series. The American ones reused the very same costume and mecha from the original Japanese Super Sentai series, just that they made the storyline a bit different from the original ones.

Voltron. Gundam enough?

Gurren Lagann. Gundam enough?

Mazinkaiser. Gundam enough to some of you too?

Patlabor. Gundam?

Reideen. Also looks like Gundam?

Macross.

GunxSword.

Zoids.

Battlemech.

Code Geass. Also looks like Gundam??

Virtual On Cyber Troopers! *boy I dam missed this arcade game* Also Gundam enough to you all?

Also from Virtual On Cyber Troopers.

Virtual On Cyber Troopers too... Yeah my favorite mecha selection of the arcade game! Homing missiles ftw man!

After seeing a lot of mecha/robots pictures, do they looks like Gundam to some of you?? If some of you say "Yes" here, sadly I have to disagree with you because you dont understand Gundam nor Japanese robots at all. Allow me to explain.

This is what my lecturer mentioned and the main point I have been waiting for. It's A GODDAM GUNDAM! So what makes a Gundam GUNDAM? What makes Gundam different from other mecha and robots?? As a Gundam fan and as a designer, the only thing that makes Gundam a Gundam is -- it's head, and it's based on samurai concept. Notably the samurai's helmet and the V-fin on the head. Every mecha that's called Gundam is because of the mecha's V shaped fin on it's head. Every Gundam SURE has one on it.

Conclusion? I can only say that all kinds of mecha and robots sure have their own similarities and so on no matter which are they from. Like seriously, they all are mechanical stuffs what =.=. Even if a mecha/robot looks like Gundam, I dont see the problem why something cant looks like Gundam since all kinds of mecha/robot already had the same traits and similarities since from the start. Even I let my bro see my characters, he also can say that my characters are 'robot horse' and 'robot dragon' but not Gundam. From head to toe, I cant see anything that looks like Gundam in my characters, except the same concept style with Gundam, which is 'simple and nice'. After looking so many kinds of different types of mecha/robots above, dont they look 'simple and nice' to you all too? Yes and if you want to relate all of their concept is 'Gundam style' which is simple and nice, is TOTALLY WRONG. I would say that this kind of concept is more likely to be categorized as 'Japanese mecha/robot' to be more probable.

To compare 'Japanese mecha/robot' with 'Western mecha/robot', here's a few examples of 'Western mecha/robot':

Terminator

Transformers.

Similarities between Terminator and Transformers? Both of them looked very complex and messy with a lot of details. Nuff said.

However, Im not surprised if someone saw a Transformer and said that it's a Gundam instead; Terminator robots to be Transformer robots instead; *insert a Japanese mecha series here* to be Gundam instead, and so on. Seriously, I had the experience of seeing some kids that watch Transformers movie saying that Transformers are Gundam instead. I cant blame on them since Transformers and Gundam had similarities as well, particularly in terms of their eye and head, as well as every part of their body. The only difference between Transformers and Gundam is just that Transformers had more complex stuffs and details compared to Gundam. Otherwise, to be stereotypical here, both of them are almost the same. Since both of them are robots that had hands and legs. But in my case, saying that my characters that are supposed to look like a horse to be Gundam when it's supposed to be horse; saying the dragon character mecha to be Gundam when it's totally looks like dragon, are totally _______ <--- fill in the blank here please.

So yeah, this is Gundam because it looks like Gundam.

This is Gundam too.

This is Gundam!

When a robot that's supposed to look like a dog more than Gundam and you still call it as Gundam...

So yeah, this is supposed to be Gundam too, then.

And lastly, this real life robot made by Honda, is also a Gundam too.

Well, after all of these nonsense about Gundam, I have decided to quit making mecha/robots in 3d. Too many similarities in all mecha/robot types. If I change my mecha/robot design, another label would come out again and again. Let's say I design a mecha that looks complex, lecturer might say that it looks like Transformers, violent and bad-arse a bit then it's called Terminator. Totally give up and no mood to design any mecha/robots for now =.=.

Recently, besides working on the exhibition website, Im also working in something that has more 'feelings' inside it. It's also about 3d and it's an interior related to a korean drama... I have been doing it for 3 months already though and now it's nearly complete... hope that I could really complete it in this short amount of time... well, be sure to look forward to it hehe XD!

Anyway, despite all the bad stuffs Im having... to think it positively, everything sure has a good reason behind it and it's not like... too negative and most probably is for my own good. After all, after the next 2 months, I will not be seeing everyone in my college any longer. So, meanwhile working out with all the troubles Im having right now... Im also working through the end at the same time too... after all, it's just 2 months left! :)

Saturday 23 April 2011

2011-04-23T14:39:00.001+08:00

Neglected my blog again... Recently my internet connection is not stable, sometimes I could online in the morning then later during evening, the internet line was down. Frustrating. Then a few weeks back ago I was quite 'traumatized' after knowing mu subjects' result... Makes me think that there's nothing Im good at... However, Im glad that I survived my previous sem :). Too many tragedies happened previous sem... luckily Im one of the survivor that passed all my subjects. Looks like my new year wish of hoping that I would just survive without having any expectations or high hopes of having good grades or becoming 'ace student' or whatever... I just want everything to be smooth and stable, came true. Currently Im in the final sem of my course. Ah surely I hope that my final sem would be a smooth one too!

Man, it's been quite a long time I havent been blogging and right now I had difficulty in typing my thoughts out!

About what I've learned during my previous sem, I gradually felt that sometimes whatever that Im doing, I shouldnt got affected or influenced by others ba... always remember that primal innocence (最初的感动) lor XD. Sometimes it makes me feel kinda sad seeing others giving up doing thing that they always like to do because of being affected by the world's cruel reality or professionalism... Like, if you like to draw, just draw whatever you like, dont give it up just because of you couldnt draw very well or just because your drawings looked not professional enough; if you like taking photos, just take photos everywhere you like, dont give it up just because of you dont have a professional high end DSLR or just because of the photos you took are not professional/beautiful or just because people commented that the photos you took are not good or just because of you dunno photography rules (rule of 3rd in photography for example) or just because of you dont have photo editing software like photoshop. Many people gave up doing what they like to do because of this world's cruel reality... Recalling back my memories of my own childhood, I have always liked to draw things since I was a kid, during primary school, no matter in class or at home when I opened my textbooks, almost every page of the textbooks were filled full of my drawings especially drawings of dinosaurs, Pokemon, Digimon and Doraemon; Had joined lots of coloring contests; Went out to play basketball with my friends during afternoon after school... Now, as I gradually becoming older year by year and day by day, studying this course and being exposed to the reality... I nearly gave up doing what I liked to do because of those reasons... like I cant draw as good as others so I give up drawing/draw lesser now; like DSLR is popular among the society these days... nearly everyone have it and the era of digital camera is dying, and I dont have the money to afford a DSLR, I couldnt take good pictures like others did so I almost didnt took any pictures now, my digital camera untouched; I cant do things as good as the others could, so I give up. Isnt that stupid? Giving up what you like to do because you cant do it as good as other people could and after knowing the cruel reality of this world? How good if things can be like those innocent days back then... you draw just because you like to draw, no matter how your parents scolded you not to draw in your textbooks, you still draw in your textbooks... Why? Simple. Because you like it. So no matter how much you are exposed to this world's reality or any situations you are in, you could give up doing what you like to do, but never forget that primal innocence (最初的感动) you once had before deep inside your heart. Who knows that one day, although you had already given up your dreams, sometimes under certain circumstances that you need to pick up your dreams again, that kind of feeling feels a bit different... although you still couldnt do it as good as other people could, but still, you will feel satisfied and happy with it. Hmm dunno... maybe because it feels like it's you. You, yourself, and you are you. Haha XD! I would really like to think this way, simply because it makes me feel better.

Then about my own development, these days I personally think that my designs are just ok-ok only la, usually not the best but at the same time, not that worst until what kind of standard ba... just that my designs usually lack of something to hit other people's 'G-spot' ba, rofl! Hmm and then these days I felt that Im lacking of some social skills... most of my time being spent at home and rarely communicate with other people these days... sometimes I feel myself stupid when trying to speak and it feels really like it's been a very long time I havent communicate with other people with my mouth. My classes in this new sem are mostly 3 days a week and the previous 2 months are just about completing my final projects, spending most of my time at home too unless needing to meet my group members... social skills deteriorating haha.

Anyway, a few weeks back ago, have been looking for hair thinning scissor, after asking a few friends, finally got to know that my nearby friendly shopping complex IOI Mall got a hair specializing shop that even got sell hair cutting scissors and hence I went there to buy my hair thinning scissor. Felt kinda impressed while buying my hair thinning scissor, because all the hair cutting scissors on display in the shelf are mostly RM300 - RM500... luckily I asked that if there's any hair thinning scissor that's in RM100 - RM200 price range.

The price of the hair thinning scissor I bought was originally RM199 mentioned at the price tag, luckily that person sell to me as RM150!

Quite satisfied with the functionality of my hair thinning scissor! It really can make my hair looked thin whichever part that I wanted to without affecting the length of my hair! With this scissor I can have airy hairstyle look, springy hairstyle look and spiky hairstyle lol! Especially spiky style, not only your hair length need to be short enough for your hair gel to support them to stand up, the thickness of your hair is also another important factor to achieve spiky hairstyle because the more thick your hair is, the more weight your hair would be... so your hair gel also need to have enough 'holding power' to support the weight of your hair to achieve spiky hairstyle as well as the length of your hair too. Then the final factor is about the way you apply your hair gel... if you applied too much hair gel, it will add on weight to the strands of your hair, making your hair unable to stand up to achieve spiky look rofl! So in order to optimize the output of your hair's weight, hair thinning scissor is undeniably necessary for that purposes.

Ah overall, I really like my newly bought hair thinning scissor! Can thin my hair without affecting the the hair length of my hair, as well as adding some finishing touch every time after I cut my own hair short, haha.

Recently I also watched a lot of shows too, currently watching 'One Litre of Tears' drama! Finished 'Spring Waltz' a month ago and also finished watching 'Heaven's Tree' recently. I nearly gave up watching 'Love In Harvard' because of the slow moving story plot! Too boring after the drama took place in Korea... I like the part where they are still in Harvard, but after they graduated and went back to Korea, things start to progress very slow and starts to be boring. About 'Heaven's Tree', man I love it so much!! I watched it before during form 6 on 8tv and now rewatching it for the 2nd round, it still gives me the same sweet and sour feeling just like the 1st time I watched it. That kind of 最初的感动... aih...

Sunday 10 April 2011

2011-04-12T00:13:00.005+08:00

I always felt that every individual has their own right to choose their own path and their own life without being controlled or influenced by others. Living a life that's being arranged and being controlled by someone else, how does it feels like? It's like you are living a life for someone else's, it's not your own life anymore. What are you, someone else's puppet?

People are judgmental and oftenly make decision or hand out their judgement too fast without having second thought. Sometimes just a mistake or error you made, or even some remarks you made, others would already thought of what kind of person you are.

Sometimes, there are things that you should keep it to yourself if necessary. I cant understand what's wrong with people these days that keep talking and mentioning about someone's mistakes or wrong doings they did in the past. Why bother mentioning and brought up the matter again if everything's ok and you have to know that we are HUMANS. We often make mistakes here and there and the mistakes we made in the past, we cant guarantee ourselves that the same mistake or the same tragedy would not repeat again in the future no matter how much we promised to ourselves or to others. Promises are not forever, it's just some temporary excuses and assurance. No matter how sincere a person promises something that would never happen again in the future, it would surely happen again because nothing is forever and after all, we are humans. Personally I dont believe in promises other than it's just a temporary assurance of something for a certain period of time.

But to think about it, why do people often like to talk about someone else's wrong doings they did in the past? It seems like they are the ones that are still living in the past instead. God, for this first time ever, I feel like erasing every single mistakes I did in the past for heaven's sake. I cant stand someone keep using my past mistakes as reasons to their own benefits especially it comes to releasing their own anger or to their own boredom. Cant people just understand that mistakes keep happening from time to time? Even themselves. And yeah, sometimes it's good to know about someone's past, but is it necessary to reveal it to someone else too? Yes, I know how good it feels like to reveal someone's mistakes or wrong doings in the past to someone else, it feels like... you got the most important 'key' ever to control that person's life, isnt it? By manipulating the public's opinion towards that person and to get all the benefits by knowing a person's past mistakes, surely, you could choose to destroy a person's life anytime of your own liking, isnt it? Spreading it like wildfire everywhere to degrade that person, mentioning it just because of your own boredom, using it as excuse just to release your anger... after all, that person's life is in your own hands - because you knew that person's past mistakes, isnt it's fun? Whenever someone's gossiping about another person's past mistakes or when it comes to my parents scolding my siblings where they also throw out every single past mistakes they did before, I just cant understand why are those necessary especially those that arent relevant to the present except it's for their own benefit and using it as additional excuse to scold more about that person.

Seriously, what's wrong are people these days? Instead of thinking who is right, cant they think of what is right instead?

People might be right or wrong; even if people are right, that doesnt mean that they right; even if people are wrong, that doesnt mean that they are wrong too. Just because someone who is wrong because of the mistakes he/she made, you just cant ignore the fact that what is right too. Sigh, I cant even blame people these days for jumping into conclusions so fast because they are humans too.

After all, humans made mistakes and errors all the time. Even this post I wrote, is a mistake too perhaps.

Duh, for now, feeling so FML.

Time To Love - Nami Tamaki , T-ara

2011-03-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

About 2 months ago Nami Tamaki had just released her new single song 'Time To Love', never had the chance to listen to it until just a few days ago! The moment I listened to this song, I immediately fell addicted to it haha!

After that, gradually I find out that actually Nami Tamaki's recent new song 'Time To Love', is actually the Japanese version of the Korean version 'Time To Love' too by T-ara. Listened to both 'Time To Love' in the Japanese version one by Nami Tamaki and the Korean version one by T-ara, I would say that I love both versions equally but more on to the Korean version of 'Time To Love' by T-ara because I prefer the Korean version's lyrics of this song more... the Korean version's lyrics is more meaningful and makes more sense to me; Besides that, I also prefer the Korean version MV of this song compared to Nami Tamaki's MV of this song... The Korean version of this song MV has story as well as dance scenes which blends well together while Nami Tamaki's (Japanese version) of this song MV somehow looked too fast-paced with all the dance moves to me... Well maybe that's why in a video, we need to have slow and fast paced scenes to balance things up... if too many fast paced scenes in a video, it will make the viewer feel breathless and messy; if too many slow paced scenes in a video, it will make the viewer feel bored (One of the video production tips I learned XP).

Anyway, here's the Korean version of 'Time To Love' by T-ara:

Good person, you're my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

Maybe I'll see you, so I wear the clothes you bought me
Cut my hair short the way you liked it
To walk the road I walked with you
I walk around the long way, thinking maybe you'll be there
I kept my old phone number
Maybe you'll try to find me again, my house still the same
In my mini-hompy, the songs we used to listen together
Maybe you'll see me, maybe you'll come back

We didn't forget each other yet
We still want each other
We are still loving
Going seperate ways
Actually, I want to see you
I miss you like crazy
I wait for you forever
In the end, I wait for you
I stop to wonder
I'm going around in circles

Good person, you're my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

Yo, maybe I'll see you
Maybe your heart will shake at that road
Worrying that my heart will become weak
Worrying that you'll see my bone-skinny state
I avoided that road I walked with you
I walked the long way, thinking you'd be there
I changed my phone number already
I moved houses, thinking I'll think of you
But still unspeakable words leak from my mouth
Maybe I'll see you, maybe you'll come back

We didn't forget yet
We still want each other
We are still loving
Going seperate ways
Truthfully, I want to see you
I miss you like crazy
I wait for you forever
In the end, I wait for you
I stop to wonder
I'm going around in circles

Good person, you're my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

"Let's start again"
I want to say to you
I can't see you nor hear you
but I'm still holding on to you

Getting soaked by the pouring rain
I go to the place where we first met
I feel so pathetic
The warm place is still there in my heart
Can you endure any more?
Then I'll endure a little more
But it takes some effort, I loved you too much
I tried my best, but it's impossible

Maybe I'll see you by coincidence
Maybe you'll see me
I wipe my tears, looking at myself in the mirror
Maybe you'll come back

Good person, you're my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

Overall, I like Nami Tamaki's vocals of the song while for the song MV and song lyrics, I gotta say that I prefer T-ara's! Sigh, this song makes me thought about first love... XP. 'Time To Love' is probably one of my most upbeat song up to date in my song list currently (usually I listen to sad, sentimental, instrumental genre of songs). By the way, Nami Tamaki is my Lady Gaga rofl XD! I dont usually listen to upbeat songs except from Nami Tamaki's.

Out of topic, in the Korean version MV of 'Time To Love' by T-ara, a lengzai spotted:

Hahahahaha I like his overall look! Maybe he can be my number(x) hairstyle idol rofl! However, Cloud still remains as my 1st hairstyle idol ever XP! By the way, the handsome Korean guy above is Geonil from Supernova!

Saturday 19 March 2011

2011-03-20T03:08:00.001+08:00

Some random thoughts:

- Sometimes I felt ashamed of being Malaysian... too many shameful events that happened especially about the Japan's earthquake and tsunami reaction =.=. Besides that, I found that Malaysians like to cursing bad words in online games especially that online game is Taiwan's. Most of the Taiwanese players, I rarely seen them cursing in the game as well as players from other countries... However, only Malaysian players are the exception... what a shame. Sometimes it reflects how low class a country is by judging on how well mannered the people from a country are. To me, the more well mannered people in a country = the country is higher class. Sigh.

- Felt that facebook is sometimes too overrated. A lot of contests these days are even held on facebook and 90% of the contests held on facebook are based on how many 'likes' you got which makes me feel... like wth?? I hate this kind of contest judging system based on how many 'likes' you got on facebook. Sometimes I saw even the worst entry, just because the worst entry got the most highest 'likes' votes, it won the contest. Obviously, this kind of contest judging system is totally broken especially if a person has a lot of friends in that person's facebook account... the more friends you had in facebook, the more advantages and upper hand you will get. In my opinion, if want to held a competition or contest, of course it's gotta be fair and square... not just judging an entry by the number of 'likes' the entry gets on facebook. Like c'mon man, if you held a contest or competition, you gotta have judging abilities. If it's me, I would definitely choose the best entry to be the winner of the contest, not by the number of 'likes' an entry gets... if I were tied in decision between 2 or more entries, I would judge based on the difficulty, details, effort, entry that suits the contest's theme and so on... or even ask for other's opinion... as long as it's not just plainly based on the number of 'likes' the entry gets on facebook! XP

Think about it, there's have been lots of such contests based on the number of 'likes' in facebook already... and sometimes some of my friends pop out in facebook chat or MSN asking me to click 'like' on their contest entry =.=". Seriously, sometimes it's a social issue these days... why are there so many people who want to held such a stupid contests if they dont have judging abilities? It's like they have nothing better to do and just thought : "Ah, Im so bored... alright, Im going to held a contest in facebook (for various reasons... especially to attract the public's attention towards a company's name branding probably) based on the number of 'likes'."

- Mentioned about facebook... just another random thought... sometimes I do think that facebook reflects how much or sincere a person loves you especially couple relationship thingy XD... Like, let's say there's 2 person being in a relationship in real life, but in their facebook account, they didnt state that they are in a relationship with that another opposite person, nor posting up their couple pics in facebook... is it just me or what, it feels so strange to me... like, if you really like a person... why not just declare it in facebook stating that you are in a relationship with that person instead of hiding it rofl! It feels like... there are lack of confidence and trust between the couples... As if they dont have confidence that the relationship would last long... as to why they are not putting up their couple pics in facebook, it's like just to ensure that both sides wouldnt get hurt looking back at their couple pics in facebook after breaking up; or just in case they would break up in future, they still can retain their own respective image... Haha maybe that's just me XP, but I do think that if really love a person, be brave and confident! Never afraid of showing the public how much you love that person!! Hiding your own relationship status or not posting up couple pics in facebook... 未免太没自信和不够MAN了吧! What is there to be afraid of? ROFL XDXD! But yeah... facebook isnt equal to everything and it's not necessary to show it in facebook too. But still... these days, facebook's development in this world's society has a very high impact that it cant be ignored... hmm think about it.

- Lastly, I really feel curious of how many people in the world love/hate Justin Bieber XP! Really want to see if there's voting of it lolz!

Mobile Suit Gundam - The 08th MS Team

2011-03-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

Finished watching the anime Mobile Suit Gundam - The 08th MS Team 2 days ago! It only has 12 episodes but it's very nice although it's an old anime. The story is about a young man in the Earth Federation faction called Shiro Amada who has been assigned to the 08th MS Team. Unlike the Gundam anime series we watched nowadays such as Gundam SEED, SEED Destiny, 00, or even Gundam Wing that features on 'change the world' concept or even 'one versus the whole world' with flashy attack moves, The 08th MS Team is more like a realistic fashioned war which focused on the life of those 'small armies'. Well, I felt lazy to write the plot summary here so Im going to copy paste about the plot summary of the anime from wiki to here XD:

The series is set in Universal Century year 0079 in the jungles of Southeast Asia. The Earth Federation and the Principality of Zeon are fighting a brutal guerrilla war for control of the area and its resources. Zeon’s best hope for victory in the region rests with an experimental mobile armor and its pilot, Aina Sahalin. Meanwhile the Earth Federal Army, which has been fighting the Zeon in the region, receive reinforcements in the form of Ensign Shiro Amada, newly named commander of the 08th MS Team. Aina and Shiro know each other from a mutual rescue in space, but when Shiro discovers that Aina is in fact the pilot of the Zeon mobile armor he is arrested for treason. The Federation offers Shiro one chance at redemption: He must take the 08th MS Team deep into Zeon held territory to find Zeon’s hidden base. With the Zeon backed into a corner, and the Federation dependent on Shiro and his team for victory, the star crossed lovers must decide where their true allegiances lie: with each other, or with their respective sides.

Overall, I really love the story of this series... especially the romance between Shiro and Aina... \-v-/ ... so romantic!! It's like the 2 of them are from different world and being thrown into war forcefully due to their respective factions... ah, as two wheels of destiny met each other... they will never be separated again no matter how cruel fate is -v-! It's good to see them being together in the end living in an isolated place that's safe from war and the ending reminds me of Titanic a bit T.T ... Ah, just watch the series yourself XP! Compared to the recent Gundam anime series like SEED Destiny and 00, personally I think this series can go on par... man, the romance element in this series is better than SEED Destiny and 00 that makes me love it so much haha! For now, I cant help but to indulge myself thinking of these 2 fated lovebirds of the series -v- ...

Lastly, I also like the opening song of the series! The song stuck in my mind and I cant help myself to keep playing this song in my mind for now!

I especially like the chorus of the song... "Don't give up that dream shinning inside the storm"! Makes me feel so motivated every time I thought of the song!

Saturday 12 March 2011

2011-03-13T02:16:00.000+08:00

It was a rainy day yesterday and the weather was so enjoyable with cool winds blowing... I enjoyed my sleep until I woke up to find out that a massive earthquake hit Japan X( ! It feels so unpredictable and aih, how precious life is... we should be grateful...

Looks like all Japanese anime and manga/comics are going to stop running for a while which destroyed my weekly entertainment.

Recently, I have installed PPS! OMG man it's really cool! Lots of dramas inside and it streams so fast! Even faster than youtube! I cant help myself to find myself turning on PPS to watch dramas these days... lol >.< !

Too many stories accumulated to be told all these while... just that Im lazy to write them all here, sigh~

Guardian Angel - S.Jin

2011-03-04T02:02:00.008+08:00

One of my most favorite songs these days after finished watching Spring Waltz, 'Guardian Angel' by S. Jin. This song is also the korean version of 'Lost Without Your Love' by Bread.

Lost and all alone
I always thought that I could make it on my own
Since you left I hardly make it through the day
My tears get in the way
And I need you back to stay

I wander through the night
And search the world to find
The words to make it right
All I want is just the way it used to be
With you here close to me
I've got to make you see

That I'm lost without your love
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of
I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel
A touch without a feel
I can't believe it's real...

And someday soon I'll wake
And find my heart won't have to break

Yes I'm lost without your love
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of
All I want is just the way it used to be
I need you here with me
Oh darlin' can't you see...
If we had love before
We can have it back once more

However, I prefer the korean version one... the korean version one, which is 'Guardian Angel' by S. Jin, sounds softer, sentimental, and I like the lyrics of it compared to the english version because the korean version's lyrics sing out some part inside my heart... sigh - v -

"To me, the sad winter disappears like a dream after I met you"

For the english version one,

"I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel"

Jay Chou Website Design

2011-03-02T13:36:00.002+08:00

Just as I mentioned in the previous post, it's been quite some time that I havent been posting up my recent works because most of the works this semester Im having are mostly about video, special effects, timeline and key framing... dont have any static works (I mean, artworks that stay still there all the time and doesnt move at all)... and so, here's my Jay Chou website designed by me XD, it's the final project for my Website Design subject, just passed it up today.

Before I really begin showing the finalized version of my Jay Chou website, as usual, Im going to write down all my memories of working on the whole thing XD... well, it makes me feel nostalgic thinking back of the days when Im doing this Jay Chou website... ah, that kind of bittersweet of memory X)...

The title of my Website Design subject is free, means that you can choose to make whatever website you wanted. Seeing most of my friends chosen products-advertising kind of website, I choose to be different from them X), anyway, there's no any products that I really liked except Gatsby... but still, it feels better to choose something that you liked to do right? So I have decided to make a Jay Chou website, haha!

This is my initial design for my Jay Chou website:

Yeah I know it's horrible and that time I was still experimenting with things... Besides that, very FEW celebrities that has their own website for me to do reference, and Jay Chou is one of them that doesnt has his own website despite being the Asia's Pop Singer King, strange right? Jay Chou is already so successful and he's a BIG STAR... why doesnt he ever thought of having his own personal website? Hence, it really makes me wanted to design a website for him XP, considering that Im quite a big fan of him and his songs.

Haha when teacher saw my initial design for Jay Chou's website above, I got some lecture... rofl XD! To be honest... I have already expected that to happen because even myself also felt that my initial design was very horrible, lol. But after getting lectured, I got some inspirations and ideas... that is, to think, and understand more about Jay Chou.

Gradually, I felt pressured because Jay Chou is the king of Asia, A BIG STAR... so of course if I wanted to design a website for him must have certain high standard one >__< ... finding other celebrities references around the web, let's take a look of other celebrity's personal official website:

Adam Lambert's website. Mentioned of him, I remember rumor says that he's gay?? Lol...

Akon's website. Honestly, I dont know him... just heard his name before from my friends. And I seldom listen to english songs... actually in my computer... there's not even a folder for english songs... rofl XD! All are chinese, japanese and korean songs haha.

Black Eyed Peas website. Maybe I listened to their songs before... well just by looking at them, it must be some kind of songs being played when you go clubbing... I dunno, not sure.

Jason Mraz website. Ah I remember him! Sean sang one of his songs in karaoke session before! I can remember that song is very relaxing and comfortable one... although I can only remember the song lyric of it is "... love, love, love...", haha!

Justin Bieber website!! Listened to one of his song during karaoke session before! The song is quite easy to remember and sing too! "Oh baby baby baby nooooo... I was like, oh baby baby baby noooo...", haha! A lot of people make fun of his puberty voice though XD... but to me, Im quite neutral with it la... but it's funny thinking of him after I watched some random youtube video about a person talking about Justin Bieber and trying to mimic him singing 'Never Say Never' in a very funny way, rofl XD.

Ahh, Emma Watson's website. I quite like her. And her website, among all 'western celebrities' websites I have seen, her website is the best one! Well if some of you are interested, visit her website to take a look by typing 'emma watson official website' in google!

Mariah Carey website. Maybe I have listened to her songs before... but I couldnt recall any 1 of it...

Lady Gaga website. Even though I dont like her and her songs lol...

Tom Cruise website.

Taylor Swift website! Listened to some of her songs! Quite nice! Especially the song that got Romeo and Juliet one gives me a deep impression of her!

After seeing a lot of western celebrities website, none of them gave me inspirations =.=... because their websites are kinda... hmm it's difficult to describe that kind of impression in words... and not suitable for my own style too.

Next, taking a look of some Korean celebrities website for inspiration and references... too bad that most of the Korean singers/actors I know and liked dont have their own websites too except a lot of fan-based websites for them :/ ... Anyway, let's take a look what I've found:

SNSD's website. Haha not a fan of them though... but a lot of my friends like SNSD. Hmm mentioned of them, I can only think of the song that goes 'Gee gee gee gee gee!' and when they came out on stage, there's too many of them and it's difficult for me to focus every single one of them lol! However, heard a lot of news that they used auto-tune... haha. Overall, their website looks quite ok ah, unlike those western celebrities websites, their website got STYLE within it. Maybe those western celebrities websites looked too random or messy to me X(.

Haha, seeing that SNSD's website looked quite fun and got style (I mean, their website really has 'PERSONALITY of STYLE', as in how certain people wearing shirts that had their own style and taste), of course gotta take a look inside for a while! This is SNSD's website's profile page... also quite nice ah! Click on their portrait will come out their profile info! Anyway, among the portraits above, I think I like SEOHYUN compared to the other members... well, just by looking the portraits of each of them in profile page only XP.

Super Junior's website. Didnt listen to their songs and not their fan though... But I know one of their song is 'Sorry Sorry'!

Their website also quite nice although it takes quite a long time to load their website and pages inside... Im stunned when I clicked their profile page seeing that guy called HEECHUL! Wow he's so handsome X( !!!! I like his hairstyle!! His facial expression and elegant pose~~ how can a girl not fangirling over by his awesomeness when they saw his profile there! LOL!

And finally~~ My favorite Korean idol Bi Rain <3 !!! His website is quite nice ah! The background will keep changing around every 7 seconds. His website design style is quite minimalist yet elegant, unlike most western celebrities websites, Rain's website gave people a comfortable feeling seeing it. His website theme is black and white and relied heavily on his own pictures... with the title menu being flashed in rainbow color when your mouse rollover it, it's really something special and striking, which is a nice blend of the title being flashed in rainbow color mixed with the dull old school black and white theme. Just so elegant, nice and comfortable, yet minimalist, simple and direct. Loading of Rain's website is quite fast too which is a plus point! His website gave me inspirations and reference for me to design my Jay Chou website XP! Ah Rainnnnn... you are my idol forever XD! Speaking of him, I listen to every single one of his songs! I like 'Love Song', 'Hip Song', 'Love Story', and 'I Do'!

Lee Hom's website! Hmm... quite ok... quite a minimalist too and the dragon symbol on the background makes me thought if Lee Hom likes dragon haha! Overall, his website is nice too... very chinese style.

Personally, I think Jay Chou's is a person that can be sometimes very simple or very complicated guy... Besides that, most of his style is quite like that kind of old-school England/London style... looked simple, but very elegant, just like a dark horse running in a big field with an english style of old castle fort nearby... that kind of ambiguity in romance, as if a single red rose lying on ground in the darkness... a silent, dark, gothic styled room with just piano sounds being played... ah, this is what I can describe of Jay Chou's style.

Well take a few looks of some Jay Chou's pics, I can feel that he likes that kind of old-school elegant medieval England/London style... especially the fonts that he used. Another good example is 'Secret', the font of Jay Chou's movie, 'Secret', is also quite elegant and old-school. That kind of era where classical pianist lived in... Fedric Chopin, Mozart, Josef Hoffman, Walter... some of the most famous classical legendary pianist ever. And I noticed that Jay Chou liked to link the letter 'y' to 'u', and the 'Chou' being ahead of 'Jay' in his name's font arrangement... So, I think he would just want to have a simple yet elegant website, not like most of the western celebrities websites that looked too bombastic, too messy, too many things inside... Simple, minimalist, direct are way to go for me too!

Then over the 2 months of period... finally, here's my Jay Chou website!

This video is recorded by me using a freeware program called Hypercam... the quality of this video is very low... well it's very difficult to find a very good yet free screen recorder program... most of the screen recorder programs around couldnt record something that is vibrant, colorful and high resolution smoothly and nicely. Anyway, this video is just to show you all the concept of my Jay Chou website haha! Please watch it in 720p HD with full-screen because there's a lot of tiny details inside that cant be seen if it's not in 720p HD and full-screen mode!

About the intro, I wouldnt did the intro if it wasnt teacher that makes it compulsory to do... haha XD. Well... all celebrities websites that I have seen doesnt has intro too so it's quite a headache to me to think of an intro to Jay Chou's website... Hmm, I just do a simple typical intro that looks like some kind of ad or banner we all see around billboards and websites. Hope it's not that bad X)...

Main page - A bit similar to Rain's website, the background will change every 7 seconds. I think it's a good concept to have the background keep changing after certain time so that the whole website wouldnt look that 'dead'... Besides that, if Im Jay Chou, surely I would think of putting in some of my best pics to make fangirls fangirling by seeing my pics rofl XD. I think background changing in every 7 seconds is quite ok... not too fast and not too slow... if it's too fast, viewers would feel dizzy seeing it. The 1st second, the background will start to come out and viewers would view it during the 2nd second; 3rd second, most probably viewers would view the overall background; 4th - 6th second, viewers might start to notice the details of the background and on the 7th second, the background will start to fade and change. Oh yeah, and there's music playing inside after the main page finish loaded... actually I feel not like putting in any background music one, but it's also compulsory so I put an instrumental piano song by Jay Chou from the Secret OST, called '路小雨(三手联弹)'. Ah, I have wanted to put that 'Promise of Dandelion' song in piano version one, but too bad that there's no 'Promise of Dandelion' piano version... That bittersweet, nostalgia melody of 'Promise of Dandelion'~~ T.T

Then, the rest pages of this website are just like any other celebrities websites... got profile page, discography page, film page, composition page that shows other songs that Jay Chou had written for other singers, awards page that shows awards that Jay Chou got since 1997 until this year and lastly, the news page for the latest new updates of Jay Chou.

All screenshots of my Jay Chou website for you all to enjoy since the video quality is bad and a lot of things inside looked 'out of color':

Overall, although not the best (I think), but here's one of my recent work... cant help but keep feeling low self esteem these days, lol XD!

Monday 28 February 2011

2011-03-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

Hey sorry for the lack of updates here especially everyone was worrying about my recent health condition rofl XP! These days Im busy doing my assignments.

About myself... I mean my right butt (geez I feel uncomfortable talking about this), that thing started to shrink already although just a little bit... and it's not pain now :).

Well about my assignment stuffs... now I thought about it, I havent been posting up my recent works here in my blog. Part of it is because most of the time it's about time frame stuffs... Anyway, I had finished the final project for my website design subject. Title is free so I have picked to make a website for Jay Chou haha XD. Stay tune for it!

Thursday 24 February 2011

2011-02-25T01:58:00.002+08:00

Finished all my antibiotics today... but the thing's still there. Well my current situation is... it's not that pain anymore but the thing is still there growing on the right side of my butt >.<... I keep noticing that thing over these few days but it doesnt shrink/grow smaller at all but it's less pain now. Now, I can walk around freely as I wanted to at least (the pain is negligible) but when it comes to sitting on the chair, I'll still have to sit down slowly.

Thinking back of 3 years ago when I had the very same case that Im having now, 3 years ago I went to the clinic nearby my house, the doctor just gave me some pain relieve pills and a lot of creams to be applied at the infected area of my butt... Then 4 days ago (Sunday), I went to the clinic opposite IOI, the doctor gave me 2 different types of pain relieve pills packets, 2 different types of antibiotics packets and 1 packet medicine pills for swollen. Dont have any creams to be applied. Indeed the pain relieve pills that the doctor gave me helped me a lot to relieve my pain over these days and now I do not even need to take pain relieve pills anymore as the pain now is almost negligible except when I jump, sit or run... but today, I finished all the antibiotics but the thing still havent shrunk/grow smaller at all (not too sure about it though). This makes me wonder if I should look for another doctor again or what...

I kept on thinking about the question of... what would happen if a person like me who had finished their antibiotics but the problem still exists... yet it somehow makes me felt that the problem Im having, did improve a little? Because as you all already knew, a person that took an antibiotic have to finish all their antibiotics, if not the problem they are having couldnt be cured anymore as the bacteria/virus developed their resistance/vaccine/antibody towards the antibiotic already and would evolve. Usually when we took antibiotic, we usually will recover before even finishing all the antibiotics, and would continue taking antibiotics until the antibiotics given by doctor are all finished. But my problem is... I finished all my antibiotics, and things seemed to be improved a little although not fully recovered yet as the thing's still there... so what would happen to me and what should I do =.=? Shall I wait for the thing to recover or go to look for another doctor? I already told my parents about my situation, but my mum told me to wait for the thing to recover while my dad suggested that I go to look for doctor again... stuck in this kind of 50/50 decision lol. Well I guess my decision for now is to wait until Saturday and see how the situation goes first X( .

Oh yeah, 3 years ago, this case took me 3 weeks to fully recover... Man, seeing that it takes 3 weeks to recover... and the antibiotics that the doctor gave me is 5 days, of course it's impossible for me to recover that fast(?) Aihhhh.... "What should I do?" keeps on playing in my mind thinking about this. Anyway, let's wait until Saturday and see how's my situation first la XP.

Sunday 20 February 2011

2011-02-21T00:35:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, the pain on my butt got worsen that the pain was unbearable to me. Before yesterday, I still could stand still with a little bit of pain, but yesterday, it's so pain that I had difficulty to stand still and I have to bend my body to stand and walk. I cant even let the right side of my butt touching the chair >.< ... I have to keep lying down on my bed most of the time. Heck, even waking myself up from bed was a pain too especially when I wake up, the blood inside my body would start to flow more intensely especially when I started to stand up and it hurts like hell as if I got thunderstruck and it was so pain till to the extent that I had difficulty in breathing when I was in that kind of pain! Upon noticing my situation, dad told me to look for a doctor the next day, adding that rather than paying RM5k+ just for my butt operation in case worse come to worst, he'd rather give me RM50+ to look for a doctor to save my arse instantly, which made me felt stupid for not looking for a doctor earlier =.=... but the memory of 3 years ago when I looked for doctor because of this same case keeps emerging in my mind... about the doctor's facial expression when he heard that my problem was butt infection... why does the image of a perverted looking doctor keep popping out?

Today, earlier this morning, the pain got worse than ever... it's already enough to make my whole body sweat just by walking a few steps. And most of the clinics were closed as today's Sunday. Luckily found a 24 hour opened clinic opposite IOI there. After waited for my turn, I was surprised to see that the doctor was a chinese since there's 3 indian girls at the reception counter there and the clinic's name looked like indian's... the doctor, seeing that I'm a chinese too, asked me in chinese what problem Im having, and I just replied "屁股生疮" then he took me into a mini surgery/operation room and took some look on my butt. He said that he's going to cut the thing out away from my butt =.=... I was shocked about the decision and asked if the operation process is pain. The doctor said the process would not be pain as he's going to inject some drug directly to my butt so that my butt will be numb and wouldnt feel any pain, then he would use that machine to cut out the thing... OMG seriously...? A lot of questions floating around in my mind... because Im not sure if the thing is some kind of insect bite, bacteria infection, or just a one HUGE pimple growing on my right butt. All the time, that thing looks like my skin's color... that thing's not red at all so I dont think it's insect bite nor pimple... since it's not red... well, I dunno. That doctor looked too confident in his decision even though what I've told him since from the beginning was just "屁股生疮", he didnt ask me for more information or what also lol...

Mentioned about that, think about it... last Monday I dont have any problems as I went to renew my IC and driving license... The problem started to exist during Tuesday after I woke up and found that thing started to grow on my right butt =.=. However, it's not really that pain so I ignored it. Wednesday it started to grew bigger and I started to feel a bit of pain... and the following days, the situation worsen.

Well, I just afraid that if I choose to go for the operation... Im very scared of... what if the thing that grew on my right butt that the doctor chopped off away is actually a part of my butt's flesh? LOL! Since it's not sure that if it's an insect bite, bacteria infection, a huge pimple, or a huge boil. I later asked that if it would be very pain after the operation... and the doctor said I will suffer a little bit of pain after the operation... Hearing that, I asked that if there's an alternative way such as taking medication instead of operation because I have to drive back home later. After thinking for a while, the doctor agreed.

And so... now I have to take 6 pills x3 everyday. Man, taking 6 pills x3 everyday is quite a hassle as Im not that pro in swallowing pills... but no choice though. Now I feel a lot better than this morning (after taking panadol that doctor gave me though, the thing start to become red already, not skin color anymore) ... Hope I will have a fast recovery!

Friday 18 February 2011

2011-02-19T01:48:00.000+08:00

This is the 4th day I have been in pain... not sure if it's acne or insect bite... on the right side of my... butt =.=". I remember that I had such case 3 years ago during form upper 6, and it takes 2 weeks to be cured. Now no matter I sat down or standing, it's as pain as hell, seriously. It's as if I'd rather die than suffering such pain!! I cant even walk, stand, and sit freely as I want now except sleeping. Whenever I wanted to sit, I have to sit down slowly especially letting the right side of my butt to touch the chair slowly (it's still pain though), then get used to the pain of sitting down and everything starts to feel normal after around 10 minutes I sat down. Once I need to get myself up, gosh, that pain was so indescribable >.<

I think that it's a butt acne... aish, Im not sure about it too... but reading articles around the net, some of them say apply pimple/acne cream would help =.=... I have applied twice today and no improvements. Sigh, hope I would recover as fast as possible... living in hell's pain right now.

Angpow Trip 2011

2011-02-17T03:35:00.003+08:00

Finally! The long awaited angpow trip of 2011! Sadly, this year not many people could join due to the bad timing of CNY arrived on Thursday being the 1st day of CNY. Most of them were back to KL on Thursday and have to leave on Sunday/Monday again...

The day before angpow trip, I couldnt slept for the whole night because of playing NDS game until around 4am, and then later on I just cant fall asleep, lol! Jet said to me in MSN that he will fetch me at 8.30am sharp and there would be no delay... so in the morning, I woke up at 7.30am to get myself ready with Jet's words on MSN "so tmr 8.30am sharp. no delay." in my mind XD. I've get myself ready at 8am... then waiting for Jet... and I checked that it's already 8.50am, so I started to wonder what happened or just in case Jet forgot to fetch me, I sms-ed him and he replied that he need to wait for Qing Yun lol! Turns out that he fetch me at 9.30am and we reached the mamak at around 10am+ haha!

Actually this trip I felt so sorry for Jet... because a lot of them were blaming him when it comes to time management... actually some of us also got fault la, like the sudden decision to join and some didnt even arrange the transportation earlier... poor Jet has to fetch them all personally too. To think of Jet's side, it's already difficult to organize such event already with the hassle of contacting everyone of us especially those who didnt turn on their facebook for even 3 weeks XP, some more need to fetch us and those who suddenly had transport problem, and then need to be blamed for the poor time management... wah seriously I feel sympathy to Jet for that, lol! No wonder Jet seldom organize events already these days X( ... Haha mentioned about Jet here, a lot of us also talked about his hair during the trip because it's too long hahaha! But to think about it, Jet has the potential to be super duper lengzai if he spend some time styling his hair. Aiseh, with his height and body build, the only thing he lacked off is to get some kick-arse hairstyle rofl! Think about it... think about it... XD

1st stop - Wan Yoon's house

Too bad that Wan Yoon doesnt want to play some songs on the piano for us to listen although we begged for it XP.

2nd stop - Zhi Hui's house

Chan Yan started to join in.

Me and Chan Yan... ouchhhh... the CONTRASTTTTT are too big that it hurts my eyes haha! And my eyebags too due to lack of sleep the day before!

Thinking back of the past, Chan Yan used to be my partner that sat beside me during form 4S5. Didnt really talked much with him even today though X( . Because back then in 4S5, the first few weeks I asked him about homework stuffs like how to solve this and that; about what the chinese teacher mentioned when it comes to copying the notes of 成语, 谚语, 文言文 because I couldnt catch up, he kept saying that he doesnt know and gradually I noticed that he didnt copy notes from teacher... so around the 2nd or 3rd week, I asked him "Why didnt you pay attention to your studies?", and he looked like pissed off and replied "I dont like people asking me about studies, from now on, dont ask me anymore about this kind of stuff.", so from that day on, I seldom talked with him because I was afraid that what I said would make him feel upset haha XD. So whenever I had problems regarding about studies, I have to overcome my shyness to ask for help with the girls that sat behind me and try my best in all aspects taking down notes without failure lol! By the way, he was quite a quiet guy all along the way and find him became sociable when it comes to chatting with girls XD... we also dont have common thing that both of us liked to talk about + Im a boring guy + he usually like to joke a while with no continuity for me to think of something to say back... haha, and that's why. But nonetheless, still friends la lol!

Currently what he's studying and so on... I also dunno much and dont want to ask about that also la haha... from what I've heard from last year, he finished ADP and going to America soon... but today, he's still here so ... that's still a question, and none of us know much about him, so it's an X-File (mystery) for U6F rofl XD!

Shih Chau's house

Sook Voon's house

Angela's house

Melissa's house

Lea Yee's house and Aaron started to join in at this point. Haha I started to feel tired and sleepy there. Lea Yee's mum offered me to sleep in the room... but less than 5 minutes, they started to call me up to go my house next!

My house XP! From this point on, Sook Voon has to leave so lack of driver and car, so I became the driver and sponsored my white Kancil car for the rest of the trip XD. But because I was feeling tired and sleepy, I went for a bath at my house for some refreshment. Haha I feel sad leh, they all came to my house and my mum took out all the biscuits and drinks, nobody took some except Sook Voon... ahh my heart feels so sour one leh!

Lol I wonder who took out that mini Malaysia flag. It was my bro's by the way haha XD!

Then next stop is Xiang Ling's house. Im glad that Jet drove slow for me just in case I couldnt catch up since my Kancil is already old and it's maximum speed only can reach 80km/h... but somehow when I drove with Sean, Aaron and Qing Yun inside my car, my Kancil's maximum speed can only reach 60km/h!! For crying out loud lol! Driving to Xiang Ling's house... there were so many turns here and there, then on the journey, Jet suddenly turns to the right lane and I immediately followed, then just as I realized that Jet did that was to cut a lorry, I also sped up to cut the lorry but turns out that the lane was to wait for the traffic light for a right turn... only I knew that the road only has 1 lane and eventually I got caught in the line of cars lining up waiting for the traffic light at the right lane to make a right turn. Wah, luckily with a little bit of difficulty, I managed to turn back to the left lane and you know, the other cars were so fast for me to even turn back to the left lane =.=...

Had dinner at Xiang Ling's house too! Her mum cooked us tom yam mee hun. That was the 1st time ever I ate tom yam in my life man rofl! Finally I can cancel out a thing away from my 'Things that I never did in my life before' list XP! Hmm... quite nice ah, not as spicy and hot as I had always imagined... something like sweet and sour...

Before that, I dont like hot stuffs like curry and tom yam since childhood and it also reminds me of there was once when the Guangzhou exchange students were here, they wanted to try our local foods as supper so I brought them to a mamak near my house. 3 of them ordered penang tom yam noodles... 2 of them (girls) ate the tom yam noodle until their tears came out because it was too spicy and hot for them to handle while my Guangzhou bro looked very suffer eating the tom yam because of too spicy too. In the end, 3 of them only finished 1/3 of the bowl of their tom yam noodles and called me to finish for them. I rejected because I never ate tom yam before and their expression tells me that it was very very spicy and hot... and so, they ordered something else for supper and I recommended satay hahaha XD! Back then, it keep makes me thought that tom yam was something really really spicy and hot. Speaking of hot stuffs, I also never tried wasabi before in my life too haha... also feel like not going to try it... because I saw my sis ate wasabi until her whole eyes became red filled full of tears and said that her nose was hot too...

Next stop was Jet's house. However, because I felt tired and sleepy again... Qing Yun offered to drive my Kancil instead of my place haha.

Jet's house.

And the last stop, Sean's house.

This was the first time Melissa stayed up with us till so late and completed the whole trip! Hmm we watched some shows in Sean's house and had some orange juice...

Then... every happy things would surely come to an end no matter how happy it was, and so... everything ends under the midnight sky that's full of stars (this kind of ending again lol)... With the midnight wind breeze with a little smoke can be smelt even in the car; with every sceneries moving backwards in the middle of the quiet highway with nothing except for the car engine noise; the lonely yet a little eerie and excited feel... aish, I enjoy such feel and it often makes me think of Initial D hahaha! Kinda strange because when midnight arrives, I always feel so energetic no matter how tired I was before... and driving in such situation at the highway with only a few cars around, man that feeling was so... priceless and classic! XP

Oh yeah, last but not least, through this trip, all of us only knew that Chan Yan got a gf while Zhi Hui already got a bf since last year! Haha I saw Chan Yan with his gf on facebook... quite pretty ah XD! Zhi Hui's bf... havent seen him yet. Anyway, congrats for the both of them lor haha! Hmm now that we had Wan Yoon, Jet, Lea Yee, Ching Ying, Zhi Hui and Chan Yan being crossed out as U6F's singles list... who would be the next one?? XD

Monday 14 February 2011

2011-02-15T01:45:00.001+08:00

Today went to renew my IC along with my dad and sis this morning at Puchong Utama... since my sis got her wallet stolen by a pickpocket while waiting her bus back to Johor after celebrating the 1st CNY week with us. While my sis need to redo her IC, my dad also brought me along too since I also need to renew my IC. Actually I should had renewed my IC when I was 18 years old... but my parents thought that IC renewal should be made at 20 years old, and due to the fact that I dyed my hair last year, this IC renewal thing got delayed until today, haha XD.

Everything went smooth during the IC renewal... while taking new pic for my new IC, the counter called me to comb my hair especially my ears should be revealed clearly while taking new pic for my new IC. Ah, I bet my new pic for my new IC is gonna look bad XP. Seriously, I looked shucks especially when I need to put all my long sideburns on the ears haha! But I dont really care about it that much anyway... just felt glad that finally I settled my IC renewal case today. Somehow, the random thought of imagining how my future gf reacts when seeing my IC that makes her go "Ewww..." seeing such face of mine surfaced, lol! Aih, I never looked that good... it's more worse if I had short hair, considering that I have chubby cheeks/face. Sometimes, I really wanted to think that appearances doesnt matter that much especially to males... because... more MANLY ma XD. But I just couldnt... appearance mattered to me a lot.

After finished renewing my IC, received a receipt and have to wait for them to send a letter for me to collect my IC in the future, maybe within a month I guess. Then, I drove to Seksyen 4 BK's Giant to renew my driving license at the post office inside there... Actually I never knew that driving license need to be renewed every time it got expired until I heard about my mum mentioning about renewing driving license, I got her to elaborate about driving license renewal and eventually, I got shocked when I found out that my driving license has been expired ever since April, LAST YEAR =.=. Then got scolded by my parents later because of that. Anyway, I also felt glad that I finally renewed my driving license today for 5 years. I must had a lot of luck with me for never letting police checked my driving license before and went through 1 year of driving with expired driving license, lol!

Anyway, today's Valentine's day too! So, happy Valentine's day everyone! ^^

Cannonball - Damien Rice

2011-02-13T01:45:00.002+08:00

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Heard this song while watching the Korean drama Spring Waltz. Quite a nice song... the song lyrics are quite meaningful and it's up to the listener's interpretation of the song's lyrics. About the MV, it's quite simple and low budget... but I couldnt understand why some parts of the MV are quite blurry despite that this video is the official MV posted by the singer himself. But still, I enjoy the pics inside the MV! :)

Too bad that this song is no longer be heard after around the 9th episode of Spring Waltz.

Thursday 10 February 2011

2011-02-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday while I was doing my assignment at around 11pm, the electricity suddenly shut down in my housing area =.=. Annoyed because my house area always had this case happened. The electricity only resumed at 2am. During the period of no electricity, played my NDS in my room without lights lol XD!

Nothing much happened these days, and my thoughts were quite empty ever since a few months ago... Maybe I lost inspirations greatly recently.

Ah, writing to this point, I suddenly thought of the unfinished Bukit Tinggi outing posts! The Bukit Tinggi outing posts have been greatly delayed and now only I realized it XP! But writing about it is quite a hassle since there are too many pics and arranging a lot of pics in blogger is so inconvenient! By the way, look forward for Angpow trip 2011 posts! ... As well as Bukit Tinggi's.

Tuesday 8 February 2011

2011-02-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

THE article of the day:

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748704422204576129663620557634.html?mod=wsj_share_facebook#articleTabs%3Darticle

Pretty much telling out the truth about our country! Like it! X)

Monday 7 February 2011

2011-02-08T02:02:00.000+08:00

Just now heard that my sis got her wallet stolen in Bukit Jalil while waiting for her bus to Johor on yesterday by my parents. Luckily she just lost RM100+ and IC... Makes me feel that anything could happen in the world outside every single minute, sigh...

Today continue watching the Korean drama Spring Waltz, so far Im on the 7th episode, but I really getting to like this drama gradually after episode by episode haha! It's not that depressing as Winter Sonata, but still there's some moments that would make you feel touched with your eyes gone watery!

Although I have no college classes these days, but Im already busy enough because of 3 college final projects going on. Need to plan my time wisely for entertainment and doing work XD.

Sunday 6 February 2011

2011-02-07T02:53:00.002+08:00

Happy chinese new year to everyone!!

Not keen on blogging these days (how many times I had mentioned about this?). Well there are quite some bothering issues/reasons that refrained me from blogging:

1. Low self-esteem

Felt disappointed at myself... Felt so useless and helpless in a lot of way.

2. The freedom and the price of blogging

Think about it, whenever a person blogged something in his/her blog, the content that the blog author wrote would be judged by the public. Sometimes... writing your instant thought in blog, like you are in bad mood and something bad happened to you, you wrote something that was rather unreasonable or based on your bad emotions, some people that read it might thought and began to judge that you are a bad person because of that. Sometimes, I think that it's not necessary because blog doesnt really represents a person's character... it just tells a little part of that person's life.

Sometimes I felt that Im making myself pathetic if I write any emo or negative thoughts in my blog.

Sometimes I felt that Im exposing my own weaknesses in my own blog if I write about my plans/future plans/work in progress/etc... It's like, it's not a good thing for someone like your own classmate that read about your works or work in progress stuffs because this would stimulate more competition... for example, 'A' saw 'B''s works in 'B''s blog, and 'A' may thought:

- "Gosh, this person's work is better than mine. Luckily it's not the due date yet. I better make my own work to be better than that person's work!"

- "... Ah, this guy's work looked worse than mine. Looks like I could relax." *dark smile*

Above are all based on my assumptions and imagination of course. But to think about it, how true those are? Well of course you could choose to ignore these stuffs aside, just be yourself and write anything in your own blog. Only if you dont really care about these stuffs. Everything comes with a price.

3. The matter of still remaining as 'single'

The most depressing and devastating reason that makes me feel extremely low self-esteem, emo and having all those negative thoughts. Well at first, I thought that it's kinda early and Im not incompetent enough to have gf yet. Lots of things to be thought of... like wanting to focus in studies first; dont have economical support yet; dont have the qualifications and etc... Besides that, at first I feel so freedom because of being single, dont have any emotional attachment to anyone, feelings will go swaying around whenever you saw someone pretty/handsome... Haha actually I dont really mind those, but recently seeing some dramatic increase of the people around me that went from being as 'single' to 'in a relationship', of course I could choose not to bother about those relationship stuffs that happened around me, but the feeling of something complicated and bothersome keeps overwhelmed me. It keeps making me thinking back of my past and a lot of things... To be honest, no matter how hard I tried to convince myself that I dont have any emotional attachment to anyone because of being single... it's nothing but a lie... lying to myself that I dont have any emotional attachment to anyone... in fact, my heart is still being captivated by a person X( ... although the feeling wasnt that strong as before, but still, that person still remained as something that's still inside a part of me. It's like an already weakened parasite that still lives inside you, but the problem is, you cant get rid of the parasite completely away from you... because if you wanna say that the parasite is bad and harmful, it's not completely true; and if you wanna say that the parasite is good and does no harm to you, it's not completely true too... It brings both sweetness and bitterness... Haha sometimes I really wished that person has bf or rejected me right away so that I can completely erase her and move on with my life. It's as if the moment that person did any one of the option mentioned, I can let out a long sigh and said to myself, "Ah... finally my soul has been set free by you".

Man, I cant believe myself that I wrote an emo post here XD. Today during U6F angpow trip, Sean mentioned about how 1 of his friends keep writing emo posts in facebook, and I teasingly laughed "I cant wait for this incoming 14th Feb's Valentine's, must have a lot of 'nice shows to be enjoyed' around facebook and web!".

Looks like it's going to be a forever Winter Sonata in my heart~ *cold wind blows and a dried leaf falls*

Saturday 29 January 2011

2011-01-30T02:31:00.001+08:00

Wow havent been blogging for 5 days >.< ! Been busy doing my final project that due on yesterday (Friday)... finally, it's all over! Now it's time for me to relax haha! And I dont have college classes anymore starting on from this week since my semester has ended. However, there's 3 more final projects to go... all due before and around March.

Ah... blogging is becoming more like a stranger to me already...

Since I've done one of my final project which due on yesterday and have been busy for the whole week doing it... and those sleepless nights I've gone through, for now I just want to relax and do anything I like as much XP! I want to play SD Gundam Online, continue watching my Korean drama Spring Waltz... if possible, I would want to make another Gundam in 3D again lol... but less likely, since there's still 3 more final projects pending :(.

Monday 24 January 2011

2011-01-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Find this 12 horoscope comic to be quite true and funny at the same time lol! Too bad for those of you that dunno chinese though.

*Click for larger view*

Eh, very true for my attitude of being a Libra lolz X)! Usually when I got scolded, the first thing I ever do after being scolded is to just accept everything no matter Im right or wrong... just like the comic said, it's to maintain the relationship with people haha!

Personally I think relationship with people is important lor... I dont like making rivals or enemies between people that I know. Imagine having to face them day by day =.=... dont have much energy to argue or making that 'pissed off' face to them XD, rather spend my energy in something more worthy lol!

However, sometimes I would argue back straight away when being scolded especially when Im very confident myself or in a bad mood. But mostly, I find myself being passive all the time =.=.

Saturday 22 January 2011

2011-01-23T01:19:00.001+08:00

Aw man, I cant believe that I still wrote the date as '2010' even though it's 2011 now lol XD! Currently still busy doing my assignments so nothing special these days... Sometimes felt fed up, bored or tired while doing; sometimes feel very motivated... ~__~

Played a while of SD Gundam Online today. Gosh, I havent been touching this game for about 2 weeks already! By the way also tested using my newly installed video recording program called Fraps. Personally I find this video recording program is better than Camstudio...

Haha, among some of the matches I played today, I think this is the most exciting match for today. Happened when I played in BC rank room (which means that the room is only restricted to B and C rankings of mobile suits or mobile armors to play in). The one Im using in the video is Astray Blue Frame Gundam from Gundam SEED. Honestly, I find it quite crappy because the missiles launched are slow and enemies could easily dodge my attacks XD.

Felt a bit frustrated while playing that match just a while ago especially I have to fight 1 on 1 with that blue zaku =.=... because my suit is just a support role and bad in melee combat while that blue zaku is an melee attacker. Wah that time I just wonder what my teammates are doing... I think 1 of them saw the blue zaku was chasing me and that guy didnt help me lol XD! Thank goodness that during the end, when everyone in my team has been KO'ed except Wing Gundam, saved our team to victory rofl! What a close one man!

Thursday 20 January 2011

2011-01-21T00:59:00.002+08:00

The fact that I had less thoughts and the lack of inspiration to blog still amazes me... I have been thinking about it, about why Im having less thoughts than ever before... it feels kinda strange to me because I usually has a lot of thoughts and when it comes to blogging, I usually could write something out straightly from my mind. But now, I felt like my mind is empty all the time... why and how did this happen? Besides that, I think my english grammar standard is dropping >.<...

Anyway, I realized that I havent been mentioning about my college classes and subjects Im taking for this current semester. This semester, most of my subjects are about making videos by the way haha XD... Kinda tricky to me because everything in the video need to be planned, like those special effects, animations, transitions and time-lining... Although I like videos and it's cool to make your own videos, but I dont quite like the 'process' of making a video lol XD, it makes me feel headache thinking of what effect should I use in my video especially haha! Most probably because I seldom watch videos... because my computer is in the living room, most of the time I couldnt turn on the volume of the speaker since my mum would be in the living room watching dramas for the whole afternoon while my dad would watch the television of his 'never ending news report' and 'life documentary shows' for the whole night... worse still is he likes to sleep in the living room and even though he slept, the television was still on all the time lol!

Although they never said that I couldnt turn on the volume of my computer, I felt that I should respect them... because I know how it feels like of having other distractions when watching your favorite show or songs. All the time I only turn on the volume a little and get my own ears close to the speaker to hear the sound haha! By the way I also got a headphone but never used it because I dont like the way of wearing the headphone will touch my hair lol XP! I find it very irritating when wearing the headphone, the thing just makes my fringe cover my whole eyes and my long sideburn being pushed by it! I also dont like wearing those mp3 earplugs because some of them are too big for my ear holes to fit in that causes both of my ears in pain everytime after I wear them... even if the earplugs fit into my ears, sometimes they make me feel kinda strange and itchy that I have to pull it out just to scratch my ear holes lmao!!

Because of this, that's why I seldom listen to songs or watch videos in my computer =.=... no mood to watch since I can only listen to the sound for a little bit only, haha. Therefore I always watch videos and listening to songs when my parents arent around especially when my dad went out to have a tea with his friends and in the morning when both of my parents went to work. If Im lucky enough sometimes, my dad would sleep in the room instead of the living room and that's my only chance X)... but the probability of it is usually only once a week though.

After setting the song 'My Memory' in autoplay in my blog, it made me feel not willingly to close the window of my blog just to listen to this whole song haha XD! But sometimes listening to this song, I would suddenly feel emo X(

Monday 17 January 2011

2011-01-18T04:38:00.001+08:00

It has been for some time that Im not that keen to blog anymore... Haha dunno why, I felt that Im having less thoughts these days and lack of something interesting to blog about. I think ever since my modem was spoilt for 2 weeks during last year's December and after it got repaired, that's the time I start to... blog less. Feel a bit amazed of how this 2 weeks of having no internet connection would have such impact to me XD.

Something I find interesting that happened these days:

1. New horoscope / the 13th horoscope appeared! It's called Ophiuchus! This news has stirred a lot of mixed reactions over the world as everyone's horoscope sign has to be changed. Some articles rejected it while some agreed with it. Hmm makes me feel deeply confused...

2. Since from last year until today, Im not sure that if it's just me or what... the 'handphone x-ray scanner' ads are still around lol! Sometimes I wonder if such application is a scam or what =.=... It better to be a scam... imagine how people can look through your clothing just by their handphones... Just feel curious about it haha XD!

Today's Lea Yee's birthday, and the day before Jet only sms me that today got plan for her birthday haha... So last minute that I cant buy any birthday presents for today leh lol! By the way, quite unexpected to see Angela and Xiang Ling there, I just thought that it must be Qi Jie, Sook Voon, Jet and his 'non U6F or 5S5' friends that could attend only XP.

Currently still being busy in doing final assignments *forceful smile*.

Bukit Tinggi Outing - Part 2

2011-01-15T17:58:00.003+08:00

Finally back to continue writing about the Bukit Tinggi outing I went during last year's christmas eve because it's difficult to arrange pics in blog post (it often makes me feel no mood to write when I need to rearrange the pics in chronogicle order).

Continued from the previous post of Bukit Tinggi outing, we arrived to the Japanese themed village and after the unfortunate event of raining there has stopped, we continued walking around there. Then there's a botanical garden...

Overall, the botanical garden there is quite big to me but nothing special there except that there's a lot of plant species there. Well, it's quite interesting if you like plants XD... however to me, it's a boring walk inside there haha! Lea Yee took a lot of pictures of every plant species we saw inside (but strangely, she didnt upload any 1 of them in facebook though), and that makes her camera run out of battery >.<... I didnt take any pictures of the plants inside because I dont like plants and want to save my camera battery for something more worthy to take pictures of.

And we did something funny inside there, hahaha!

There's also some tree stumps there...

After a long walk inside the botanical garden (about 30 minutes walk), finally we were out from there. Unfortunately yet again, it drizzled again when we were walking out =.=.

As soon as we walked out from the botanical garden, went to toilet for a while XD... Luckily there's water inside the toilet this time, but the whole toilet itself was very dirty and smelly =.=... I'd rather use the rain's water to wash my hand rather than using the pipe's water honestly rofl! Thinking back of how worse the toilets there were, my whole body's hair also can stand up lmao! Imagine how geli it is!

Out from the toilet after waiting everyone, the rain started to rain more heavily, and the girls used umbrellas while for us boys have to get wet from the rain... except for the gentleman there in the pic above can avoid from getting wet by shielding Sook Voon lol! Man, it rained during the whole outing and we always got wet by it all the time... this makes me had fever, cough and flu after the trip =.=.

Out from the botanical garden, we continued walking... hmm a japanese style gate. Haha everyone was pretending to be emo in the pic above!

Im unable to cooperate with them because of my height T.T!

Japanese waiting house. It's very small though.

And so... our journey in the japanese village has ended. The most sickening thing I saw inside was some stupid malay kids kicking those little pebbles and sands to the koi pond there. Some poor koi fishes mistook those little pebbles as food... The moment I saw this scene, my blood was boiling mad and I thought of scolding them that instant if it wasnt because of my rational thinking that's still taking control over my mind rather than the emotional stuff going inside me, haha... Whatsmore, I already fell sick during that time.

Walking out from the japanese village, while going down the slope, took one more pic before going to the car park haha!

Tuesday 11 January 2011

2011-01-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

These days Im pretty busy on my assignments... so I will be in hiatus for a while haha. I'll be back whenever I have free time, hmm... most probably Friday XD.

Turned on autoplay and shuffle mode of my online music playlist player of this blog XD. Well, just for fun and to annoy some of you, hahaha!

3D - SD Destiny Gundam

2011-01-10T01:35:00.003+08:00

Felt like missing my 3D models of Gundam today and looking back at my 3D Gundam works... a huge blast of nostalgia hits me, and now I feel like starting to make a new Gundam in 3D... but too bad that today's my last day of holiday, gonna return back to college classes tomorrow and there's a lot of final assignments going on T.T.

However, spent some time modifying my 3D model of Destiny Gundam to SD version of it. Just like how I did to my 00 Gundam too.

Im quite surprised by the overall result myself... SD version of Destiny Gundam also looks nice ah!

Sorry, just 1 pic of my SD Destiny Gundam today XP!

Well, now I feel like doing more 3D models of Gundam, as well as their SD version too >.<... hope I can find some time to do.

Chinese New Year is coming around the corner! Hope that this whole month would be a smooth one because it feels awful to get 'tragedies' especially this auspicious event is coming!

Friday 7 January 2011

2011-01-07T23:23:00.006+08:00

Yesterday went to One Utama with Sean and Aaron for almost the whole day since from 3pm - 12am! Watched 2 movies, 'Gulliver's Travel' being the first movie we watched there and 'The Tourist' at night. About 'Gulliver's Travel', it's quite nice... childhood memories where we read those fairy tales... although this movie's version is clearly out away from the original plot, but still, it's quite a nice twist. After that, about 'The Tourist', actually Im not looking forward to watch this movie as I've heard a lot of bad reviews of this movie and whatsmore, hearing some friends of mine commented that the movie is not that nice while some said that the movie is nice... I had a mixed feeling about it when we bought the movie ticket of this movie. However, the movie turned out to be nice to me though XD! Man, personally I think that this movie is better than 'Gulliver's Travel'! 'The Tourist' is a mix of action, mystery, comedy, romance and thriller... the ending of this show really blows me away lol! Although to think back about it, the ending somehow makes the whole movie looks kinda fake... hmm... However, I gotta say that I like Angelina Jolie in the movie after watching it haha!

Some pics taken that day by Aaron with his iphone 4:

Lunch before movie at New Dehli. 20% or 30% discount offer that day. Somehow I find Aaron has some good skills indeed XD. Think about it, every outing with him, he has the credit card and knows how to book for movie tickets; when want to dine in somewhere he knows which restaurants got discount; when looking for shirts, just tell him 'YX style of shirt', he knows which shop got sell similar style of my shirt rofl XD! It's something that I should learn from!

Haha coincidentally spotted the very same shirt Im wearing that day XD! Yeah, Im wearing my newly bought shirt from IOI Jusco... this is Cheetah brand shirt that seems to be newly released, RM79 with 20% discount when I bought it few days ago. I gotta say that the puppet model's skin color is the true Edward Cullen's skin XP!

Dinner at Zanmai Sushi. Actually I prefer Sushi King more because I like their fry squid and a side order dish called 'ikageso karage' there. In Zanmai Sushi, there's only the tempura ramen I can eat there while the other dishes there... not interested... and I find most of the food in Zanmai Sushi has curry =.= (I dont eat hot foods like tom yam, curry stuffs or laksa stuffs except satay celup and ordinary chili sauce). Oh yeah, after we finished our dinner, while lining up to pay the bill, met Wan Yoon there XD!

After watching the movie 'The Tourist', it's already 11.30pm.

Alright, that's it for yesterday.

Today, nothing special happened, just a usual day at home... however, something got my attention, that is, Final Fantasy Dissidia 012 game for PSP! Well, actually I have been following the news about it since a long time ago when it just got announced... but I never had the mood to blog about it =.=.

Screenshot from the official website introducing the characters in the game. Very nice presentation... like the concept!

This 2nd Dissidia Final Fantasy game has a lot of new characters added inside and Tifa from FF7 is one of them!! Felt happy and glad about it since I like Tifa... hahahahaha XD! *blushes*

And I like this screenshot XP. Tifa looks cool and like her pose!

Her alternate costume of the Advent Children version is also available in the game. I prefer the original one though... haha had a hard time thinking about which one I like because the original and Advent Children one also looks good :P... the original one is more cool and sexy while the Advent Children version one is cute and pretty... I think my head would explode thinking of which version I prefer lmao! Which version you all prefer more? Haha!

I also like the new outfit for Squall in this upcoming game! This is the original outfit setting for Squall in draft before actually making the game of FF8!

Well although I dont have PSP, but still I would read and watch through anything about the gameplay and stuffs as long as Im interested in the subject... man, I dunno if I really want to buy a PSP... >__<

Tuesday 4 January 2011

2011-01-04T23:38:00.003+08:00

Nothing to write about today... feel tired now >.<

An interesting stuff to watch:

After watching it, it kinda hits me when it says that Japanese people are usually short and shy XD, man no wonder a lot of people say that Im Japanese-look-alike guy... and wow at the suicide rate in Japan!

Another meaningful quote to be thought about:

"The secret of creativity is to know how to hide the source" -Albert Einstein

Speechlessly agreed...

1000th Post!

2011-01-03T22:14:00.005+08:00

Finally, this is my blog's 1000th post after all been blogging for... *looks back at the blog archive* 3 years! This year 2011 is the 4th year ever since my blog was created on 2007! Takes me 3 years to reach the 1000th mark of posts huh XD?

There's a lot of delay in writing this 1000th post... previous days I fell sick and not feeling well to do anything and on Saturday, my dad gave me RM300 to buy new shirts at IOI Jusco so I bought 4 shirts there for RM300+ and went back home, my mum scolded me because she doesnt believe that I have spent RM300 just to buy 4 shirts and said that I bought other stuffs like Gundam models instead... too bad that I also didnt keep the receipt as I always threw it away after checking the stuffs I just bought unless there's some stuffs that had warranty, I will keep the receipt. Instantly feel moodless after being scolded by my mum because of this =.=... and finally, today got the mood to write this post.

Alright, about my 2010 year life summary... Overall, 2010 to me, was quite a boring and not-so happening year. Not much memorable moments that year... Ok, let's see what memorable moments that I could thought of straight away out of my mind without reading back at my previous blog posts first!

1. My birthday event
2. Kok Jet's birthday event at Zanmai Sushi in Sunway Pyramid (because that's the only time I met Heng Bong XD)
3. My house renovation
4. Winning an art competition held by Nando's
5. 3D stuffs
6. Hong Yi's comeback
7. I-City outing
8. Bt Tinggi outing

Now reading back some of the 2010 posts from January to December... hmm... things are almost the same as I have mentioned above... however, Im a little surprised that Im still learning to sketch back then during Jan-Feb period and boy, I was still in sem 3 that time! I always thought that I had my sem 3 over last year lol! Man, I feel like time passes so fast while I read back my 2010 Jan-Dec posts... and some nostalgia of course... The good thing about the year of 2010, is that the car accident or 'car blues' moments drastically decreased. Mentioned about car, recently or perhaps, since the last 5 months ago, I have started to drive more cautiously and slower... maybe it's because of me watching too many videos about car accidents online haha! I used to drive very fast back then... now I always drive slower and 3x more cautious because those car accident videos keeps spawning in my mind whenever I was driving... life is precious.

Another improvement is that more people are calling or sms me through my handphone that year. Well... oftenly I felt 'paiseh' whenever I saw some missed calls or sms-es in my handphone since I seldom touch my handphone. My handphone is already about 5 years old this year and about my handphone... it's battery runs out very very fast. About 6 calls = battery from full drop to 0; About 8 SMSes = battery from full drop to 0. Sometimes it's really strange and frustrating that I just fully charged my handphone, took it out and message to somebody, it's battery immediately drops to 0 lol XD! However, until now, I never thought of buying a new handphone yet... still a student and not many people will contact me through handphone yet (sometimes I only receive a single sms or calls in my handphone once in 2 weeks time). Haha about buying new handphone... wait till I got gf or start working first la XD! Even if I want to buy a new one, I'll also buy a normal one just enough for me to sms and make calls only la! To me, handphone is like nothing except for communication and emergency purposes only.

Another improvement that I can see is I seldom emo and cry this year XD! I can even count the number of times I cried in 2010! I have cried for 3 times totally in 2010 rofl! The first one is during my house renovation... that time, I still had college classes and a lot of assignments to be done... my 2 sisters were not around while my bro is a spoilt child, only left me to help around with renovation stuffs. Man, that renovation period was painful and suffering to me, I scratched off the old paints for the kitchen and 2 of my sister's rooms... as well as my room too. Painted the kitchen and solo painted 2 of my sister's rooms, the stairs and my room despite still finding time to do my assignments... hence there's once I broke in tears because of frustration that moment. 2nd time of me crying, that time it was about 3am in the morning and I was still online... felt bored and went to facebook, there's a friend of mine posted the last episode of Doraemon cartoon video there. That time I already knew the ending of Doraemon because I read it through comic long time ago... but feeling bored so I thought "Hey, since I never watch the final ending of Doraemon in cartoon before, why not?" and watched the video. At first I feel like nothing and it's just like what I've read in the comic, but gradually when I saw Nobita's determination to win Giant despite that he's weak and terribly hurt in the end... when he said to Doraemon "Saw it, Doraemon? I had won... you dont have to worry about me anymore... you could leave me peacefully and without any guilt... I can take care on my ownself."... WAH unexpectedly at that moment, I instantly cried, and that was the time I cried horribly to my own surprise lol! The 3rd time I cried is when watching Winter Sonata anime, well I've wrote about it just a few weeks ago anyway XD!

Things that I've learnt in 2010:

1. Everyone is smart

I mean, even some people might look stupid or clumsy in their appearance or behavior, but they are definitely not stupid inside. Sometimes... there are things that people knew it or understand it, just that they choose not to say it out due to various reasons... just like, even if you're doing something behind people's back, they will know it too... just that they dont want to say it out and because of that, dont ever think that they still dunno what you've actually done...

2. Dont judge people or you will be judged, too

By the time you judge a person something, you will also be judged too at the same time. Think about it and imagine a scenario of this case... at the moment a person was judging another person, what would happen...?

3. There are things that, the more you try to get it, the further away the things you wanted will go away from you; but there are also things that you must try in order to get it.

4. There are little things that would portray your image and sincerity, no matter how 'little' these things are

Just a little thing, such as a birthday wish for example, would portray your sincerity of wishing that person. Just like, typing 'hapi bday' to wish someone happy birthday just shows that you are just plain lazy, not that sincere and simple in wishing. To me, it doesnt hurt to spend a little more time and effort to type 'happy birthday' in full and even better, adding another sentence of wish or jokes (if you could think of any) following after the birthday wish... it definitely looks more sincere rather than a straight, boring, plain, lazy and simple 'hapi bday' right? Another example is that when you want to make a video, you just throw in straight away all the materials that you needed inside and that's all... Like c'mon man... you could make it better by arranging the materials one by one in chronical order instead of just throwing whatever inside. That's why no matter what you do, even the most simple little thing, would portray how much effort you spent, as well as your sincerity on that thing. Other people would definitely know how much effort you spent on it so whatever you do, give your 100% out away! Even it's a simple little thing! It DOES make a VERY BIG differences!

5. Additional 'love and relationship' pointers

Love is actually a very deep thing and do not understimate it. It's not a thing like by simply saying that you want a gf/bf.

Firstly, before saying that you want a gf/bf, PLEASE think it throughly and consider your QUALIFICATIONSSS! If you dont have any qualifications or missing one or some of them, dont ever think of getting into a relationship please! Firstly, look at your own appearance... did you shave your moustache and beard? Did you groom your hair? Did you brush your teeth and care about your fingernails? Your appearance reflects what kind of person you are especially how lazy you are!

Secondly, make sure that you are rich enough! If you are not rich; everytime going out with friends not willing to spend much, even in choosing food also want the cheapest; no car and even got car, also had bad driving skills; always appear to be very kiamsiap... dont ever think of getting into relationship dude! Imagine bringing your gf out just to let her dine in indian/chinese mamak/restaurant stalls... what a taste you got there XD *sarcasm*.

Thirdly, your future and studies! If you fail horribly in your studies or struggling with your studies, dont ever think of getting into a relationship again. You cant even manage your own studies and your own future, how can you even manage someone else's? Dont ever had the thought of you and your gf (especially)/bf will self-manage own's future respectively when getting into a relationship too because this shows how incapable you are. The one that cant even manage their own studies and future, how can a girl entrust her future to you?

Fourth, when getting into a relationship, BOTH must had the same mindset of maintaining the relationship. If either one side that doesnt has the mindset of maintaining the relationship, even the other side does, the relationship wouldnt last long. Another important thing is to accept each other for what they are and each other weaknesses as well!

Lastly, and again, love yourself first before loving others! If you cant even love your ownself, how can you love the others? Seriously.

After listing out the basic lists of what I've learned in the year of 2010, I think it's time to make my new year resolution XD!

This year my resolution is... not to be greedy and not wanting to expect that much, I just want my year of 2011 to be a very smooth one ahead! Haha, and lastly, I aim and hope that I could fly to Guangzhou to meet my friends there through my previous exchange program to fulfill my promise ^^! Really long time didnt see them in person... missed them so much yet feel guilty for not fulfilling the promise I made to them!

Wednesday 29 December 2010

2010-12-30T00:01:00.006+08:00

999th post! Man I still havent had the idea to write about the 1000th post yet XD, maybe I will write about my 2010 year summary, about what I felt throughout this year and what I've learnt up to this point ^^!

It often reminds me of the Christmas Eve I had during the year 2007 when watching the ending song of winter sonata anime lol!

It's a nice song by the way and whatsmore, this song is only exclusive in the anime, meaning that the original drama of Winter Sonata didnt had this song you know! Definitely must listen if you're Winter Sonata fan XD!

The ending song shows the moment of Joon Sang running out from the car due to a promise to meet Yujin under the Christmas tree before the countdown of Christmas day starts but too bad that he got crashed by a lorry along the way :O... and poor Yujin end up watching the countdown fireworks alone on Christmas Eve. The next day, Joon Sang was announced dead by car accident :( .

Back to topic of how in such a way that this ending song of this Winter Sonata anime often reminds me of my 2007's Christmas Eve day, is because I was at Bukit Bintang during the Christmas Eve back then! That day I went to Bukit Bintang with my friends that participated in student exchange program to Guangzhou with me! Ah, how nostalgic! That was also the very first time I went to Bukit Bintang XD! I was in form lower 6 and going to be form upper 6 that time!

Man, it's not just that it was the first time I went to Bukit Bintang, it was also the first time I went to karaoke session ever in my life lol! However, I've forgotten what's the karaoke place name was... it's definitely not Redbox though... what I can remember was... it's located inside Time Square...

After the karaoke session there, I just remember walking around window shopping for hours with them... then 'the girl' asked me about Pavillion and I replied that I've never been there before too so they took me there. Walking from Time Square to Sungai Wang to Pavillion... man I enjoy the atmosphere there, full of crowds and it's drizzling a little there, whatsmore it's Christmas Eve!

The moment we reached Pavillion... it surprised me to see such a BIG and TALL white Christmas tree there! Just in front of Pavillion's main entrance! Then we had dinner at there in Dragon-I... man, the food there was so delicious and I extremely like the fry wantan XD! They said that since I've never been to Pavillion before, so they took me to walk around the whole Pavillion! That was a very sweet and nice experience back then... walking in such a beautiful place and everything is just so... aih even words alone cant describe how it feels like when I walk around there for the first time! First time went to Bukit Bintang, first time went to Sungai Wang, first time went to Time Square, first time went to Pavillion, first time saw such a big Christmas tree (it's like 9 floors of building tall!), first time went to karaoke, first time went to Dragon-I... what a sweet memory back then... it's like Alice in Wonderland kind of feel lol! Then at night around 8-9am, there's a lot of snow spraying around Bukit Bintang with lots of funky Christmas themed toy lights flashing... aww man! Not forgetting that it was my first time receiving a Christmas present from my friend (a girl), which is a small birthday teddy bear keychain XD! It's purple color and there's my birthday date on the teddy bear's stomach. The hands and the head of the teddy bear can be turned around as well which is very cute! I remember keep playing with it after I was back home... best Christmas Eve ever!

Alright, about how this relates to the ending song of Winter Sonata anime... Im sure it's already kinda obvious and self-explanatory haha! It happens on Christmas Eve; the big Christmas tree and the whole Bukit Bintang itself are just like the buildings and city of the ending song XD! My 'first' time experience that happened there also suit one of the main theme of Winter Sonata which is 'first time' experience too!

And hey! After watching Winter Sonata, I also somehow understand why there's so many girls that like Baek Yong Joon XD!

*Actually I prefer him in this look though XP*

Haiz, he's so handsome, quiet, deep in thoughts, very smart, very rich, kind hearted, nice hairstyle and nice face structure... his face is like very got '福气', wont look that thin nor fat, which is kinda perfect. Not forgetting that he has a nice figure too, not too thin nor too fat. Besides that, he looked very 'man' enough unlike some male actors today... some male actors today looked kinda girlish to me XD! Man, all in all, there's no doubt that he's the 'white prince' to every girl rofl! He also can be considered as the most handsome man ever in history! Like seriously, whenever we talked about handsome guys, his name would surely pop out XD!

Hmm overall, my Christmas Eve days are always so meaningful...

2007 - Went to Bukit Bintang with friends that participated in student exchange program to Guangzhou with me (sweetest memory I had XD!)

2009 - Went to Sunway Pyramid with form 6 friends to watch 'Treasure Hunter' starring Jay Chou, and then catch a midnight movie 'Bodyguard and Assassins', back home at about 3-4am XD!

2010 - This year spent my Christmas Eve with my form 6 friends again to Bukit Tinggi ^^!

About my childhood memories of Christmas Eve...

2001 - While I was in standard 6, it's end of year and I went to Singapore trip with my mum organized by my primary school. My mum bought me a Digivice (The Digivice from Digimon Adventure season 1) there as Christmas present XD!

2002 - My parents bought me a robot pet dog Poochi from Toy'R'Us! That time this robot dog is very famous and hot leh... mags and newspapers even got advertise and many kids also wanted it XD! I even remember putting 2 Poochi dogs together, they can also communicate with each other... ah, so cute and sweet!

Well, that's all I could remember as the rest of my Christmas Eve arent that special... Most of the time during my childhood, I keep getting new bicycle as my present hehe XD!

Bukit Tinggi Outing - Part 1

2010-12-29T00:03:00.009+08:00

Went to Bukit Tinggi with my best buddies (form 6 friends, that is) during the Christmas eve and finally, here goes the post of the 1 day Bukit Tinggi outing! Currently I can feel that my sickness is recovering... I expect to be fully recovered by 2 more days or so ^^!

Before the Bukit Tinggi outing, I couldnt sleep at all the last night which is really frustrating! I end up having headache during the whole outing =.=.

Firstly, we met up with each other at Sunway's Old Town White Coffee there... Haha actually the time set was 8.30am, but as usual... 8.30am is equivalent to 9.30am and it happened every trip we had XD. Hmm because I felt kinda hungry, ordered a western food breakfast set there for RM7.90... the drink included in the set is just coffee only. Until yesterday I was reading articles of tongue ulcer (because I developed tongue ulcer during the trip) and found this:

Tongue ulcer causes

Taking food not in time is also one important cause of tongue ulcer. Drinking excess of coffee and tea in such a manner the heat in coffee will cause damage to your tongue. Eating Hot stuffed food items can cause you ulcer under tongue especially food items containing rich amount chilies. Some people will not take breakfast when they are in diet this could also cause you the mouth and tongue ulcer. ulcer in stomach will cause you ulcer in tongue as well as in mouth. Drinking Alcohol and smoking will certainly bring you tongue ulcer.

FML man no wonder I had serious tongue ulcer during the outing!! Because of the set I ordered had coffee included =.=! Thinking back about it, the western menu set's food combination is bad... seriously, where got people serve coffee with western food one?? Western food is already dry enough, add in coffee as a drink in the set... bad combination ever and no wonder I developed tongue ulcer after that! Usually the drink should be some fruit juice serve together with western food one ma >:(! And dont get me start mentioning that Kim Gary's food set also has bad combination of food and drinks...

Well, another thing is I rarely drink coffee... and I could say that, that day was the first time I drank a COFFEE in the year of 2010 excluding coffee buns and coffee flavored sweets. Usually something weird would happen to me when I drink coffee and I read about a lot of negative effects of it so I dont drink coffee.

Suddenly, Qing Yun's mum called him that she wanted to use his car so he have to drive back home and switch to Kancil lol! Waited for another 45 minutes+... haha because he's one of our main driver XD!

So the journey started at around 10.30am... on the way there's lots of mistakes because none of us know the way to Bukit Tinggi until Qing Yun decided to use his GPS. I decided to sit in Qing Yun's Kancil for some men's talk rofl XD! Jet, Lea Yee, Qi Jie and Sook Voon are at the another car.

While we were almost reaching there, the sky looked like it's going to rain anytime and some dark clouds around... just like the weather forecast predicted.

Inside Qing Yun's car.

While on the way to Bukit Tinggi, it takes some time to reach the top of the mountain and until certain point, you can try opening the car's window for cool air which is cooler than Qing Yun's Kancil car's aircond rofl XD! Just as I expected, the air there isnt as cold as Genting but not as hot as what we usually felt.

However, it's kinda weird that the sign says "Berjaya Hills" instead of "Bukit Tinggi" there. The entrance fee was RM12 per person which is a relief. The information I read through the web was RM16 per village you want to visit and some say that RM12 only for everything related to entrance there...

We decided to go to Japanese village first as our first stop there. After parked our cars, we went to the public toilet nearby... man, the toilets are smelly and more worse, no WATER at all for you to wash your hands, holy mama for heaven's sake XD! Luckily Jet brought mineral water so we wash our hands with it.

Need to have some walk before really entering the Japanese village...

Hmm some nice nature scenery there especially on the mountain.

Haha I find this pic cute with everyone smiling inside XD! Well maybe except the black guy lol!

Most of our group pics (about 99%) are from Lea Yee though XD.

Entering the Japanese village... some disappointment upon the first impression when going inside... To me, it doesnt looked that 'Japanese' as I have imagined.

A few minutes later, our journey was stopped by the rain and we have to go inside the Japanese rest house for shelter.

Sitting there while waiting for the rain to stop... boring XD! It's also kinda funny and strange at the same time to saw a baby's bottle with strawberry milk placed on the middle of the table when we entered!

I was so bored and wondered if I could take a nap for a while there... feel headache due to lack of sleep the night before and whatsmore, I already had tongue ulcer at this point =.=.

Later, most of the visitors also came for a shelter because of the rain. Some malay kids were noisy and annoying to me...

Finally the rain become not that heavy (drizzling) and we continued our journey... Nothing special at this stop. Another Japanese style rest house with a Koi pond outside.

Group pic!

Haha honestly, I cant feel the 'Japanese' style there (only a little bit la) although it is Japanese themed village... it's more like some wooden built house inside some tropical forest on the mountain instead. Just that the wooden houses there are slightly looked like Japanese style a little >.<...

Monday 27 December 2010

2010-12-27T23:03:00.003+08:00

This is the 997th post!

Havent recover from my sickness yet. Feel extremely bored today. No mood to do anything because of sick...

Some pics of the previous gathering at Sunway Pyramid Pizza Hut:

Haha too bad that I heard Heng Bong and Jia Yi ffk that day XD! Not sure about it but Shih Chau mentioned that Heng Bong and Jia Yi are coming.

Man, hope my sickness will recover soon.

Sunday 26 December 2010

2010-12-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hey wassup guys! Im back XD! Merry Christmas and happy new year man! Sorry for the absence these days because I fell sick after my Bukit Tinggi outing on 24th Dec! Had sore throat, cough, flu and mild fever... currently Im still pretty much in my sick bed and recovering.

Hmm about the Bukit Tinggi outing, I will write about it after Lea Yee posted her pics in facebook because I would like to write about it in once and for all XD... Dont feel like writing about it halfway and then rewind back because of new uploaded pics lol! About the pics of the outing, I've already posted it in my album in facebook just a while ago ^^! Took me a long time editing them.

Aihz, there's so many things I want to write about right now but too bad that Im sick :(.

1000th post is getting closer... gosh what should I write in 1000th post of my blog? Haha give some ideas man XP!

Thursday 23 December 2010

2010-12-24T00:19:00.003+08:00

Went to karaoke session on Tuesday at IOI. Haha SV said to me : "Good la you, no need to pay toll. Some more IOI very near to your house.", walao eh, usually gathering at Sunway Pyramid and Mid Valley I didnt complain at all lol XD! Maybe except Mid Valley since I often complained that it's difficult to find a parking there.

Actually we have booked for 4 hours time of karaoke session starting from 1.30pm... but dunno why, the screen doesnt showed 'Goodbye See You Again' sign at all so we end up singing until 8.30pm lol! 7 hours of singing!! Actually we could have continued to sing since the screen still allowed us to choose songs but we choose to leave because most of them were already tired and hungry.

By the way, I also read the Redbox monthly magazine there... saw a page of song lyrics, find out that a song lyric from Hebe was meaningful:

我爱你你爱她她爱她她爱他
你爱我我爱他他爱他他爱她
怎么这世界已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

Actually I have already listened to this song before... not really like it that much... sounds too creepy and emo to me XP. However, the song lyric is very meaningful... why does this world, everyone love other people but did not love yourself? It reminds me that sometimes when we love the other person, it makes us forgot to love ourselves.

The overrated suicide case of the 22 year old teenager because of love is the hot topic these days. Even me and my friends also talked about this case before... In my opinion, I think the girl have made a very right choice to break up with him in the first place.

Think about the reasons of why the guy would go suicide just because of love. His own action of going suicide because of this matter simply shows that he's still immature in thoughts and selfish for disappointing his parent's efforts of raising him up all this years while didnt think of any consequences before acting. Whatsmore, his act of going suicide just showed how pathetic he is and pessimistic person... more importantly, he does not love himself, which is the most basic aspect in a relationship. Seriously, how can you love someone if you cant even love yourself?? Before you start to love someone, please love yourself first! Secondly, take into all sorts of accounts that you are economical enough before getting into a relationship! How can a girl entrust her future to you if you are lacking all those above mentioned qualities? So in this case, I think the girl's choice of breaking up with that guy is absolutely right!! Lol! XD

Anyway, I saw this pic from facebook, it's a newspaper article:

I find this quite true lor! 讲得蛮有道理 oh XD!

Mentioned about photography, actually I also like to hang out with my friends that like to take pictures ^^! Sometimes going out with certain friends, when I asked them to help me take pictures, they will give me a kind of look that indirectly tells me something like "Aiyer you dam 'zhi lian' lor, no need to take any pics also we know you are lengzai la" =.=... Haha, actually I like it that any places I went, there's pictures in my camera to look at when Im home especially there's me inside the picture itself... not really because Im 'zhi lian' la... just felt that it makes every moment special when I went out to somewhere and anywhere... That day's weather, how the place looked like that day, my own expression in the pic and compare to how's my mood that day, it just feels so special every time no matter how many times I have already visited that place. Going out with people that dont like taking pics, I will feel that the outing with them has nothing special if there's no any pics taken, haha! Hmm but dont get me wrong, you all are still my friends and I felt already lucky enough that most of you like to take pics and willing to help me taking pics haha XD, among my friends, only about 4-6 that dont like taking pics only la...

Tomorrow going to Bukit Tinggi for a day! Hope that it wouldnt rain tomorrow and hope that I can take nice pics... I want to try out some new effects this time XD!

Monday 20 December 2010

2010-12-20T16:22:00.007+08:00

Sorry guys, I'll be back soon! Enjoying my holiday now! Busy doing my assignments and at the same time, busy enjoy playing games! Too many activities to do this holiday haha... assignments, online games, NDS games, gatherings, and outing... not forgetting that I might need to go look around shopping complexes for new shirts, enjoying the christmas atmosphere, enjoy the cool weather, enjoy the entire month of December (December really is a special month to me), enjoy thinking back of the past (December usually makes me feel nostalgic because there's too many memories about this month)... too many stuffs to do!

Man, how young was I 2 years ago! Face skin looked so smooth T.T... A few weeks later this would be 3 years back of memory already.

Last Friday gathering with my form 6 friends at Pizza Hut Sunway Pyramid there. Hahaha so many people told me to write about their bad service in my blog XD! Yeah, the service there is really horrible and this is not for the first time already...

The most disgusting thing is that during the gathering when I took a bite of a slice of pizza, I saw there's a blue plastic string inside my pizza =.=... Walao eh the instant I saw it, I wonder if I ate any more plastic strings inside my stomach or not!

Talking about foods, it suddenly reminds me of KFC's food quality too. Once ago I saw a pic in facebook that inside the chicken meat, there's a lot of tiny little white worms, disgusting =.=! Then there's also a video about how KFC handle the slaughtering of their chickens... it shows that the workers would grab the chicken, keep knocking them by the head and hanged them to the machine for heating... while the chickens are being hanged at the machine for heating, those chickens are still alive (half-dead status)! Another thing is that based on my personal experience, sometimes when I dine in KFC, they gave me overnight ones and at times, old chicken meats =.=... After all those things, I decided that McDonald is the best since their food quality is stable... Although some video experiments with McDonald foods are kind of scary too =.=.

Although it's just 2 months long, it feels like we havent met each other for a long time already! Man, I find that Jet and Shih Chau speak too fast lol! When 2 of them talking to me at the same time, I got stunned XD, brain still processing and trying to catch up the speed of their speech X(. Then Jet, Shih Chau and Sook Voon asked why I looked so blur that day rofl! Haiyo, 2 months didnt chat with Jet I already cant catch up his talking's speed already haha... even with my college friends, they also didnt speak that fast as Jet and Shih Chau lol! Maybe because when people are talking rubbish, talking speed would be fast since there's no need to think that much before speaking out XD... Whatsmore Im blood type A people leh, a slow person :(. Blood type A and AB people have slower reaction time than blood type O and B people haha!

Speaking of blood type, it reminds me of how blood type can differentiate the characteristics of a group of people with the same horoscope. I have quite a number of Libra friends and most of them are blood type O. A Libra person with blood type O always seemed to be more sociable, outgoing, and you can feel the aggressiveness when they speak. While for blood type A Libra person (include me), tend to be slow and oftenly we are like very dreamy, blur and having tough times at decision-making.

This is quite true if you know the basic characteristics of a Libra:

1. Sociable
2. Well-balanced
3. Likes peace and justice
4. Vain
5. Indecisive
6. Easy-going

As some of you already know, blood type O characteristics tend to be sociable, optimistic and outgoing while blood type A characteristics are introvert, slow, indecisive, pessimistic and vain. Hence, a Libra person with blood type O will have all the positive characteristics of a Libra. A Libra main characteristics are already very sociable, whatsmore with blood type O, this will enhance their sociable characteristics more, that's why most of my Libra friends that I saw with blood type O are very talkative, sociable, more confident, even when they talk you can feel the aggressiveness within their speech and strangely, they love sports. The negative trait of Libra being indecisive has been covered by blood type O's confident and active characteristics.

For blood type A people like me... well blood type A is introvert, vain and indecisive. Libra is indecisive enough already + with blood type A, double the indecisiveness trait! While the main key characteristic of Libra is being a very sociable person, but with blood type A, this will hinder the sociable characteristics within them.

Haha, lastly, happy holiday guys! :)

MG Force Impulse Gundam Official Promotional Video

2010-12-17T01:49:00.002+08:00

Finally I found the PV of MG Force Impulse! Once ago when the MG Force Impulse Gundam plastic model was released, I remember seeing the PV of it and loved it! Too bad that I didnt save the video of the MG Force Impulse PV and after some time the video has been removed.

Today suddenly thought of watching this PV back since Im looking for some Gundam related 3D animations... Kinda tricky and time consuming to search back this PV!

Although this PV is to promote the MG Force Impulse Gundam plastic model, but they (Bandai) used 3D CGI to make this PV! Haha I like this PV especially the scenes of Force Impulse VS Freedom!

Wednesday 15 December 2010

2010-12-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

Phew, feel tired today. Watched the movie Narnia with my college friend Louis after class XD. Hmm the movie is quite nice!

Off early today... headache >.<

Holiday coming soon after tomorrow! Have been longing for holiday so much! Haha these days traffic were quite smooth... most probably because of school holiday.

Monday 13 December 2010

2010-12-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

It's just as what I have expected... that the guy Alviss Kong that left a note on his facebook before he went suicide has inspired some people to follow his footstep! Check out these links!

12月15号是我最后一天上网了，我要去很远的地方咯各位朋友嗒嗒咯~

(December 15th is going to be my last day on the net, Im going to a faraway place, bye my friends)

http://www.facebook.com/pages/12yue15hao-shi-wo-zui-hou-yi-tian-shang-wang-le-wo-yao-qu-hen-yuan-de-de-fang-ge-ge-wei-peng-you-ta-ta-ge/177385255613560

Check out every single comments on the link above for some LOL moments XD! It makes me feel swt when people mentioned that the guy on the link above is not as handsome as Alviss Kong so they wouldnt mind it if he just go suicide right away lol!

Next up:

强烈要求我国政府列我们的大马罗密欧Alviss江世丰的生忌和死忌为大马公众假期以纪念我们伟大的一代情圣！

(Strongly request that our local government to announce the day of Malaysia's romeo, Alviss's death as public holiday of our most noble lover in the decade's memorial day)

http://www.facebook.com/pages/qiang-lie-yao-qiu-wo-guo-zheng-fu-lie-wo-men-de-da-ma-luo-mi-ouAlviss-jiang-shi-feng-de-sheng-ji-he-si-ji-wei-da-ma-gong-zhong-jia-qi-yi-ji-nian-wo-men-wei-da-de-yi-dai-qing-sheng/134948706562640?v=wall

Hahahaha things are going more and more ridiculous rofl! Somehow this makes me think that the guy's suicide case was too overrated =.=... and it makes me realize that there are so many lala boys and girls + emo-in-love people in this country X(! Man, after looking at the 2nd link above, I feel ashamed of being a chinese in this country >.< !

Another video I saw:

Lol, imagine Alviss jump down from 14th floor every 7 days in hell... X(

Winter Sonata Anime Ending

2010-12-12T04:26:00.005+08:00

Finished watching Winter Sonata anime! Overall, it's very good! After watching it, finally I understand why it's the best romance classic! It has a deep plot with rich varieties of romance as Winter Sonata explores a lot of questions in love, such as first love, sibling's love, possessive love, parental love, childhood love, one-sided love and etc.

It really has lots of surprising elements in the plot that makes me go 'wt*' especially when the plot reveals that both of the male and female lead, Kang Joon Sang and Yujin are half-siblings because both of them had the same biological father! That time is like, very omg lol, considering the fact that their dad divorced with Joon Sang's mum and later marry Yujin's mum, ironically, both of them fell in love with each other without realizing it until the information was revealed. That time it really makes me feel a bit disgusted and wonder since there are so many divorce cases going around these days since my dad often mentioned that he always got couple divorce cases to be dealt with... with so many divorce cases going on... there's possibility that some kids have the same biological father... the saddest thing is without knowing it, kids with different mum but has the same biological father fell in love with each other X(... Im not totally against about this kind of thing, but it makes me feel disgusted in some way... and I remember reading something like, if marriage between siblings, their child would be... having a lot of problems when they are born... well, you all know la.

Luckily the plot reveals that Joon Sang and Yujin are not siblings which is a huge relief to me but at the same time, it makes me go 'omg' again that Joon Sang is his arch-rival in triangle love, Sanghyuk's brother! Then only we know that Sanghyuk's father has an affair with Joon Sang's mum! What a plot twist!

Personally, I dont think that Winter Sonata is that tragic and sad as what I heard from many people... but at least the story does makes me feel emo every time after watching it XD! And there's also a scene that makes me cry when Joon Sang rushes to complete Yujin's dream house also known as 'The Impossible House' in the story in the end because he will be blind soon. He could choose to go for surgery but he refused after hearing that the side-effect of the surgery is that he would lost some of his memories away... fearing that he would lose all his memories with Yujin before, he rejected the surgery operation and rushes to complete Yujin's dream before he went blind. Wah seeing the male lead... his vision starts to be blur already... but he still insists to go on and completed Yujin's dream house. In the end, he's already blind... :(

However, the anime version of Winter Sonata took a different approach in the ending. There's an extra story that the original drama doesnt has... Well the extra story in the anime shows that there's miracle and hope in life which makes sense to the ending ^^! Seriously, to think about it, the whole story is already so deep and sad... it doesnt make any sense if the ending is also a sad ending since both of them did nothing wrong at all. The anime version of Winter Sonata indeed gives justice to the ending of the story :)! As some of you already knew, the already blind Joon Sang reunited with Yujin in 'The Impossible House' is the ending of Winter Sonata. However, in the anime, it later shows that after they got reunited with each other, Joon Sang is not blind anymore and they got married in the end :)!

Here's the ending of Winter Sonata anime! Man, the original actors and actresses of the story reunited purposely to complete the wedding scene in the anime as a special thanks to those who watched the anime and especially Winter Sonata fans! Haha it's yet another surprise in the anime that in the end, the anime turns into real-live action drama for the last 10 minutes in the last episode of the anime!

Wow, the original actors and actresses of Winter Sonata still looked the same although it has been around 5+ years since the original drama! This new wedding scene of Winter Sonata was filmed this year 2010 you know! Man, Joon Sang looks so handsome there XD! The only thing is that Sanghyuk character was replaced with another actor because the original actor of Sanghyuk character has committed suicide.

Take a look at this just in case you dont believe about the new additional ending of Winter Sonata XD! Man, I could say that this new ending scene really concludes and did justice for both the anime and drama version of Winter Sonata!

http://www.mumuy.com/bae-yong-joon-choi-ji-woo-reunite-for-%E2%80%9Cwinter-sonata%E2%80%9D-anime

My favorite song from Winter Sonata is 'My Memory - Ryu' ^^! Although the anime doesnt had this song inserted in! The main theme of Winter Sonata 'From Beginning to The End - Ryu' sounded too sad to me lol!

Now Im going to watch Spring Waltz simply because Han Hyo Joo is inside haha XD! And I believe that Spring Waltz is not that sad as Winter Sonata gua... I also starting to like Endless Love series after watching Winter Sonata, haha ^^!

Endless Love series:

1. Autumn In My Heart
2. Winter Sonata
3. Summer Scent
4. Spring Waltz

Yep, the Endless Love series has 4 chapters and each chapter is a completely different story with 4 different seasons! It's like a series of romance novel with 4 different chapter of stories to tell!

Friday 10 December 2010

2010-12-11T04:25:00.003+08:00

Im sure that most of you already knew about the news of a 22 year old teen left a suicide note on facebook and went suicide after that. Surprisingly, this is the 2nd case of teenage suicidal because of love and the fact that the teen announced in his facebook that he will go suicide before he's going to.

Here's the link of the news just in case some of you are outdated... this link has many details about the incident, take a look:

http://joshuaongys.com/2010/12/19-yrs-old-malaysian-alviss-kong-jumped-off-building-committing-suicide-after-leaving-facebook-message/

Hmm I dunno about this guy, but it seems to me that this guy has a lot of fans! Most probably because he's famous in clubbing I think since he frequently went clubbing around XD... When he went suicide, his news are being spread so widely among the facebook community especially and after he did that, his death is like a famous star actor committed suicide o.0...

Sometimes it's amusing to see how some people can go as far to such extent because of love :0! Needless to say that it's a stupid act just as most of the public has already mentioned about it. The saddest thing is that he will not rest in peace forever because according to all kinds of beliefs, a person that has unnatural death especially committing suicide, would be punished and sent to hell, suffering in eternal flames forever. Anyhow... AMEN.

That's why la... we must be optimistic in life! Being pessimistic and emo too much doesnt bring you any good... think about it, if a person keeps thinking about negative things whenever something happens, how the problem can be solved? Being positive and optimistic are also key elements to keep a relationship steady. Where got girls that like emo and pessimistic guys one? Even if a girl likes emo type of guy, problem would exist later in their relationship, trust me XD! Well Im not that emo type... I am that kind of quiet and thoughtful guy only, haha! If it's me, I will improve myself and make that girl regret for not choosing me XP!

Eh Qi Jie, dont be like that guy you know! Kinda worried because you keep emo about love stuffs! Hahaha joking XD!

Hopefully this case would not inspire the young generation to go suicide because of love. In Korea, there's a lot of star actors committing suicide because of pressure... and since after 2-3 cases of Korean actors committing suicide, it became a trend and inspired other star actors to commit suicide these days. Look at how many Korean actors and stars committed suicide already until now... for instance, the actress from Boys Over Flower and the actor from Winter Sonata... how sad.

Anyway, today I finally got the Aile Strike Gundam in the online game SD Gundam Online! I also took opportunity to try out my newly installed freeware of computer screen real time recording by recording the process of me getting my Aile Strike Gundam lol XD!

Holiday is coming! The feeling of christmas is around ^^!

Thursday 9 December 2010

2010-12-10T01:07:00.005+08:00

Im sure that some of you all might hate group assignment especially when it comes to grouping with those... rather uncooperative or unmotivated group of people XD lol!

Hmm no choice one la, it happens anytime and anywhere around the society where we usually need to team up with other people for a project... that's why we have to learn how to cooperate with all kinds of people with different attitudes, hence when you are given a group assignment, actually it's the best time you can train yourself mixing with other people. To think about it, most of our jobs requires a group of people to be accomplished instead of going solo whatsmore if your dream is to become a boss in future, this is very important as you must learn how to deal with certain kinds of people.

My point of view, is to never help other people to do their part of work lor XD even though you have completed your part because want people to learn responsibility ma. From the start already has been arranged which person would be in charge of which part of the project... if a person is slow in doing his/her part, NEVER EVER help that person to complete his/her work! That's because if you help him/her to complete their part, they'll start to slack off thinking 'Aih feel lazy to do my work la, never mind I will just do slowly and others would help me to complete my part later'. It happens every time in a group work especially when those who had completed their part would help those who havent complete their part yet, and in the end, everything have been thrown to those hardworking group of people to do. The next project, the same thing happens again where the very same person in the group did almost nothing again.

So, in order to avoid such cases to happen, my advice is not to help the others complete their part. Just concentrate and stick to your own part of work. If you finished your part, just rest or try to TEACH and GIVE ADVICE for your teammates but NEVER EVER HELP them do their part! They must have some reasons to be slow in their part:

1. They are lazy (mostly)
2. They dunno how to do
3. They are busy (but busy people are usually lazy people who failed to plan their time schedule properly... unless there's valid acceptable reasons)

To me, it's okay if my teammate dunno how to do their part in certain areas... as long as they asked about how to do this and that, I wouldnt complain that they are noobs and noisy rofl XD! But instead, my way of helping them is to teach them until they understand how to do. This method is a lot more better than you help them to do their part of work because:

1. To prevent them from being lazy
2. To prevent them having a bad habit to let the others do their work
3. Again, for your own benefits. Seriously, why do extra work which is not your part while that person can slack off by giving you their part?
4. Teaching them instead of helping them is a way to help them. Not only that person will gain knowledge on how to do their work hence completing their part, this also prevents them to develop a bad habit!
5. This is also to teach them to be responsible at the same time. Everyone must have their own responsibility to complete their work given! And seriously, RESPONSIBILITY is a very important aspect in life! Imagine a person without any responsibility at all roaming around the society... =.=

Dont know how to do, just ask. Noob, never mind, just ask and improve. These are okay to me. The most thing I couldnt stand is ----- LAZY PEOPLE! Not only they keep giving lame reasons and excuses such as they are busy on what and what stuffs; feel sick; feel tired; headache; computer spoil cant do work; internet line down cant do work and etc, they also brought a lot of troubles to the team and a big headache to everyone. They can be stubborn and thick-skinned to the extent that they absolutely did nothing at all until when the due date is near, everyone would help those lazy people to complete their work... you say di*o or not? LOL!! XD

Sometimes, it's also good to have a 'bad-mouthed' person in your team to give pressure to the entire team especially those lazy ones because they will be the 'bad guy' in the team so that you still can keep your own 'gentleman image' rofl!

If there's no any 'bad-mouthed' person in your team, what to do... someone else in the team have to be the 'bad guy' instead. Just in case that happens, if you (willingly or unwillingly) choose to be the 'bad guy' in the team, my 'secret YX technique' is... during the starting point, identify those lazy ones in your team first and during group discussion especially when discussing who will do which part, say something like this : "Eh I tell you all first ah, our group must aim for grade A one you know!" while your eyes looking at those lazy ones with a 'hinting manner', but of course, dont be WAY TOO SERIOUS when you say this kind of line especially this is just a starting point, must smile smile a bit first. If you say it in a serious way:

1. Some might thought "Wah what's wrong with this guy..."
2. Some might thought that you are the 'bad person' in the team already (not good because they may distant away themselves from you because of the pressure you gave during the starting and this also destroys your gentleman image XD)
3. Bad gossip behind you back... like... "Yerr that YX ah... blablabla"

By saying it with a slight smile and lighter tone, this gives a moderate kind of pressure to the team since from the starting which is kinda good because it's doesnt sounds TOO OVER pressure nor too much like a joke, just average to give the team some kind of moderate pressure... and by saying this line while looking at those lazy ones with a 'hinting manner', this will surely give them some warning and at the same time, this gives them A LOT of pressure since they are lazy, as well as makes you look smart by making the lazy ones thought "Geez this guy knew that I'm lazy...! I gotta be aware of this guy!".

Second phase, when the group is brainstorming for ideas, focus on those lazy ones, observe their body language, what are they doing and what kind of ideas they are giving. If some of them are like 'Aih cincai la, what also can...' (this does not apply to those average or hardworking ones, only apply on the lazy ones who say this kind of line or attitude), you must say : "Cannot simply or cincai one you know, we must aim for grade A!". At this point, you can choose to say it in a serious tone or in a light tone. Choose to say it in serious tone for awesome-ness and yeng-ness because it will makes your teammate go 'Wow this guy has a deep thought! This guy definitely has his own thinking and not cincai that kind of people one' and instantly gives pressure rofl!

Third phase, when the group is arranging different kinds of role for the group, again, target on those lazy ones. If some of them go like 'Wah, you give me this part to do ah... *Im not good in doing this part or Im busy or why give me this kind of difficult part to do*", this is the sign of your team is going to have some problems soon because of these lazy ones already start giving their 'lazy statement' there... hmm not good... (however, ignore this if those average and hardworking ones are saying these)

Fourth phase, of course this is the point where your team will start doing the project where everyone will do their own respective part. Check out on those lazy ones... their work will either look like a 'lazy work' or they havent even started yet. Give them some due date and for those who gives you the 'lazy work', find out their problems and teach them (at least they got do their work better than those who doesnt do at all even though it's a 'lazy work').

Fifth phase, if the problem within those lazy ones still persists in your team and if the fourth phase still doesnt work, you can officially spread out both of your devil wings and thorns, as well as demonic aura already rofl XD! In the working society, at this point, some would lodge a complain to the boss about the lazy ones and they will get fired already! While in school/college/university, most 90% of the people wouldnt be as bad as getting into the fifth phase gua... at most will be at fourth phase only for most cases... and that's why things are sad XP. Haiz, sometimes... you are motivated to get the best result of the subject but when it comes to group assignment, sometimes it's frustrating... especially you want the best and some dont have the same mindset with you... they just probably want to pass the subject, slack off or being a parasite leeching the very same result you get (you do all the hard work, get result, and they also enjoyed and share the same result as you). Sometimes it's very questionable whether those lazy ones knew that they are lazy in the heart or not... >.<, sometimes it makes people want to ask them straight in the face "Eh you know that you yourself are lazy or not?", hahaha!

Hahaha about me, usually my team gets those 'blacklisted people in the class' because of not having enough number of friends to fill up the minimum number of a group lolzz! But quite ok ah, because in future when working, you usually have to team up with all different kinds of people to complete a project (unless EVERYONE is your friend in the team), that's why I can learn a lot hehe ^^! Sometimes, having ONLY FRIENDS in your team without teaming up with other people couldnt learn much as in the method on dealing with different kinds of people! So, always be positive :)! Not only you will face this kind of problem leh, even me XD! Perhaps everyone too!

Lastly, a note :

Pulling out armpit hair or applying chemicals will cause breast cancer.

Tuesday 7 December 2010

2010-12-08T02:02:00.002+08:00

The previous video of UVERworld's Qualia on youtube has been removed =.=... Fortunately I just found another video of this song XD! Haha... this song always got removed because of copyright infringement on youtube.

I still love this song a lot and there's no one single day I missed out listening to this song!

Sunday 5 December 2010

2010-12-06T00:30:00.009+08:00

Nothing special happened these days. I think this is the lowest point in my life where nothing interesting happened, boring usual days and it seemed that I'd given up to myself >.< ... Aih, it's difficult to explain this kind of feeling... it's like there's no any real target or goals I wanted to achieve in my life.

Unlike those days while I was still studying in secondary school, there's a lot of goals that keeps me motivated since there's PMR, SPM... (except STPM because I kinda give up 50% on it already, well you all know the case XD).

Not forgetting about those 'first crush' experience that makes me keep improving myself rofl (c'mon man, sure there's someone on the opposite gender you'll be interested in or being 'crushed' during secondary schooling days... unless you are not human lol)!

Man, it reminds me of how sporting I am back then! I often played basketball and rode bike with my friends that stayed near me, and even spend extra time to do jump rope exercise and jogged just to get noticed by her hopefully in heart but I never really tried to take the first step haha XD! That's my main problem back then, keep improving myself and feel motivated whenever I thought of her but never actually spoke with her once before... because feel shy leh, saw her also my heart racing like mad lol! To put it simply, I'm that kind of... if got 'feel' towards a girl, I will distant away myself from her because of shyness and keep improving myself in the darkness! If I have no communication problems or no boundaries one, that means I dont have 'special feel' towards that girl haha XP! Because of this, that's why I never had a gf or first love before until today haha... hmm that's why people often say that either one side must take the first step first, talk to her and be friends, must got a lot of courage! Yet still, it makes me crazy inside when my heart beats madly to the extent that I couldnt do the first step rofl! Whole body feel cold and numb XD!

Back to the story, after 2 years when I was form 4, she already had bf but I dont have any hard feelings about that... then that's make me thought... maybe I dont really had a crush on her, just feel interested only gua... Ah, that's the time I really put myself in deep thought of what a 'crush' really means... the feeling of liking or (even more seriously) loving someone, what kind of feel is it? Meh, I really doubted it if this case of mine is considered as the statement of 'I had a crush on her'.

But of course, if you like someone of course you will feel pain or hurt if that person like the other person instead or that person's heart dont have you inside...

ZZZ how many 'someone' you liked before? After all we are already 21 years old... Some 'uncountable', some 'none at all' (that's gay lol! Seriously, I asked a person before who he liked and he answered "None", then later I asked "How about... before?", and he also answered none too rofl! Man that's Wei Gang XDXD). Some 'still can be counted in fingers', haha!

Anyway, during secondary school, this can be counted as 'optional goal' that you wanted to achieve. Oh yeah, not to forget those good old times when we had nothing better to do other than studying or sporting, then it's online games that gives us another 'optional goal' that we wanted to achieve. Main goal was PMR, SPM and STPM lolz! As well as your childhood dreams... before I thought that I wanted to be a pharmacist =.=...

Today, some of us have been plagued by the reality of this world and got lost... Some achieved their dream jobs but actually the job they did now are different from what they have dreamed of and expected it to be... Some get into their dream course they wanted to study but just to realize that they aren't suited to the course and struggling with it... Some lost their dream jobs they wanted to be, studying other course due to various reasons like results not good or forceful parents or money problem... So many different kinds of problems that sometimes we lost track ourselves... Whatsmore devastating that the goal you are trying to achieve all the time, are actually not your 'true goal' at all... or rather, 'a goal that leads you to self-destruction'.

When your goal turns into the path of your own destruction, that is sad... but it happens all the time, like, investing money on a share market for the goal of earning more money in return... but some went too far by invested too much money on it and who knows, the share lost, and you lost all your money invested on it. That's the time when your own goal that destroys you. Another example is you love someone, spent a lot of effort and so on... but in the end, that person chooses another person instead of you... man, how devastating it is. Some even went suicide because of love, or start self-destructing because of love too. It's like, the goal itself makes you go suicide in the end.

Hmm... I think everything must be in moderate and must spend some time for some deep thoughts as well as keep questioning our own at heart sometimes... At times, it's rather ambiguous to think if you really should continue on or stop because if you choose to continue, of course there would be risks ahead but if you choose to stop, all your effort and time spent before would be totally wasted. Man, too many 'stop junctions' in life where you need to stop at the junction, and think, "Which path should I take?". Unless you have made up your mind... you will be stuck in the lost junction forever. Haha and the most frustrating thing is, there's no really a 'true, correct and the best path'. Every path has their own disadvantages.

Haiz, how nostalgic it is to think back those childhood days where everyone chases their childhood dreams innocently without being exposed to the world's reality yet!

Talked about childhood, I suddenly thought of when I was in secondary school, form 3 or form 4 that time, I took my pet dog named Spark out for a walk while riding bicycle one day... Spark was just 4 years old that time when I was in form 3. Then we went into a path... suddenly a wild dog barked violently and there's a lot of trees (it's like a kind of mini forest since the place Im staying, once ago was estate) around. Spark was like standing still there and gradually, more and more wild dogs appeared, coming out from the trees. Then, like a speed of light, these wild dogs charged towards Spark and attacked him! It's like there's 6-7 wild dogs in total and 1 or 2 were chasing me! Luckily I rode a bike that time so those wild dogs did not touched me a single fur and I ran away while Spark got attacked by those wild dogs. After I rode a distance away from the incident, I could do nothing but to watch Spark being bitten and attacked by those wild dogs... after that Spark managed to run off away from them and came back to me.

Haha the funniest thing was I told my nearby friends about the story and the next day, I brought Spark to the very same place again along with my friends too, all riding bikes. Then those wild dogs appeared again charging towards Spark and we went all out carrying rocks and big woods, use the wood to hit the wild dogs and threw rock towards them. Some of my friends even rode the bike to crush the wild dogs by the tires which made me LOL-ed XD! None of us got hurt by the wild dogs by the way (maybe because we were riding bikes while attacking them?).

After our first victory against the wild dogs, sometimes after we played bored of basketball, one of them would suggest that we went to do some wild dogs beating activities again so using the same method, using Spark as a lure, we beat up those wild dogs again. This continues and after one month, when one of those wild dogs saw one of us, they would run away instead rofl XD! How fun it was back then! Seriously, I hate those wild dogs back then because they attacked Spark in numbers and I felt that they were too cocky and need to be taught some lessons!

Haiz, suddenly I missed Spark so much! From form 2 until lower 6... he has been a part of my family as well as my friend's. Too bad he got food poisoning (because of those indians mostly. My house area has quite a number of dog poisoning cases in 2007-2009. Lots of pet dogs that my neighbour also died because of this.) when I was in lower 6 and his digestion system already spoiled :( , even the medics couldnt do anything bout it so have to let Spark sleeps forever by injecting something... To be honest, the first few days with Spark gone, I cried during sleep in lower 6 form...

I also suddenly missed the nearby friends that stayed near me once ago, everyday play basketball together, ride bikes, play badminton, fly kites, play PS games... now they all went overseas, other states for their dreams. Some had moved away and some unknown. Huge turning point of life after form 5.

Anyway, my house area already got a security guard 3 months ago so my house area already became safe. No more black people and some indians drinking alcohols midnight anymore, while I can start seeing more youths and kids playing on the field, the playground and basketball already :)! Well my house area got a huge football field with playground. Then there's basketball field on the right and there's also a badminton place at the right side of the basketball field. The most left part is a mosque and most right part is a temple.

About my life, yesterday my dad bought a ping pong table! Yeah man XD! Recently my dad is in a good mood... 2 days ago when he came back, he happily mentioned that he earned 7k+ continuously for 3 days and said if everyday like that, he would be a billionaire already lol... walao hearing my dad earning such an amount... suddenly I feel like low-esteem considering my future job salary per month is gonna be about 1k per month only =.=...

Just now brought my bro to swimming lesson, while waiting for my bro to complete his swimming lesson, an aunty chatted with me and when asked about my age, she shocked and said "I thought you are 15!!", hahaha uber swt-ness! Mentioned bout swimming, I dunno why so many people thought that I dunno how to swim... actually I learned swimming before one leh... when I was standard 6 lol! During a class party in form 5 where my friends pushed me to swimming pool and last year's Redang trip, when I swam some were like 'Eh you know how to swim' XD! Sigh, sometimes I felt that I'm the center subject of underrated or underestimated by people =.=...

Today and yesterday watched Winter Sonata anime, haiz it really makes me feel emo every time after watching it... haha whoever that watched Winter Sonata before sure would feel the same as me seriously! Hmm 10 more episodes left to go!

Thursday 2 December 2010

2010-12-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

Woke up late today and missed my college lesson >.<... man, just when I mentioned about how tired I was yesterday, I went to sleep straight away and forgotten to set my alarm to wake up early today... aih, frustrating! Things doesnt went so smooth this week, what a bad week.

Recently I seemed to be lacking of the momentum to keep my blog updated ever since after my internet line was down during that 5 days period of time. Feel like... there's nothing much for me to blog about -.-, even if there are any... the story was rather long and complicated to be explained here.

Hmm... alright, let me reveal one of my inner thought for now :

Sometimes... the evil side of me enjoy seeing people writing emo statuses in facebook lol XD! Man, sometimes I will write playful comment on that emo status of that person whenever I feel naughty rofl! Hmm... especially to those who will post at least 1-4 emo posts per day. Hahaha! Urgh, I dunno why some people keep posting those emo statuses EVERDAY =.=... mostly about 'emo-tic love' stuffs.

Listening to Nami Tamaki's songs these days! Like 90% of her songs from the 1st album till the latest album!

Wednesday 1 December 2010

2010-12-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

Nothing much interesting happened these days, having some rather frustrating days instead.

Man, the frustrating part was rather a long story to write about and Im lazy to write everything that happened...

Feeling a bit sleepy right now so I might make a lot of mistakes in this post lol XD. Brain not functioning at it's fullest.

Hmm... it's been a long time already since I enjoyed reading my college friend's facebook status especially when they posted it directly on the spot in class rofl! However, I seldom log in to facebook in class... usually I look at Martin or Louis computer screen when they are playing facebook and it makes me laughed sometimes seeing the others posting facebook status in class XD! Well I seldom log in to facebook in class because... aiya you all know I seldom play facebook one la... I rarely post something on facebook, like once in a week or so... I usually log in to facebook to look at what's happening to my friends only lol! The most funny thing that happened this morning was one of my classmate posted something very sentimental yet romantic status and I freaking lol-ed at that because I thought "Wah this guy early morning already so romantic ah XD!", but on the spot there he doesnt seemed so... rofl! Man, it bugged me when Louis saw me laughing so hard at that and commented "You so bad ah laugh at people like that... next time if I saw you post those sentimental or emo stuffs on facebook I'll laugh ah XD.", swt man... by the way, lame story =.=...

It's raining almost everyday nowadays, quite fun and I enjoy the weather! It really feels like it's snowing and winter season especially it's December now and Christmas is coming!

Saturday 27 November 2010

2010-11-28T00:56:00.010+08:00

November is coming to an end in 3 days time! Man, time flies really fast this year... I cant really believe how fast time flies this year as this year seemed to be a boring year to me without any surprises nor memorable moments. The year 2010 is going to end soon yet the memories of 2007-2009 are still crystal clear to me, as if everything had just happened yesterday. Watching the anime Winter Sonata now, suddenly I had the thought of... if it's just me that is still living in my own memories as time passes? Sometimes I wonder if some of my friends would ever think back or rather, missed those memories and moments we went through together before. A lot of questions arise whenever I thought about this, especially my friends at Guangzhou... Is it just me that misses them? Will they think the same way too? Am I living in my own memories while most of them had move forward in their life or maybe perhaps those moments arent that memorable enough for them to reminiscing back those moments?

Ah... hopefully I could fly to Guangzhou to visit them next year!

Sigh, I realized that Im getting older these days. Looking back at those pics of myself and compared to now, I had wrinkles already especially on my cheeks. Whenever I smile, the wrinkles will start to be more and more visible as I smile wider =.=... Dam, comparing the smile Im having now and the pics of myself smiling back then, it feels so different!!! I keep feeling that my smile is like an old man's and not looking as great as before!

These days I also had the dilemma on deciding to buy or not to buy MG 00 Qan[T] Gundam model kit.

Image from:

http://blog.livedoor.jp/hacchaka/archives/51613504.html

It has been 2 years since the last time I bought my last Gundam model kit which was 1/100 00 Gundam. Now, this 00 Qan[T] Gundam... the more I look at the model kit, the more I feel like want to buy it lol XD! So beautiful! Whatsmore, it's the upgraded version of 00 Gundam in the movie Gundam 00 - A wakening of the Trailblazer! This model kit was just released last week and I heard that Sungai Wang was selling it at RM150! RM25 more cheaper than the normal price of the model kit itself which supposed to be RM175+! However, I just heard that because of Sungai Wang is having Gundam model competition and exhibition, there are lots of people there and just by 2 days, the model kit was already sold out T.T... man, Gundam 00 is the hottest stuffs these days XD!

Currently Im still debating with myself whether to buy this model kit or not... after all, it has been 2 years since the last time I bought one... but still, there's a lot of reasons for me to decide not to buy it:

1. Waste my money on stuff that I doesnt need at all.
2. After buying it, my parents would be nagging me if they find out about this =.=.
3. I can make a 3D model of it instead of having the real model of it.
4. Usually after buying a Gundam model kit, as time passes, I tend to keep most of them away in their boxes.

Haha, feel itchy on spending some money out right now... cutting my own hair saves me a lot. The last time I went to saloon for a haircut was on March. A haircut costs me about RM30 most of the time and usually I go to re-dye my hair once per 3 months which costs me RM120 to dye my hair... and after dyeing, need hair treatment some more that costs me another RM30+ lol! Hmm... now I dont feel like dyeing my hair anymore. Feel like I played enough of dyeing my hair already and I already came to an understand that it's a waste of money. Not only dyeing hair is a waste of money, it also damages your hair and whatsmore, need extra amount of caring it and etc etc... after all, who could win over 'mother nature' itself? Since my hair is already black since I was born, no matter how many times I dye it, my hair would become black in the end... seeing my own sis, her hair was slightly curly since she was born and she needs to spend money at saloon to straighten her hair every time... ah, that was the time I gave up my heart to 'mother nature' itself lol XD! Rather than 'fighting' with 'mother nature' itself, I rather enhance the looks of 'mother nature' haha! Another reason is that dyeing would cause cancer... Mentioned about hair, I advice those who want to dye their hair to bleach their hair first before dyeing la... What I saw around my friends was about them complaining that their new hair dye color are not too visible and after a few weeks would fade away becoming black again... aiyo, dye hair must bleach out your hair first one, hence the reason I spend RM120 dyeing my hair in saloon before that includes bleaching service. Man, bleaching hair is quite fun to look at back then... because everytime they bleach your hair, your hair would be 100% yellow lol!! But bleach + dye would do x2 more damage to your hair's health!

Ah, back to the topic, besides of giving up to 'mother nature' of deciding not to dye my hair anymore forever and cutting my own hair saves me a lot of money, the lack of gatherings since after our beloved Hong Yi left to Canada also makes me had quite an amount of money...

Now thinking whether should I buy the model kit... or continue saving my money to buy a PSP... or none of them, just keep continue saving my money for future use. But, buying a PSP is also one of my dream ever since form 6 until now... simply because PSP has some of the coolest games that I have always wanted to play XD!

By the way, a camera-rip of the Gundam 00 movie was uploaded... man, that's what I like about China rofl XD! Once the movie was released on cinema theaters in China... they sure had ways to do something for the public's benefits lol!

Feel so sad watching the ending of the movie... it's just like the spoilers said in the end. After 50 years, Marina has grew old and blind... living alone and while playing the piano... Setsuna, who had became a 'peter pan', visited Marina and both of them embraced, saying that they finally understand each other...

From:

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/IvdOc-1xKVA/

It's really really touching in the end! Setsuna and Marina who walked different paths since from the anime until the movie... both had their own ideals yet their goal is the same... both of them dreamed of having a peaceful world... Setsuna, who believed that 'change' is required to achieve the dream of having a peaceful world without war where everyone could live united and happily together and to prevent another 'him' to be born again, fought along with Gundam and Celestial Being in order to change the world while Marina, who believed in pacifism and mutual understanding to talk things over rather than having fights, arguments and wars is the best way... The two of them who walked different path as opposed to each other... finally meet each other again in the end. It's like both of them walked as opposed to each other in a very same circle (the dream of having world peace), and until the very end of the route of the circle, although they walked as opposed as each other in the beginning, they met each other again in the end because their goals are the same!

It gives me some chills and my heart was touched when:

Setsuna said : "It seems that... I have spent a lot of time..."

Marina : "That's because our way of thinking are completely different..." <--Touching!! T.T

Setsuna : "But no matter how, our goals are the same..."

*Setsuna holds Marina's hand*

Setsuna : "You... are right."

*Marina holds Setsuna's hand and tears starts to roll down over her cheeks* <-- OMG TT.TT

Marina : "You're the same too... you're not wrong."

Setsuna : "We finally..."

Marina : "We finally..."

Setsuna and Marina : "Can reach mutual understanding."

Then the faraway outside view that's full of flowers... and 00 Qan[T] Gundam that's glowing... what a beautiful yet touching view!! T.T Finally... the most beautiful key quote from Albert Einstein which explained everything about the main concept plot of the whole Gundam 00 anime and movie to wrap everything up...

"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding. "

A truly beautiful yet inspiring quote coming from Albert Einstein himself!

It's like Aeolia Schenberg from the Gundam 00 anime is Albert Einstein, having the brain of 'seeing the future'! Yes, it's said that Albert Einstein's brain exceeded normal human's brains that Albert has the ability to 'see and predict the future', just like Aeolia in the anime did! Aeolia foresees that and invented Gundam and GN technologies, as well as the Celestial Being faction... till the end of movie, it's really all perfectly planned! Humans are going innovation and so on to understand each other... I would say that pretty wrap things up in a good way ^^! I like Gundam 00's ending better than Gundam SEED Destiny's! The SEED universe is like having war to no end without any good solutions at all and even the SEED director said that the best way to obtain peace is just by Destiny plan although the plan has been 'destroyed' by Kira Yamato and that Kira would keep continue fighting for the future. For Gundam 00, it's really really surprising yet so touching to know that humans would want to understand each other in the end ^^!

Think about it, would this world be peaceful if everyone can understand each other? Just like the most brilliant scientist in the world yet at the same time, philosopher Albert Einstein said :

"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding."

Peace can only be achieved through understanding. Do you all agree on this statement ^^? If everyone can understand each other, will there be wars around, or even arguments and fights? Usually, misunderstanding is the source of starting an argument or fights...

Thursday 25 November 2010

2010-11-26T01:23:00.005+08:00

Suddenly got a lot of feelings after watching the anime version of Winter Sonata till that I dont know what to write about here lol!

Once ago I mentioned about the anime version of Winter Sonata here, actually I have downloaded full episodes of the anime but never watched it until my internet connection was broken. Man, the more I watch it, the more I wanted to know about what would happen in the next episode haha!

3D - SD 00 Gundam

2010-11-25T02:10:00.007+08:00

Finally! After being in hiatus for almost a week due to no internet access... hmm I particularly missed my 00 Gundam works so much that I posted in my blog! Usually I also go to my blog to view my previous works one, haha XD!

The time period of 5 days without internet, luckily I have enough references, sources and materials to make a SD 00 Gundam... the 'Super Deformed' version of 00 Gundam. Did it for fun and as my hobby I guess... surely every person has their own hobby right XD? It definitely feels awful when you couldnt do your hobby or your favorite stuffs even in just a day... it's like something has been missing in your day. Facebook-ing for most of the people as their daily hobby, for example XD.

My SD 00 Gundam was based on the left hand side version of the below pic:

The left one is the 'modified' and 'remodeled' version of SD 00 Gundam while the right one is the 'official plastic model kit' of SD 00 Gundam. I find out that the 'modified' version looked more appealing to me as it has a balance mix of everything... although it's SD, but the 'modified' version one retains the 'fierce' and 'sharp' look of the original 00 Gundam while the official version of SD 00 Gundam looked too cute and some parts of it looked tricky to me hence the reason I choose the left side one, the 'modified' version of SD 00 Gundam.

The SD 00 Gundam on the left side was remodeled, modified and done by :
http://mesarionplus.hannnari.com/gallery/gallery.htm

Images from:

http://mesarionplus.hannnari.com/gallery/sdoom/sdoom.htm

Of course, it's unfair to judge that the official version of SD 00 Gundam is bad through the pics above since the official version of SD 00 Gundam in the above pics are not painted.

Here's the painted version of SD 00 Gundam official version:

Looks great too yeah?

However, if I choose my reference as the official version of SD 00 Gundam, I would have to remake some parts of my original 3D 00 Gundam file especially the head part... the 'modified' version of the SD 00 Gundam offers me the fastest and easiest way to just modify my original 3D 00 Gundam into a 3D SD 00 Gundam just by scaling down those necessary parts directly without the fuss of deleting the head and then remake the 00 Gundam's head into the official SD 00 Gundam's head XD.

For memories, I also bought a SD 00 Gundam (the official version of course here) for RM29 before years ago during upper 6 form... the pic above was taken by me so long ago back then... now it's still sitting on my desk with a fixed pose, lol XD. It's a very fun model kit to play with and cute! By the way, the pic above I taken years ago was outdated since after a few weeks later I went on to paint it so it's not that dull looking as the above pic looks like...

After a long post, here's my 3D SD 00 Gundam:

(Kinda) 45 degree view.

Left view.

Side view mainly to show off the decal on the shoulder shield of SD 00 Gundam XD.

View from bottom to top.

Back view.

*Click for larger view*

Be sure to take some time to look at the pics as some of you might not fond of this SD version lol XD... Hmm basically I use the 'modified' version of SD 00 Gundam as main reference to modify my own 3D 00 Gundam into the SD version!

Tuesday 23 November 2010

2010-11-24T00:17:00.001+08:00

Havent been online for 5 days! As some of you might have guessed it, it's about my house's internet line again. Actually last Thursday the technician from the company already fixed the line by giving us a new modem... but the next day, just as I happily turn on the computer as Friday has no college classes (Friday-Sunday is holidays to me!) and wanted to online since my internet line just got repaired, I cant access to the internet again! This time my computer couldnt detect any network connections... Aih, sien.

Because Friday is some kind of holiday since most companies would only operate for half a day because of muslim prayers and Hari Raya was days ago, it's late to call for the company already so as Saturday and Sunday. My dad called the company yesterday about the connection problem we had just as Im getting myself ready to go college. The guy over the phone wanted my dad to check the connection at the computer... because my dad lack of knowledge about computer stuffs, he called me to check and follow the guy's instructions... In the end, the guy's method doesnt work out and it's already 1pm+. Since my class yesterday was from 12pm until 3pm, I skipped it =.=...

Just as I thought that it's going to be days to wait for the company's technician to come over fixing the internet line again, unexpectedly the technician came today which was a surprise when I woke up! Man, they are so efficient these days lol! Called them yesterday and they came today! Hmm the connection problem is about the modem and router's brand are not the same since the modem is the company's brand one while my router is D-Link so they are not in sync and furthermore, the technician said that my router is spoilt. No choice... my D-Link modem and router are already 5 years old and it's time for them to rest in peace already this time after the strong lightning storm and heavy rain that happened during Tuesday. And so... finally I get to online again today! Woohoo!

The most frustrating thing that happened after I get to online was when I turned on my Photoshop, it got detected by the anti-piracy system because I forgot to turn my firewall on! Haiz! My CD also lent to my friend Louis already... I called him to give me a serial number from the CD but he said he dunno how to open =.= (by the way, this friend of mine was also waiting for me to help him install the whole Adobe package since he's not good in computer stuffs lol)! So I have to find some online cracks to download the keygen... man, takes up a lot of time... after installing back the whole thing, run a full system scan, 87 trojans and viruses detected wth! Luckily my anti virus was able to destroy all of them I think... well I need to run a full system scan for the 2nd time again to make sure that everything's ok here.

Haha that's all for today. Couldnt access to the net for 5 days, Im behind of my works again... internet is important for me to complete my works since it's my source of inspiration as well as my material supplier lol!

Thursday 18 November 2010

2010-11-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

My house's internet line has been down for 3 days. Modem spoilt :(. It happened on Tuesday... Just as I thought that that day was gonna be a normal day as I could still use the internet in the morning before going to college, then after I came back from college class, the internet line was down already. I thought that it should be the rain that rained heavily that afternoon that caused the line to be instable... so my dad said wait until the next day to see if the line would recover.

The next day, the line didnt recover so my dad called to TMNet and they say that they will send people to repair the line over here by 3 DAYS. Hearing that I need to wait 3 days... aih feel sien.

But luckily today the company called to us that they are going to repair the line!! Haha felt so happy and I thought "Wow, TMNet is really getting more and more efficient wor... often heard people complaining about the company saying that they will send people to repair in 'x' days of time and after the day arrives, no one came at all and called to them again, they say need to wait for 'x' days again.". The moment they called us, after 30 minutes a person already came for repair. He just changed the modem and said that our house's modem was spoilt and after that everything works out again!

Man, felt tired today... These days too many stuffs to do haha XD. Changed the layout of my blog finally! I couldnt even recall when's the last time I updated and arranged my blog's layout already! I just realized that blogger had upgraded blog's customization system... so many templates to choose from, and after choosing it, there's really a lot of things that still could be customized such as the size of your overall layout! I already set my overall layout to be wider... hope can view my pictures in the blog posts in a larger view lol XD!

Monday 15 November 2010

2010-11-16T01:39:00.004+08:00

Found out that my blog was overwhelmed with my works posts and Gundam stuffs XD! Time to balance things up by writing about my life...

About my life, nothing special happened these days really. Go to college daily and as soon as college classes are over, go home straight away to do my works... Sounds boring right? Haha this kind of routine used to be boring to me before, but now I didnt feel such way anymore... I just got a kind of feeling that I want to go home as soon as possible to work on my Gundam 3D projects! Just love the feeling of after I finished every single piece of artwork lol! Feels rewarded yet at the same time it's like syok sendiri (self-admiration)!

Speaking of 3D, thinking back about how much I disliked it and how tiring, confusing and mentally exhausting it makes me before... now it feels so different to me. I think the biggest turning point is when the final project of 3D comes and I struggled to find tutorials online to learn more... that time, I only thought that among all my subjects, 3D was the thing Im most afraid of so I want to conquer the fear of 3D inside me. After finished my 3D final project which was Arios Gundam, man, I felt so happy and rewarded as the Arios Gundam looked so nice to me that time rofl XD! Not trying to praise myself too much here but Im also the first ever person to complete my 3D final project in my class leh that time XDXD! Seriously, 'Gundam' is the toughest subject to make in 3D in my class as other of my classmates ones are about Keroro, cars, furnitures... thinking back about those, I can finished them just by 3 days or a week's time according to my level now... the 1st 3D Gundam I made spent about 2 months+ doing it, now I can finish a 3D Gundam model in 2-4 weeks time >.<... Then the next turning point is after switching teacher I instantly knew more about 3D already and every confusion about 3D have been eliminated inside me XD.

Sometimes I guess most of you might ask that if the only thing I could do is Gundam in 3D... well the answer is, maybe yes and no... most probably 'yes' if it's about making organic stuffs like human, dragons, animals that kind of stuffs; most probably 'no' if it's about making non-living things like cars, furnitures and etc... The reason I keep doing 3D Gundam models is because I like Gundam and other stuffs like doing interiors and cars feel boring to me... I like that kind of challenging stuffs that makes me feel rewarded in the end, haha... if you want me to do a 3D chairs, tables and computers... definitely not a problem to me but deep inside my heart, upon hearing about making those stuffs I will faint with the face =__= because they're too boring to make in 3D to me haha! When I was doing the 3D model of the car AE86 I already felt like dying because it's boring to me... and I just keep thinking of complete the AE86 fast and skip the AE86 project instead. So maybe some of you will feel that my 3D model of AE86 was kinda rushed was due to this reason...

Overall, I have quite a fun life right now although it seemed to be boring and lifeless on the outside... but actually I had fun inside especially when it comes to making 3D Gundam models lol! Thinking about it, in future if I worked in a company, I would not have the time to do my own favorite stuffs like making 3D Gundam models anymore because all the time must put priority into doing company's projects 1st ma... if got any free time in future must be spent on getting enough rest to get myself prepared for the upcoming day and works... if didnt get enough rest how can I wake up the next day and even concentrating in doing my office work leh? Hahaha! Besides that, now is the good chance to me to do my own favorite stuffs as in future there's no time for me to do'em all anymore just in case I want to go for a date with gf rofl XD! In future, got work + gf are already more than enough to take all your time away and a wise one should spend his free time in getting enough rest to prepare himself for the next challenge ahead! Now still in college... do everything you like and learn as much as you can because there's no time for you to do all that in future whatsmore you dont have gf becoming an obstacle to you and any other disturbing stuffs lol (I mean, myself)! Sometimes seeing my other friends situation... I must say Im quite lucky enough... staying at home also makes me richer because every time going outside, spending money away is unavoidable XD... Wow, speaking like a true lifeless homeboy myself! But really, what's more enjoyable than doing your favorite thing without spending money? Haha!

As for why I say I felt that 2012 is my peach blossom year is because this year is already coming to an end... next year, my current semester would end at around February or March and I still have another semester. The next semester, I expect that it would end at around May-July probably and after that, I would get into 3-months internship which I expect to end at around September-October... As a free man after that... I would most probably get myself a job or wondering what path should I take in future or learning something during that time period. As it's already near the end of the year 2011 by the time comes, I think there's no any luck of peach blossom as Im still in college and spending 1/4 of the year 2011 doing internship... totally takes me about 3/4 of the year 2011 already so nothing's gonna happen in 2011 while for 2012 there's so much chances and high probability for it to happen rofl XD! Whatsmore Im already 23 when it's 2012! That's why I think 2012 is going to be My YEAR as I mentioned it before hahaha!

About my relation with my friends in college, so far so good la... Martin being a Scorpio while Louis being a Cancer with me being a Libra... man, it's already more than a miracle for these 3 horoscopes to be in good friends state lol! You know, Libra and Scorpio isnt that fit with each other while Libra and Cancer are always natural enemies no matter what XD! My family... my mum and 2 sisters are already Scorpio, dad being a Gemini while my bro is a Cancer... zzz.

Still the same as ever, my dad is controlling my computer time... Everything, so far so good I guess, and I hope everything would run smoothly till the end of this year... And I would hate it if something bad happens tomorrow as I just said that everything is smooth so far at this moment! It's like happy today; sad tomorrow... >.<

Refrain - Mille Face

2010-11-14T23:53:00.005+08:00

Found that the ending song of Gundam 00 Special Edition III is so inspiring! It's quite a shame to me that Special Edition OVAs of Gundam 00 have been released last year but now only I realized about it!

Well about the song, it's impact is not strong enough to make it memorable to me in my humble opinion... After 1 hour or so I would have forgotten the tunes and melodies of the song. However, the images used in this ending song is very memorable though! The images used in the song is so full of inspiration, artistic and poetic at the same time with that kind of 'pure innocent watercolor' art style! It makes people feel the sweetness, bitterness... all kinds of feelings being portrayed inside and at the same time romantic!

The 4 main characters of Gundam 00 in artistic watercolor style with sakura petals! It seems that sakura petals here symbolize 'love'...

From left to right, Tieria, being an innovator which supposed to have no any emotions and feelings, throughout the series, he actually realized that he developed 'human' kind of feelings inside him. Because of him being innovator, he doesnt really has any gender so it looks like he havent found his love yet XD. Setsuna grabbing sakura petals is like he has someone special deep in his heart...; Lockon is like enjoying the scenery of sakura petals falling as if reminiscing his lost love Anew... while for Allelujah, duh we already knew that he already gotten his beloved one who is Marie in the series that's why he's holding sakura petals like holding a bunch of rose firmly and gently XD!

Hahahahaha I like this pic the most in the song video!!!! So romantic!! It's very very inspiring and poetic as well! Setsuna looking at a distance far away... a night sky that is full of stars with Marina's image in the background... haiz, Marina's overflowing long hair and her most beautiful smile... the fragrance of a yellow flower among the desert that's like, a little pure kindness and innocence in this cruel world's fragrance... like among all the bitterness you had, but yet you still can feel the sweetness among it... haiz. Setsuna's expression is like 'One day... I will... surely...', hahaha I dont want to continue the sentence rofl XD! Too romantic!

3D - 00 Raiser Gundam

2010-11-13T02:06:00.008+08:00

Pose for my 00 Raiser Gundam!

00 Raiser Gundam render with white background.

Just in case some of you might like a dark background more, here's the dark background version! Actually I cant decide which background is better... oftentimes I wonder if I should use white or black background because both colors will give different feels to a person. To me, white gives me the feeling of space, room, and something that could expand my imagination towards the subject while black gives me the feeling of nothingness, emotionless, a kind of concentration towards the subject and compressed. That's why black color is called as a professional color. Many things that gives people feel that the subject is professional are black color such as portfolio page design especially, people that wears black shirt or black formals too.

Haha mentioned about black color, imagine and compare, a person that wears white shirt and another one that wears black shirt, it definitely gives people a different kind of feeling. Black one feels professional, full with thoughts while the white one feels clean and got that kind of carefree personality... hmm I mean, not too heavy in thoughts. In fashion sense, fat people are not suitable to wear black color type of shirts because wearing black will makes people concentrate more on your body shape haha! Singer+dancer type of celebrities like Rain, he definitely looks more sexy when wearing black shirt and when he dances... argghhhh super sexiness rofl! That's why those dancers that want to perform 'sexy dance' type of performance would wear black!

Lastly, here's the edited version of 00 Raiser Gundam done by me with Photoshop:

Full view please XD! Or you all could view it in my deviantart account by clicking here:

http://chongyx.deviantart.com/#/d32ox81

Haha this is the 1st time I produced a mixed media digital artwork by using 3D and Photoshop!

3D - O Raiser and 00 Raiser Gundam

2010-11-12T00:06:00.007+08:00

Completed O Raiser a few days ago... because the file size is already quite big and everything inside was kind of laggy, I have skipped a lot of detailing parts of O Raiser and it's in 'low poly version'.

In the anime Mobile Suit Gundam 00, this O Raiser is an upgrade specially for 00 Gundam to stabilize 00 Gundam's twin drive system so that 00 Gundam could activate Trans-Am system without any problems. It also increases 00 Gundam's power output by 3x!

It's quite fun and nostalgic to think back about the Gundam 00 anime... The most memorable moment is that when O Raiser was still in development and was put to test with 00 Gundam, the data shows that O Raiser is able to increase 00 Gundam's power output triple than it's normal power, Setsuna's eyes was flashing full of determination and confidence... he thought to himself "The power to change the world... 00 Raiser Gundam.". Man, that scene is quite moving full of emotion with the right song being played at the moment (forgot what's the soundtrack's name already XD)!

Here's the description of O Raiser from the official data:

0 Raiser's design is derived from earlier developments of GNR-001 GN Arms and GNR-000 GN Sefer. The unit is a weapons support/transport-fighter that contains self-detachable components to combine with GN-0000 00 Gundam. The unit uses a large GN Condenser as its main power source and is designed to charge using 00's GN Particles when docked. 0 Raiser is loosely autonomous with the aid of a Haro unit, capable of assisting 00 Gundam in combat and docking sequence; the unit has a cockpit for manual pilot control that's necessary for special system calibrations.

As a fighter, the unit itself is a high speed aerial/space combat ship. The unit is highly maneuverable and capable of loading heavy artillery for combat. It can carry additional GN Missiles of all sizes to combat mobile suits, intercept enemy ordinance, and capital ships; even though the unit is capable of independently combating enemy units, its fighter mode wasn't utilized much as it was meant to dock and stabilize the Twin Drive System.

By the way, here's the video of 00 Raiser Gundam first appearance in the show:

Haha watch it if you have 7 minutes to spare XD! It's equivalent to the time of listening to 2 songs lol!

In docking mode, docking lasers/sensors are activated to automate the docking sequence. 0 Raiser's tail folds downward and its binders are moved forward to adjust docking with 00's back. The binders extend clamps to attach upon 00 Gundam's GN Drives while the main body attaches to the back of 00 Gundam. When combined they become a single combat unit, 00 (Double O) Raiser, and the Twin Drive System is stabilized for high particle output. Because of the constant need for the power of 00 Raiser, it became the mainstay form and configuration for 0 Raiser.

Here's the normal pose of 00 Raiser Gundam:

Front view.

Back view.

Poses for 00 Raiser Gundam coming up next!

Monday 8 November 2010

2010-11-09T01:51:00.001+08:00

Havent been blogging for around 3 days, needless to say, Im sure that you all could already know that I have been very busy if I didnt blog, haha XD!

Well nothing special happened these days since I never went out and stayed at home most of the time doing my work... it's not that my college assignments are way too much that caused me to be busy up to this kind of stage, instead, it's about my own personal projects + some college assignments to do about.

Some of you might be curious about why I keep having myself being occupied by my own personal projects, giving myself extra amount of works other than college works haha XD... Actually I dont even know the reason why Im doing this, but something inside me just keep telling myself to keep doing work. If there's any reason I could think of, it's about in future... after I graduated and finding companies to work in... let's say (most probably) I want to work in a 3D related field of company, surely there's an interview before they employ you to work in their company, so you have to show your portfolio and all your works to them. Up until now, I just have done about six 3D models... imagine what would the employer of the company think... maybe the employer would say something like :"You want to work in our 3D company and you just have six 3D models / 3D works only?". Even though the company employed me to work in there, maybe some colleagues would thought "Geez this new guy only did six 3D models before only, I cant trust him enough yet to handle our current 3D project .". Lol just some random 'what-ifs' thoughts I had, but it's a good thing if I do more, haha!

Saturday cut my own hair again, mostly about every week I would cut my own hair... but that day I accidentally cropped my right sideburn short! OMG >.
These days my friends and parents keep telling me that they felt bored of me wearing the same old shirts everyday. Actually I felt the same way too and feel the need to buy some new shirts... but, sigh... buying new shirts take a lot of time since Im very sensitive and picky when it comes to shirt. Firstly, the shirt must have collar because I hate wearing rounded tees; Secondly, I dont like wearing T-shirts or sport casuals; Thirdly, the shirt I want must have that kind of 'uniform look' yet dont look too similar to uniform... must look smart yet not too smart, looks cute yet not too cute, looks unique and fashion yet not too over... must got that kind of smart gentleman look wearing it. Dont want too bombastic or exaggerating style of shirts. Haha you know, Im a Libra so everything must look 50%-50% that kind of style XD... My style is 'ambiguous style' in mostly everything lol! Hair cant be too long nor too short, need to spike but not too much and need to look handsome, cute, cool, nice at the same time... In my sense of art is also like, red color but not too red and looks a bit mixed with blue at the same time... when people ask me what type of girls I prefer, sexy, cute, beautiful or pretty I will answer 'a mix of everything together in a well balanced way' or most of the time, '50% cute 50% pretty' haha! Sometimes I really wonder if this kind of sense in style of me is really based on my horoscope Libra which is really 50:50 of most stuffs. Lastly, the clothing material must have that kind of rough texture because I dont like my own shirt keep sticking to my body when wearing it especially cotton material-based shirts. I only like school uniform/formal shirts that kind of clothing material/texture and the feel when I wear it.

It's already very difficult for me to find new shirts to buy and furthermore, thinking that in future, when Im working I would wear formal to my company/office most of the time from 9am-6pm at Monday-Friday... so I dont see the need to buy new shirts since it's like 70-80% of the time I would be wearing formal already in future. Even if there's gathering or dinner after work... aiyo why so leceh (why the fuss)... just continue wearing the formal to attend the gathering/dinner/meeting lor XD! After go back home of course wear my own 'old home-based shirts' lol!

That's why it's really a headache on deciding whether I should buy new shirts these days... Im still debating with myself over these questions >.< !

Qualia - UVERworld

2010-11-06T02:25:00.003+08:00

It has been a week and I still keep listening to this song repeatedly! I like this song so much! 'Qualia' by UVERworld! It definitely speaks out the exaggeration I had deep in my heart when I... well, feel such way... XD

This song is so full of inspiration in a poetic sense! Just like the song describes, it's like out of millions of encounters with all kinds of people... you are the one I have always been waiting for and things such as beautiful words have actually no meaning of them... so there's no need for beautiful words and cast them away. A feeling that cant be found anywhere, it's not in the chest nor in the brain, but it's between the two of us, and certainly, you can feel it while the loneliness of the days we didnt meet each other, proved how perfect the moments were when we were together. The fact that I consider important the things I treasure, I will put all of them into the most mundane words. The feeling that cant be found anywhere, Im sure it's swaying passionately when I think of you.

Listen to this song wholeheartedly... the sincere lyrics of this song and the singer's facial expressions... everything is so full of feel and undoubtedly, touching as well!

Haha, watch the song MV as fast and as much as you all could before this video gets removed from youtube because of copyright issues XD!

3D - 00 Gundam 3

2010-11-05T05:12:00.006+08:00

Second pose of my 3D 00 Gundam done just now with my computer. Man, it's my blood effort to pose 00 Gundam this way and rendering it because the 3D program keep crashes and every single progress I made, I have to keep saving the file lol! Spent 6 hours adjusting the pose and rendering it...

It's shield pose this time! The dual shields mounted below at 00 Gundam's GN-Drive can be combined together to become a larger shield!

Harsh lighting. Haha the sword blocked the light away XD.

A direct front lighting. Well I guess you all could see the angle of my lighting just by looking at where the shadows are casted on the ground...

Once again, you all have to click on the images for larger view to enjoy the pics!! Seriously!! I really like these 4 pics above equally this time... but maybe the 1st and 3rd pic a little bit more XD... spent quite some time thinking of how should I edit my pics to make them nicer, nor too 'over-edited' just now, haha XD!

3D - 00 Gundam 2

2010-11-03T23:43:00.006+08:00

Managed to render some pics of my 3D 00 Gundam in class today XD! Man, my class' Mac computer is faster than my computer even though my computer is new with i5 and 4GB RAM...

Normal pose once again but with 'studio lighting' style. Can see the shadow casted by 00 Gundam, hehe.

Time for some poses!

Official artwork poster of 00 Gundam. Using this as reference and 'inspiration' lol!

Normal lighting.

Harsh lighting.

Without background.

Today suddenly feel like Im going to buy a Mac in future just for my 3D works... haha XD! Haiz.

Oh ya, click on the pics for larger view! :)

Monday 1 November 2010

2010-11-02T01:36:00.007+08:00

It's the start of November! Time passes so fast that when I thought of what had happened throughout the year of 2010, everything moves on and passes like a dream! 2010 is like a boring year to me up until now as there's nothing much memorable moments... the moments I could recall easily were my birthday event and those days when Hong Yi came back since there's so many outings and gatherings that time of period.

Without realizing it, my blog already has 100k pageviews lol! I have been blogging for 3 years and among these 3 years, this year has the least posts... hahaha! Probably because of nothing much interesting that happened this year up until today.

Once again, sorry but I have to write about my 00 Gundam work here too rofl XD! Besides posting about 00 Gundam... I have nothing else to write about already since I dont have any thoughts these days... maybe I can keep myself away from thinking too much or having too many (and usually), emo thoughts by doing 3D stuffs.

Today did some textures for my 00 Gundam. They are the decals for 00 Gundam... just like those tiny little stickers markings to stick at your models to enhance the details of your model. Sometimes, even cars have decals too in real life and it's like customizing something you like according to your personal taste and style, making that object more unique.

Compare with the previous post of 00 Gundam, can you all see the tiny little extra details here?

Hmm... after texturing the decals to my 00 Gundam, I felt that 'small size' type of decals doesnt really adding in something so I only do those 'big size' type of decals.

I guess most of you couldnt spot out the differences since you all are not from art class nor sensitive towards tiny little bit of changes XD... Anyway, posting up the decals texture I did for my 00 Gundam here too:

Celestial Being logo with it's tagline "We begin the armed intervention of all warfare with GUNDAM". The motto tagline of Celestial Being is really filled full of feel and I like it XD! It sounds cool in the anime itself too... in a war-torned world with every country keep having war with each other, a group called Celestial Being came in and acted as 'terrorist' of doing armed interventions towards every country with special units called 'GUNDAM' so that the world will be united to fight Celestial Being.

The decals for the head. Haha even though I havent completed '00 Raiser Gundam' yet, mine is still '00 Gundam' :P. But surely Im gonna upgrade my 00 Gundam to 00 Raiser Gundam soon!

Decal for GN-Condensers of 00 Gundam. I like this decal the most since it really enhance the look of 00 Gundam's head, legs and hands... if you noticed those green rounded parts of 00 Gundam.

In the end I gave up making decal textures for my 00 Gundam because they are not quite visible XD...

3D - 00 Gundam

2010-11-01T00:53:00.004+08:00

Completed the dual shields and dual swords of 00 Gundam today ^^!

Rendering it is very annoying because of it's file size... but after reading some articles around online, somehow I managed to render 00 Gundam successfully. But still, it's really time consuming!

The uncolored version.

Colored version. Havent texturing it yet.

Composed and edited in Photoshop... haha it's very tricky to think of how to compose 00 Gundam and Im not satisfied with the compositing yet but for now, this is the so called 'testing and experimenting phase' lol XD!

Next I will try texturing 00 Gundam (the decals of it) and try adjusting whatever necessary fixes ^^!

Saturday 30 October 2010

2010-10-31T01:47:00.002+08:00

Completed 90% progress of 00 Gundam today!

What's left are 00 Gundam's dual shield and GN-Sword II!

Sigh, I had a mixed feeling after completed it because I had trouble rendering the whole thing because the overall file size is big... haiz, my computer are not that good... The pic above I rendered, was after I turn off all my programs like anti-virus, Google Chrome, MSN, Anti-Spyware program, firewall and etc etc... Hmm by the way, would start to give my 00 Gundam colors after finishing the whole thing and hopefully, my computer wont crash when rendering the completed version of 00 Gundam... Man, there's still an upgrade for 00 Gundam to do, that is O Raiser, after combined with 00 Gundam, would become 00 Raiser Gundam. I really really hope that my computer can keep up with the file size by the time comes :S (dunno whether I should feel happy or content about it)!

Thursday 28 October 2010

2010-10-29T01:23:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates these 3 days! Have been busy and tired with my college classes and assignment stuffs... as well as my own personal project lol!

Couldnt really recall what happened nowadays since everyday seems to be the same to me... same routine, nothing special happened and usual days...

Felt extremely tired on Tuesday because I didnt sleep well on Monday night =.=, and eventually I got hit by final assignment of my subject in college... need to think of a design concept for my CD-ROM portfolio resume... On Tuesday, my classes are from 12-6pm and I felt headache and tired when I got back home. After using computer until 9.30pm, I went back to my room and slept. The weird thing is, I woke up at 2am and I couldnt get back to sleep after that so I end up waiting until 7am and get myself ready to my college class at 9am. The best thing about Wednesday is my classes are from 9am-6pm XD... since I have already awoke at 2am, after reaching home and had dinner, thought of taking a short nap since I didnt do anything these days on my computer (feel guilty), but fell asleep again. YET AGAIN, I suddenly woke up without reason at 2am AGAINNNN! After waking up at 2am, I couldnt get back to sleep, just like the day before >:(. Also waited until 7am to get myself ready to college class at 9am today.

Luckily today's class is just from 9am-12pm. Manage to get some nice rest after reaching home XD and get back to my work!

Finished my 00 Gundam's GN-Drive just now ^^! Before starting doing this 00 Gundam, the part Im most afraid of doing is the GN-Drive of 00 Gundam... but it turns out to be 'not-so difficult as I have imagined', in contrast to that, the most difficult part of 00 Gundam is it's head which is the most challenging one.

Difficulty level of 00 Gundam:

Head > Chest > GN-Drive

Kinda unexpected...

It's hands and legs should be easy I guess... but definitely 00 Gundam's hands and legs are more difficult than any other Gundams because 00 Gundam's hands and legs are not so 'squarish' compared to other Gundams.

Total time spent on doing 00 Gundam up to date - 73 hours+

Haiz, felt quite depressed as I didnt did much this week because I messed up my sleeping time >:(((, a not-so-productive-week. By the way, there's still haze around I think, everytime I woke up, I felt like my neck was choked.

Which Gundam 00 Character Are You?

2010-10-26T00:51:00.003+08:00

A really really good quiz here! It's very accurate if you really answer the questions truthfully and seriously, haha XP!

I got Graham Aker LOLZ XD!

Friday 22 October 2010

2010-10-23T00:43:00.004+08:00

Completed 00 Gundam's body today!

Aih, can't wait to complete it's GN-Drive and hand next!

Winter Sonata Anime

2010-10-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

WOW now only I realized that there's an ANIME VERSION of the popular Korea drama all time Winter Sonata today!! The anime version of Winter Sonata was premiered last year!

Anyway, here's the trailer of the Winter Sonata anime:

Even the trailer of the anime is so awesome that it gives me chills just by watching it's trailer! Everything is just so amazing man!

After looking at the trailer, I have decided to watch the anime version of Winter Sonata ^^ since I have never watched that drama before actually... When the actual Korea drama of Winter Sonata was premiered here, I was too young that time and I remember watching a few episodes of it, but I couldnt remember a single thing about the drama except those winter scenes and the male lead character keeps emo-ing and that sentimental feeling... rofl XD! Since the anime version of it has been released, I guess it's a great opportunity for me to watch it right now since the anime version one has a more compressed plot (fast-paced story progress unlike the drama which is slow-paced) and the artistic illustrations of those romantic scenes! LOL! Lastly, I prefer to watch it in anime version is because anime can be found everywhere around the net and whatsmore, 24 minutes per episode is not bad so that I can watch it when Im bored or tired especially taking a break from doing my works XD!

Here's the opening of the anime too:

WARGHHH I love the opening of the anime so much especially when it shows the title 'Winter Sonata' in the very very beginning of the opening! The title looked so sweet, innocent, cute and sad! And the winter scenery is so artistically portrayed ^^!

It's really good for those of you that never watched Winter Sonata before and at the same time great for Winter Sonata fans or for those who would want to watch it again! Highly recommend it!

The Story Behind Jay Chou

2010-10-20T23:35:00.005+08:00

Tiring days, just had classes from 9am - 6pm today and just as I plan to take a short nap from 9.30pm - 10pm, I woke up at 11pm instead... man, the instant I woke up, feel headache and blur, I guess Im going to faint at any second right now lol. Gonna sleep early after I finish this post as tomorrow I had class starting at 9am haha!

Woke up just now, actually planned to do my works but the headache Im having now makes me feel like going back to sleep until the next day but before that, I saw a note posted by my friend on facebook about the story behind Jay Chou! Feel so moved after reading it and that's what I have always wanted to say about Jay Chou all these while!

“或许您不喜欢周杰伦
或是很纳闷他到底為什麼那麼红
别急著离去看完或许你会很感动
对生命亲情教养会有更不同的看法
祝福您”

周杰伦来自破裂家庭「妈妈用爱付出一切」
周杰伦，万千青少年為他的歌声而痴迷、崇拜的一位天皇巨星，对母亲叶惠美有著似海深情，因為在他最孤独最无助的时候，是妈妈用温暖爱的臂膀支撑著他。所以周杰伦一直说，「只要妈妈高兴，我愿意為她付出一切！」

音乐天才破裂的家
周杰伦出生於1979年1月，妈妈叶惠美是台北淡江小学的美术老师，爸爸是淡江中学的物理老师。周杰伦4岁读幼稚园时，叶惠美把他送到淡江山叶幼儿音乐班学钢琴。平时活泼好动的小杰伦一站到钢琴面前，竟是出奇的安静，听老师弹奏一遍自己就能復弹出来，老师告诉叶惠美，这孩子很有天分！

為了培养杰伦的音乐素质，叶惠美主张拿出家里全部积蓄為杰伦买一架好钢琴，请最好的钢琴老师為杰伦辅导。而杰伦的爸爸则认為不必这麼认真，男孩子嘛，随意一点，没必要拿出全部积蓄投资。最后，叶惠美还是背著丈夫為杰伦买了一架钢琴，弄得杰伦爸很不高兴。小学三年级时，杰伦偶然听到世界名曲《天鹅湖》，被大提琴忧伤凄美的曲调迷住了，叶惠美没和丈夫商量又為杰伦购买了大提琴。

杰伦爸对妻子叶惠美「孤注一掷」的做法嗤之以鼻，他回家就指责叶惠美的不是，家庭裡的温馨越来越少，争吵越来越多。杰伦不知道爸爸為什麼总要找妈妈吵闹，他用自己稚嫩的诗行记下他的困惑和伤感：

“从小到大只有妈妈的温暖為什麼我爸爸那麼兇
如果真的我有一双翅膀两双翅膀随时出发
偷偷出发我一定带走我妈妈……”

这伤感的诗行杰伦后来為它谱了曲，就是那首令万千歌迷伤感的《爸，我回来了》。

周杰伦初中二年级时，父母终於离婚。 14岁的周杰伦写道：「爸爸妈妈彼此没有爱，难道这就是生命的真諦？」沉默、倔强和叛逆已经塑造了另一个周杰伦。

世人不识君苦闷中的徘徊
周杰伦有音乐天赋，但功课却很糟。高中联考总分只有100多分，连普通高中也没考上，前途一片黯淡，母子俩相对无言，难道儿子就这麼完了？恰好淡江中学第一届音乐班正在招生，周杰伦考上了。

因為弹得一手好钢琴，拉得一手好大提琴，又时常活跃在篮球场上，周杰伦成為许多女同学关注和谈论的对象。但是，周杰伦却常常面无表情，很少露出一丝笑容，除了音乐成绩出类拔萃以外，其它科目成绩几乎全线红字，老师们纷纷认為他智力低下，他的英语老师甚至直言不讳对叶惠美说周杰伦有智力障碍。叶惠美陷入了深深的思索，她还是决定要把杰伦培养成才，至少当一个钢琴师吧。叶惠美没有指责杰伦，她认為杰伦走到今天冷漠、叛逆的地步是家庭的不和睦造成的，并且深信自己的孩子没有智力障碍，於是她嚐试用姐弟式的关心来「驯服」周杰伦，规定自己「三不」：不嘮叨、不指责、不胁迫儿子。

果然如老师们的预测，周杰伦没有考上大学。叶惠美多方打听后，鼓励杰伦去考台北大学音乐系，结果他没有被录取。周杰伦咬著牙考第二次，还是失败了。妈妈和外婆外公都為杰伦的前途担忧，这孩子究竟将来能干什麼呢？

极度迷惘的周杰伦无所事事，只好等待服海军兵役，这期间，竟得了僵直性脊椎炎，令人沮丧的是这种病无法根治，只能靠药物缓解，到了晚期全身甚至会像殭尸一样僵硬，也可能导致瘫痪。叶惠美和外婆说起杰伦就垂泪。

母爱呵护下一飞冲天
病缓解一些后，周杰伦到一家餐厅打工，作為端盘工的他因為时常打翻菜盘，每个月的工资几乎被扣掉了一半。餐厅中有一台钢琴，一次閒暇时周杰伦弹了一曲《肖邦舞曲》，把老闆惊呆了，老闆灵机一动，叫周杰伦不要端盘子了，就在餐厅弹琴，然后请来电视台记者炒作，不但使得餐厅生意火爆起来，还节约了一大笔请钢琴师的费用。

叶惠美感受到了杰伦的音乐潜能，她替儿子在台北星光电视台娱乐节目「超猛新人王」报了名。周杰伦精心创作了一首歌曲《梦有翅膀》，但他对自己的演唱实在没信心，请了一位歌手演唱。演唱者不能理解他的曲风，而他的钢琴伴奏又显得怪异，弄得台下听眾嘘声一片，初出茅庐的一场表演彻底搞砸了。

叶惠美急了，性格内向的她鼓起勇气找到了主持人吴宗宪，把《梦有翅膀》的曲谱拿给他看。吴宗宪当时是台湾阿尔发音乐公司的老闆，他对周杰伦的第一印象并不好，应付似的拿起曲谱扫了一眼，却是眼睛一亮，歌谱不仅抄写得工工整整，而且谱得十分复杂。慧眼的他立即改变了主意：「这孩子还可以，明天叫他到我公司来上班！」

周杰伦进了音乐公司任音乐製作助理，在妈妈的鼓励下，每天主动帮同事们买盒饭，大家对这个沉默寡言但又勤快的小伙子有了好感。而叶惠美总担心杰伦冷漠而倔强，又不善言辞，生怕他无意中把老闆和员工们得罪了，於是常常在下班时间站在公司门口，準备一些可口的比萨、炸鸡送给员工，请他们包涵杰伦。一来二往，叶惠美对公司员工比周杰伦还熟悉，同事们都知道周杰伦有一个好妈妈。

周杰伦很快创作出大量的歌曲，但让吴宗宪感到不可理解的是，他创作的歌词总是怪怪的，音乐圈内几乎没有人喜欢。一次，周杰伦又拿著自己的得意之作送给吴宗宪审读。这次吴宗宪连看都不看，便将那首歌曲揉成一团，随手丢进身边的垃圾桶裡去了。周杰伦的眼泪禁不住流了出来。

是放弃还是继续？妈妈每天来公司门口已经成為一道风景线，如果放弃，太对不起妈妈了，周杰伦硬著头皮支撑著，他吃住都在办公室，以每天一首歌的速度进行创作。叶惠美每天晚上都到公司看望杰伦，望著日渐消瘦的儿子，她强忍著不让自己的泪水流出来，儘量说一些鼓励的开心的话，然后将杰伦换下的脏衣服拿回去洗乾净。一连一个多月，吴宗宪每天早上八点鐘上班时，总能準时见到周杰伦新的作品。终於，他被这位小伙子的勤奋和天赋深深地感动了，他「嗅」出了周杰伦的歌曲隐隐有一种味道，答应找歌手演唱他创作的歌曲。

吴宗宪将周杰伦的《眼泪知道》推荐给天王歌星刘德华，刘德华看了一眼就拒绝了。不久，又将他的《双节棍》推荐给火爆华语歌坛的张惠妹，没料想，张惠妹也毫不犹豫地拒绝了。吴宗宪决定给周杰伦最后一次机会，让他自己演唱自己创作的歌曲，如果这样也不行，他就只好请周杰伦走人了！他将周杰伦叫到办公室，十分郑重地说：「阿伦，给你10天的时间，如果你能写出50首歌，而我可以从中挑出10首，那麼我就帮你出唱片。」

老闆的话刺激得周杰伦兴奋不已，他打电话告诉妈妈后就跑到街上买回一大箱方便麵。他想，就是拼了命，也要做最后的搏击。

周杰伦熬红了双眼如约写出了50 首歌曲，而且每一首都写得结构合理，谱得工工整整。吴宗宪终於有了讚许的笑容，他挑选出10首，2001年初製成了周杰伦的第一张专辑《杰伦》。

公司对这张唱片没抱多大希望，能收回製作成本就算不错了。然而《杰伦》横空出世后，犹如一场猛烈的颱风横扫台湾，很快被歌迷抢购一空。《杰伦》一举夺得台湾当年最佳流行音乐演唱专辑、最佳製作人和最佳作曲人三项大奖。《杰伦》的成功让公司始料不及，让台湾的歌星们大跌眼镜，纷纷询问哪里冒出来的周杰伦？如果说第一张专辑小有成就的话，那麼，周杰伦第二张专辑《范特西》已经形成了风暴，席捲了大陆、港台、东南亚整个华语歌坛，各种大奖纷至沓来。

周杰伦终於成功了，他深深明白，没有妈妈黑暗中明灯般的温暖，他支撑不到今天，妈妈為他一直未再嫁，点点滴滴都是舐犊之情。他将所有的收入都交给妈妈掌管，儘管自己有了公寓，每个週末依然回家，同妈妈、外婆一起享受天伦之乐。叶惠美更是百感交集，当年丈夫的讥讽、老师的摇头、生活的艰辛都随风而去。

叶惠美退休后，周杰伦总担心妈妈寂寞，只要在台湾，他都回家同妈妈住在一起。週末时，他会约上妈妈一起去看午夜场的电影，妈妈喜欢看经典片，周杰伦就陪著看，而周杰伦喜欢看的前卫片，叶惠美也陪著儿子看，幸福的暖流縈绕在母子心间。周杰伦的第四张专辑就叫《叶惠美》，这是儿子献给母亲的礼物。

The boy that doesnt has love from his dad since childhood until now and faced with so many difficulties in his life; having bad pronunciation in chinese words and so on... it is as though that he doesnt has any bright future ahead of him... only with the talent in music, Jay Chou is the one who fights for his dreams and struggled all kinds of difficulties in life. The burdening pressure of wanting to prove to his dad that all the while his mum's support of him was not wasted; and more ironically, having the similarities of looks and the genes of someone you hated the most... not to mention that during the very very last minute that everyone almost gave up on him especially Jacky Wu, saying that 'if Jay Chou could produce 50 songs in 10 days time and by fulfilling the criteria of 10 out of 50 songs that Jay Chou produced can be chosen personally by Jacky Wu as Jay Chou's very first album's tracks, Jacky Wu would help Jay Chou to produce his song album.

Think about it... to produce 50 songs in 10 days time and AT LEAST 10/50 songs MUST BE CHOSEN by Jacky Wu (simply means that if there's no 10/50 songs that Jay Chou produced could satisfy Jacky Wu, Jay Chou would be doomed). During that period, it's a war of struggle between life and death to Jay Chou as he dont has any future anymore since his school examination results are always poor except in music.

In the end, luckily Jay Chou succeeded as his music is spread throughout the whole world right now! The most touching thing is, he never forgets his mum no matter how! The only parent he had that has always supporting him behind! Every mother's day he would give surprises to his mum and I especially like that 'fireworks' part where during mother's day, Jay Chou couldnt get home as he's busy with his works, he specially phoned his mum to look at the window outside the house and fireworks fired up through the sky... wah, touching...

That's why Jay Chou always remained as my idol! Haha XD! Thinking about how many struggles and battles that Jay Chou fought in his life in order to become success, I wonder what can my hands could do or even personally myself, to contribute something to the world... even the people around me... what can my small hands do in a small part of this world?

Thinking about Jay Chou, it's as though Im looking at how I struggled to come this far in order to study this art course Im having now... always have wanted to get into this course since after form 5, but because of parent's disagreement and so on... being thrown into form 6 with the only hope of getting teacher's interview to become a teacher after the discouragements to get into art course, it seems that my only option left is to get the teacher's interview to be a teacher and maybe pursue my interest later on in my life. Failed in getting the teacher's interview despite of me trying my best, there's no chance of turning back now as my parents wanted me to continue my form 6 course since I dont have any 'ideal course' to get into beside the interest of getting in art courses as well as Im quite lost that time... Because of my personal rage of not getting what I wanted, as well as having some troubles in school, I screwed up my form lower 6 life and then later after attending student exchange program to Guangzhou in November 2007, it changed my views towards life completely and although the short amount time of just a month duration of the exchange program, I learnt a lot and the bond of friendship between the people there is already feels like we have been best friends for a very very long time. As I tried my best to save my upper 6 life, it's already too late by the time comes... After that, because of my stubbornness, my parents let me try out my college's workshop and eventually after that, I keep on persuading and eventually ended up where am I right now, even before my STPM result is out XD (I knew that whatever I tell them after my STPM result is out, they wouldnt listen to me anymore because that time they have already given up on me). Despite that, there's still some discouragements from my parents because they lack of knowledge in art field (you know, adults always say art has no future and the best thing they want us to be is becoming a scientist, doctor, lawyer, engineer and so on), my old computer has been used for 3-4 years and cant even support some softwares Im using and quite slow and laggy using it that time... until I continue to work hard, let my parents expose more knowledge in this field and after some several achievements I managed, finally they bought me a new computer and gave me full support... T.T... haha thinking about this, I always write about them keep on making noise about me studying this art course before that... now my parents didnt say anything bad about this course and about me already, nothing to be emo about now rofl XD. Ah reminiscing all this while, I have been fighting for my dreams and it's quite a miracle to me to get into my dream course hahaha! Soooo, never give up your dreams!

Monday 18 October 2010

2010-10-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

Continue doing 00 Gundam today, currently doing it's body:

Haha, I think I will go slow for now since my face is not in good condition... few pimples started popping out already =.=. I think I should control myself from using computer too much these days, exposed too much of lights coming out from the computer screen lol! These days I often feel lazy to wash my face and do facial... kinda depressing because all the hard work spent on taking care my face those 2 months back before my new sem starts now are all gone T.T...

Sunday 17 October 2010

2010-10-18T00:51:00.002+08:00

Spent the whole day doing 00 Gundam's head today! Finally completed 00's head hehe!

This is the initial result of the head I finished doing... but felt not satisfied with it because I left out a lot of details. Due to my 'perfectionist' attitude and my goal of making a highly detailed 3D model of 00 Gundam, I actually had redo it's head for about 4 times today, spending the whole afternoon doing it.

Annndddd finally I did it! It looked better than the previous head I did after so much of hard work!

Saturday 16 October 2010

2010-10-17T01:09:00.004+08:00

Have been busy these days... it's not about my college assignments anyway since this week was quite relaxed a little... only 2 assignments, hehe XD. The thing Im busy about is my own personal 3D project! As I said at the previous post, Im planning to make Exia Gundam but after some considerations... I have decided to make 00 Gundam instead because I think it's wise to do the most difficult model first before more and more college assignments swarmed in, especially final projects and so on... college assignments would get more and more difficult too as time goes... so thinking of this aspect, by the time comes, I would spend more time doing my college stuffs in future and maybe had a little time doing my own stuffs. Therefore, I think I would start doing THE MOST DIFFICULT and TIME CONSUMING Gundam model first, that is 00 Gundam. No point spending time in doing the easy ones as the easy ones can be done in a short time meanwhile juggling it in between my college stuffs in future.

Just like the 3D AE86 car I did previously, it just takes about 3 days to finish it... well counting the time spent on doing AE86, it's about 20 hours only. If there's assignments, I expect that I will take about 5 days or even longer than that depends on my assignment's difficulty + the amount of my assignments, haha!

Friday I have started out doing the 3D model of 00 Gundam for almost the whole night, but even the head of 00 Gundam already made me headache... it's SO DIFFICULT!!!! More difficult than I thought it to be and I wonder how am I gonna make it's GN-Drive since it's head alone is already that difficult! By the way, I finally figured out making it's head today ^^!

This time, I also give myself a certain standard to push myself making 3D models in... 'a more nicer way' lol! This head already consumed me 9 hours doing it and the file size is already at 0.5mb =.=... the previous 3D Gundam models I made are about 3-7mb each after finished.

This is the 00 Gundam Im trying to make, this is the PG grade real life plastic model of it.

This is the HG grade of 00 Gundam just for comparison of the PG grade above. Just in case some of you that doesnt know about what is HG and PG are, HG = High Grade while PG = Perfect Grade, and PG > HG. In Gundam model kits, PG > MG > HG. MG = Master Grade.

Anyway, I havent watched Gundam 00 The Movie yet but somehow, I managed to read the comic scans of Gundam 00 The Movie online XD.

Like the cover art of the comic version of Gundam 00 The Movie haha! By the way, the comic one was until Setsuna encountered Ribbons in the end of the chapter. Have to wait till next month for the next chapter though.

Setsuna's smile is so rare! Man, I like this page of the magazine scan of him!

Lastly, I couldnt help but to be stunned by the awesomeness of the upcoming Gundam model kit of MG 00 Qan[T]!!!!!

This is 00 Qan[T] Gundam in the final scene of Gundam 00 The Movie replicating the 'armor purging' scene of 00 Qan[T] Gundam I think! I wonder if this 'armor purging' gimmick would be included in the model kit too... I certainly hope it is! So awesome man!

So breathtaking!

This is the boxart of the MG 00 Qan[T]! This model kit is scheduled to be released on November, next month for 4500 yen according to the news!

Haiz, this model kit is too awesome that I feel like buying it... it has been about 2-3 years already that I have stopped buying Gundam model kits. But after seeing this today... I felt so shaken by it... argh, I wonder if I should buy it... it's about RM175 after converted, but I expect that it would sell at RM200+ at the shops here after it's released lol!

Haha I guess every single individual has their own 'nerd way' when it comes to certain stuffs. Some are crazy about car stuffs; some are crazy bout computer stuffs; some are crazy about gaming stuffs; some are crazy about DotA; some are crazy about fashion; some are crazy about chinese/japanese/korean idols stuffs... lol!